every time
i begged
for mercy,
i was whipped
with
already
bloodied chains.
every time
i begged
for grace,
my cries
were
only met
with scorn
and hate
i could never
contemplate.
i was never wanted.
i was never planned.
and yet,
here i unwaveringly
and unwillingly
stand.
martyred,
tortured,
used,
bruised.
for what
is my life
if not to be
used as
the first
lamb
to the
slaughter.
Feb 26
Feb 26, 2026 at 11:13 PM UTC
the eyes
that glared
daggers
into my heart
the lips
that spilled
sweet words
but left
a scar
on my mind
the hands
that inflicted
pain
that seems
to be
everlasting
why do i
bless the hands
that hurt me
over
and over
again
Apr 22, 2025
Apr 22, 2025 at 7:27 AM UTC
in the name
of god
i was
demonized.
i bled tears
from lashes
of the
outrage of
my mother
who recited
verses
when i was
buttered.
my cries
echoed
in the
hollow walls
of my
father's
beating heart
as he
uttered
blasphemous
monologue.
it was not
sin
i was
absolved of,
but rather
of love
that i
desperately
needed.
May 24, 2024
May 24, 2024 at 8:24 PM UTC
the day came
when i thought
that Love
wouldn't come
knocking
on my door.
i opened it,
expecting
my knight
in shining armour,
but all i saw
was a mirror
and a goddess
holding it up
to me.
she was smiling,
even if
my flaws
were brought
to light.
here,
here,
and here.
she said,
what a beautiful
being i am.
shining her
light
upon the shadows,
all i saw
was a hurt child,
wanting to be
loved
and feel loved.
she embraced me
as i embraced
myself.
love.
She changed me.
Mar 26, 2024
Mar 26, 2024 at 4:10 AM UTC
how saddening
is it
to know that
the form of love
we yearn for the most
is something of
equal value
with its other kinds?
how dare
the media
the people
the society
***** my mind
with such lies
that romance
is not all
bells
and whistles
of mankind?
Nov 26, 2023
Nov 26, 2023 at 10:19 PM UTC
her body shines
and twinkles
under the moonlight.
her hair cascades
over the sheets
and into oblivion.
her hands bring forth
a beautiful melody
of pleasure
derived from pain.
back arching like the sunset
over the sparkling sea--
"come before me."
Aug 16, 2023
Aug 16, 2023 at 3:45 AM UTC
you keep being told
that you are
worthy of love,
but you keep
on refusing
what you deserve
because all that
you've ever known
is pain.
confounded
and always so lost,
you don't even know
if shedding your
years of tears
is worth spilling
onto the floor.
inflicting pain on your own,
before anyone else does.
Apr 5, 2021
Apr 5, 2021 at 7:24 PM UTC
no matter how much
i try to keep
holding on,
change my ways,
and look in the
******* mirror
that i hate so much,
i just can't see
a different
kind of me.
crying myself
to the temporary
peace of slumber,
sometimes i wish
it would last
forever and ever.
don't you get
too close,
for i lose all
common sense
when i no longer
see the light.
i'm sorry.
Mar 22, 2021
Mar 22, 2021 at 8:38 PM UTC
you lurk within
and stay between
the things
that i say
and even
the things
that i do.
you show up
whenever
i hold my standards
way too high
for others
yet give excuses
for when i
fail in the eyes
of the world.
you say that
you protect me
from the dangers,
but i say
that you're a child
who has been hurt
over and over
that you have
built walls
and a throne
that is false.
the darkness
is what we humans
tend to fear,
yet it an aspect
that lies within
every each and one
of us,
for we are all
souls craving
everything material
but nothing
spiritual.
Jan 14, 2021
Jan 14, 2021 at 9:56 PM UTC
sometimes,
i just don't know
how to get
other people
to listen to me
in return.
i give them
all my time,
all my love,
all my attention,
yet it just
feels like
i don't get
reciprocated
the same way
enough.
i need
a listening ear
and a shoulder
to cry on, too,
you know?
please
help me.
Nov 22, 2020
Nov 22, 2020 at 11:30 PM UTC