Someday it'll happen...
When you wish upon a star...
11:11...
I wish I may I wish I might...
Birthday wishes come true...right?
Each time I wish for the same thing.
I need that lovely dream that will bring Happiness and wholeness.
Be my chance, be my break.
And please don't be too long and take
My hopes away.
Run to me, dash my way,
And when you do I hope you'll stay.
Leave your mark upon my soul.
Let your wonder take its toll.
I wish I may I wish I might,
Breath life into my dream tonight.
Nov 15, 2014
Nov 15, 2014 at 12:28 PM UTC
Isn't she wonderful?
With her dark round eyes, and her painted on smile?
Wearing her heart on her sleeve like a medal she's proud of.
A medal she's earned through battles and pain,
A medal that, though tarnished, bears her name.
What lurks behind that war paint on her face?
What feelings and emotions are masked with each
Brush stroke of blush and layer of mascara?
Is this warrior woman real?
Or a figment of her own imagination,
Fearlessly showing the world that she is strong
Enough to hide herself behind a facade?
When each day she gets up and garbs her skin
Does she know that the world will see her as complete?
A being that couldn't possibly be hurting on the inside.
A person who always has a smile on her face,
And joy filling her heart.
But what happens when the doors close?
When the makeup comes off and the close shed?
Is the heart on her sleeve still stitched to her skin?
Or does she shed it like the rest of her armor?
What does a warrior look like alone in her room?
Nov 3, 2014
Nov 3, 2014 at 1:50 PM UTC
Snip goes my heartstrings,
You cut them with your lies.
I didn't think you'd be the one
To cut me down to size.
You made me feel so small and lost,
Like I was nothing, worthless, used.
You took my love and poisoned it,
My heart has been abused.
Do you feel better about yourself
Now that I feel so wrong?
Was that your goal all this while
To bleed me to make you strong?
You still don't know just what you did
To my heart, my mind, my soul.
You lifted me up, then shot me down,
Your presence took its toll.
Now it's anger that I feel
When you avoid looking my way,
Because you'll never know or care to guess
At all I have to say.
Sep 22, 2013
Sep 22, 2013 at 8:03 PM UTC
You cut off my senses.
When you embraced me, I smelt nothing through my bliss.
Now that the bliss is gone I smell your real scent; smoke and lies.
When I saw you, all I saw was happiness and maybe even love.
But now I see this pitiful person, who'd rather be false and unfaithful then be actually happy.
When you kissed me all I could taste was tenderness and something bittersweet and new.
Now, now those kisses are scarred in my memory. They truly tasted of cigarettes and manipulation.
When I heard your raspy voice, I got excited, with goosebumps all over my body.
Now those goosebumps have turned to a cold feeling of dread, because I hear you're around.
You made my senses dull, and pulled a shade over my common sense.
When I saw, heard, touched, tasted, and smelled you, I wasn't really doing any of that.
You are a facade of a person to the world, showing people what you think they want,
In order to get what you want.
You got me in so many ways, but thankfully not in the most important.
Aug 11, 2013
Aug 11, 2013 at 10:14 AM UTC
Breathe in, then breathe out again.
There's nothing that you could have done.
Now you know he's not the one.
Can't separate, so you can't hate.
The two are one in the same.
What you learned, you realized too late.
Now you feel different when you hear his name.
Tortured heart, and twisted mind.
The two don't go together.
To save the pieces of your shattered heart.
You have to leave him forever.
Flashes still come, from a long lost time,
When things were good and real.
But no matter how things used to be,
They can't change how you feel.
Day by day you start to feel much stronger,
You fight the visions and memories.
Another person will come along
Til then your pain will never truly ease
Jul 23, 2013
Jul 23, 2013 at 1:46 PM UTC
Don't worry about me.
I'll find my dream,
In my own time,
At my own pace.
Don't dwell on it.
I can muddle through,
Search where I want,
Find my own place.
I can figure things out,
Don't doubt me and my abilities.
It's the love for that dream that keeps me sane.
Gives me the strength to journey on.
I can handle things alone.
Don't think I can't choose.
It's my gift of balance that drives me.
Gives me the wisdom to decipher right from wrong.
Pinky Promise.
I'll stop if I think I've gone too far.
You know me,
I can see when something doesn't fit.
Cross My Heart.
I'll give it up if it isn't right.
But I have to fight,
To take the leap and go for it.
Jun 28, 2013
Jun 28, 2013 at 3:08 PM UTC
Hallelujahs have turned.
Day into endless night.
Memories have spoiled.
Rid me of your sight.
Save me from this nightmare.
This thundercloud above.
I can't escape this anguish.
Still feel the aches of love.
Sad poems flow right through me.
They're like this bad disease.
They all reek of loneliness.
Though I write them with such ease.
Perhaps I am just waiting.
For someone new to come.
But until they show their face to me.
These saddened words will numb.
Jun 10, 2013
Jun 10, 2013 at 10:45 AM UTC
Give me that Eternal Sunshine, that comes with a hefty price.
Rid me of my memories with every single slice.
The ghost of your touch upon my skin drives my heart insane.
Just thinking of your tender lips, I wish I could abstain.
Stop haunting me with your blue eyes, you laugh, your voice, your smile.
I need to learn to shut you out, to empty every file.
Come peaceful mind and empty heart, your loving warm embrace,
Bring your numbing Novocaine and rid me of his brace.
Take all the things you did to me, the good, the bad, the lies.
Take back the time I gave to you, break all our ling'ring ties.
I think it might well **** me, to just forget your face,
But you're not the man I thought you were, so go ahead erase.
If I could choose I'd turn back time, and change the things I knew.
Like all the things I could avoid just by avoiding you.
You may have made me happy, when things were simple and right,
But I'm tired of this emptiness, this never ending night.
I need to feel the sun again, to be whole without a crack.
So hurry here, go'head begin to take the whole lot back.
I won't remember missing you, or the happiness I had.
I won't the recall those feelings, only purity will you add.
Jun 6, 2013
Jun 6, 2013 at 11:42 PM UTC
That feeling that you get when you drop the last bit of your ice cream cone.
When you think you lost your phone and it's in your back pocket.
When you simply can't find your glasses, which are on your head.
When you trip over a painted line.
When your bookmark falls out of your book.
When you think there's an extra step at the top of the stairs.
When you think there's an extra step at the bottom of the stairs.
When you conveniently keep hitting a newly formed bruise.
When you can't find a matching sock.
When you accidentally press send before you're ready.
When you break a hair tie.
When you step in a deceivingly large puddle.
When you get a paper cut.
When you scratch a CD/DVD.
When you sing along to a song you hate.
When someone steps on the back of your shoe.
When someone's tag is sticking out.
When someone's a loud chewer or chews with their mouth open.
When your hair blows around and gets stuck in your gum or chap stuff on your lips.
When you stain your clothes.
When you lose an earring.
When you run out of cream for your coffee.
When you get to E in your gas tank.
When you step in gum.
When you sit on hot leather seats.
When you sit on wicker furniture with shorts on.
When you get shampoo in your eye.
When the soap is so small it crumbles to pieces.
When no one refills the toilet paper.
When someone sticks the milk or juice back in the fridge with half a sip left.
When you can't for the life of you think of the name of something.
When you forget how to spell simple words.
When you have to walk barefoot on hot pavement.
When you get an awkward sun tan.
When you forget to reapply.
When you get fingerprints on your glasses.
When someone spoils a movie or TV show.
When your favorite character dies (love you Sirius).
When you have an itch with a cast on.
When you can't open a combination lock.
When you hear a mosquito in your ear.
When you drop your change everywhere.
When you smudge your nails right after painting them.
When the Bruins lose.
When the end of your jeans fray.
When you get hat head.
When you get shocked by inanimate objects or people.
When you (re)realize there will never be a new Harry Potter book.
When you have something stuck in your teeth.
When you can't fall asleep at night.
When you can't turn your mind off.
When your phone decides to shut itself off.
When you have a cord that just isn't long enough.
When time after time I have to remind myself that you aren't who I thought you were.
Jun 5, 2013
Jun 5, 2013 at 10:06 PM UTC
My Ideal Man:
1. Watch nerdy movies with me, you'll get my heart quicker if you love Star Wars, Lord of the Rings, and superhero movies along with me.
2. Be a Bruins fan please. Or at least a hockey fan, but Bruins is preferable.
3. Be kind. Don't do things just for yourself. If you see someone struggling help them.
4. Be patient. My family and I are nuts, and I'm so sorry about that, but we love with our whole hearts, and you'll never find people who care for you more, or will do anything for you.
5. Tolerate my musical preferences. I listen to quite a wide range of music, so bear with me.
6. When I'm sick, just let me watch a Disney movie, give me space (because when I'm sick I feel far from pretty, and have a tendency to not want to be around people) and I will love you forever.
7. Have faith. You don't have to be ridiculously religious, but believe in heaven and God.
8. Please have a functioning moral compass.
9. Don't question the TV shows I watch. (Ex. Game of Thrones, Project Runway, Friends)
10. Have a good relationship with your parents and siblings.
11. Be a dog lover, I'm going to want dogs when I live with someone (and I'm so sorry we can only get hypoallergenic ones)
12. Accept the fact that I tell my mum almost everything. If I know, likely she will know unless you make it very apparent that you don't want anyone to know.
13. Don't lie. Just don't.
14. Don't cheat. That should be obvious, but I've been through it before and I don't think I could handle it again.
15. Yes I'm a child when it comes to the little things in life. I love ice cream sundaes, coloring, Spongebob, and most adolescent things. Let it be.
16. If you have something bothering you, talk to me. Communication is key and I can't read minds, no matter how hard I try.
17. Be able to laugh at yourself, I do all the time at myself because most of the time I know I'm foolish.
18. Never underestimate snuggling. Unless it's really hot out.
19. Be spontaneous. Lord knows sometimes I do some strange things for no reason, but as long as they bring joy to someone or yourself, then do it.
20. Love with your whole heart.
growing list
May 31, 2013
May 31, 2013 at 4:12 PM UTC