I yearn for you
not simply
not without cause
through time through years
through changes and
a lifetime
I need to feel your ragged breath
whisper my name
under covers
of darkness
a smell of rose
as your long legs
pull me
in
I love you like
no other
not simply
completely as you
complete
and
we tremble as
the candle’s flame
paints the wall
in floating
orange
4d ago
May 29, 2026 at 11:59 PM UTC
Perpetual
A hollowed out chest
A slip
Misfortune
Blessings abundant
gone
Instantly
Praying
Lord, please
Lord, thank you but please
Impermanence abounds
Life fades
A distant memory
Grateful for
the opportunity
May 1
May 1, 2026 at 3:01 AM UTC
You were right
I was different, weird, odd
I grew up poor
My home was broken
As I’m sure yours was too
My first car didn’t come til I was 18 and in college
Paid for by a Pell grant
Alcohol drugs and violence in the home
No father to be seen
A drunk and abusive and mentally ill step dad
Clothes that smelled of cat ****
A working mom stretched too thin but loving all the same
Loved ones lost and mourned
I imagine we had more in common than we realized
I know in some ways you were trying to keep me down
But in some ways you knew that you could never
In the ways that dumb kids can know things without knowing how or why they know them and unable to articulate their truth
I was never meant to stay
You were never going to drag me down
Hard as you might try
Names, hurtful and crushing
Violence when no one saw
Hiding in shadows or in plain sight
Maybe that’s all you wanted was to know
That you could work your way into my mind
15 years later still
Still I search for an explanation
A ******* reason
A god **** apology
Something
Sure I made it out
I moved on
I left
But I still look back and ask
Why
Maybe we were just stupid kids
Maybe I’m the only one that still thinks about all those things
I do know one thing though
You can’t hurt me now
Sep 5, 2024
Sep 5, 2024 at 1:41 AM UTC
A squeal and a giggle,
a flutter and a swish -
the chase is on!
Dodging dandelions,
rolling clover.
A swoosh a whip,
almost!
Not quite!
Over there!
Now over here!
Keeping pace,
keeping wild,
erratic and momentous.
Landing briefly here
then on the nose,
flits away,
chasing butterflies.
Sep 5, 2024
Sep 5, 2024 at 1:13 AM UTC
Writing, scribbling, scrawling
used to be my way of unscrambling my past
my scattered sense of self
my passionate desires and longing
and now
I have become still.
I do not write as much or as often.
Why?
Simply put - my life is serene and constant
and full.
Full of love, free of the demons I’ve put to bed for good, built upon years and years of sacrifice.
I am busy with my roles - Husband, Father, Protector, and Provider.
Some days I miss the crashing waves
and the practice of pain into art,
but today,
today my currents run deeper,
more subtly, strongly,
and quietly.
May 31, 2023
May 31, 2023 at 2:43 PM UTC
I hope to
rediscover the world
through your eyes,
unlock the mysteries
behind the mundane
again.
See new colors,
think new thoughts,
find the lost joy in music.
I hope to
show you, teach you,
love you, reach you,
in all our imperfect
human ways.
Read new words,
twirl words into lines,
find the perfect poem
for you.
Dec 7, 2021
Dec 7, 2021 at 12:27 AM UTC
Steady as we go,
we live these patterns,
from one day on
to the next
and on.
How unburdened are my thoughts,
how free are my intents
while I know we are a constant.
Season’s first frost
and chilling air
somehow
make our whims
even cozier,
more whole.
Life blooms this December,
how anxious we are
to hold your tiny hands,
to hear your quiet
breath.
We ride these waves,
you and I and our
lovely daughter,
steady and sure
and full of hope.
Nov 5, 2021
Nov 5, 2021 at 4:29 AM UTC
I breathe a sigh of relief
As I hear you let out a deep
And raspy breath -
The day has conquered your mind
And finally
You are asleep
I have sealed my life
Into yours
A promise to serve and cherish
To nurture and care
As you are content
As am I
As you suffer
So must I
Content in your presence
And inspired by your life
Your treasured soul
Sleep
May 3, 2021
May 3, 2021 at 11:16 PM UTC
Some days I am not who I could be -
I ignore things that shouldn’t be ignored,
don’t fix things that should be fixed,
sacrifice my health in favor of comfort.
Some days I am weaker than others -
my own worst critic, my potential is limitless,
but my time is limited.
I get so passionate
about twenty different things and
pull in twenty different directions
and then do none of it.
I’m scattered in what I want to be,
and I want to be everything.
Jack of all trades, master of none of them,
time to refocus this energy
and become one again.
Nov 14, 2019
Nov 14, 2019 at 9:33 PM UTC