please leave me alone
I'll run off the face of the earth if you so please
but do not think of me
stop telling me to stop
stop yourself and I wont need to
just breathe
and leave
Jan 21, 2013
Jan 21, 2013 at 4:33 PM UTC
y o u w i l l n e v e r e v e n c a r e
that I scraped my knee in 8th grade
that I will never scratch off the scab with lime juice and sugar
I w i l l n e v e r b r e a t h e
the same breath as you
while we stand in comfort
t h i s i s m y p r o m i s e t h a t
you will never care for me
Jan 19, 2013
Jan 19, 2013 at 11:30 PM UTC
When I was a little girl
I wondered about too many things
I thought too much
I still am little
With much to learn
But I know now so much new
I thought I was a boy
But no, I am a girl
I was always a girl
I thought I liked boys
But no, I like girls
I had always liked girls
This aesthetic crush is getting the best of me
And I honestly don't know what to do
I merely want to kiss you once, maybe twice
I still am a little girl
I still think too much
But I think I'll let this one slide
Jan 16, 2013
Jan 16, 2013 at 4:50 PM UTC
dear kiel,
remember all those months ago
when you had to guess what I was
how scared I was when you meant "now"
but all that came after was smiles
beautiful bashful smiles that someone understood
well, something funny happened today
a boy played a trick on me
I thought he was serious
and now he won't talk to me
it's funny, I thought he'd understand
Jan 14, 2013
Jan 14, 2013 at 8:27 PM UTC
I
I can't handle all this sadness!
This never-ending pressure laps at my being
I can't handle this affection
It eats me alive
Nothing is sane
When everything makes you want to cry
II
the music plays and tears begin
but I have my bearings once again
the emotion rolls waves on my frame
I can breathe
Jan 13, 2013
Jan 13, 2013 at 9:36 PM UTC
you scream
you cry
you die alone
you live and breathe
and die
alone
you shiver
you guilt
you live alone
you bleed and scream
and die
alone
she doesn't like girls the way you do
you wish
you hope
you dream alone
you listen and speak
and die
alone
Jan 12, 2013
Jan 12, 2013 at 7:23 PM UTC
six days to six months
I'm the second girl you love(d)
but I'm happy I had a shot
I want to explore
free of your judgement
you swore I needed to grow a backbone
look at me be so raw and surreal
look at me with those hopeless eyes
I only wish the best to you, I swear
Jan 11, 2013
Jan 11, 2013 at 9:23 PM UTC
I honestly do not crave physical affection anymore
Maybe she ruined it for me
I no longer hunger to kiss or to find everlasting love
I carry this simple affection with me, hoping it will dissolve
Hoping it won't hurt
But sometimes, I am moody
And I crave someone to kiss or to hold or to tell gentle secrets
And then I cry because I know I'll never get it
So I stop wishing
Thus, it starts again
Jan 11, 2013
Jan 11, 2013 at 8:26 AM UTC
I
I always fall for Dersite dreamers
dregs of purple on fortune-telling tea
what is this trying to tell me?
intermission
I'm tired of double-edged swords
that pinprick and build up in the skin
explode into tears of blood and remorse
Should I stop wanting to get to know you?
I might fall even further than I am now
II
Close your eyes, now guess who I'm writing about
her eyes change color
just like her clothes
she's in love with art
she knows how to prose
she celebrates in my victories
and worries in my defeats
I think it's better I don't know the true word of her bodice
Do you know who you are?
Jan 10, 2013
Jan 10, 2013 at 8:42 PM UTC
You never told me
Who destroyed your innocence
and it's too late now
I always wanted
for it to be dramatic
like on the T.V.
but you never did
and you never, ever will
but you had to tell
you divulged to him
it was necessary, thus
you obliged, peaceful
then you threw nail polish
and he said "emotionless"
leave me out of this
Jan 9, 2013
Jan 9, 2013 at 9:37 PM UTC