I just want to feel secure.
When I cry to you, run to me.
Be afraid to let my tears fall...
as if any one of them had ran too far down my face,
another drop of blood would pour from your heart
because it pains you so bad to see me cry.
Feel as hurt as you would if you had seen your mother cry.
Maybe not as much
but just COMFORT ME ******
I want to feel secure.
Look me in the eye and tell me you love me.
Not in that voice that you use when you're annoyed.
Make me feel loved and wanted.
Make me feel
like no one could ever replace the love we have
because it's just that ******* strong.
I want to feel secure.
Go out and adventure with me.
I know that I'm your best friend,
but I'm also more than that.
I don't want to just sit at home with you and play video games.
There's so much more to life.
There's so many skies we have yet to see.
I want to only see them with you,
and hope that you to only want to see them with me.
I want to feel secure.
May 2, 2018
May 2, 2018 at 11:18 AM UTC
You know how people say “when I’m happy I’m sad”?
Well that’s not the case for me.
Because when I’m sad, I think about how everything devastates me.
And when I’m happy, I wish that moments like those can last forever.
I think to myself maybe this is destiny and things won’t get no better.
So when I’m sad, I won’t typically tell you that I’m doing fine.
My sadness is an overwhelming feeling that cannot be redefined.
May 1, 2018
May 1, 2018 at 11:13 PM UTC
Are you there...
My emotions have been knocking at this same **** door but you fail to answer them when you hear them.
My feelings have been drowning in a ocean that your boat’s floating on, but I swear it feels like you don’t want to be near them.
I’ve cried over and over begging for you to just listen, but you only tell me to stop.
No comfort, no kisses, no hopeless romantic wishes.
You take advantage now that my heart is unlocked.
I’ve been stuck in this place. It feels like a trap.
The way you keep drawing me in.
You lift me on your boat so that I can breathe.
When I get a break, you throw me back in.
Apr 29, 2018
Apr 29, 2018 at 11:38 PM UTC
Oh he's bad
Bad to the bone
He makes me feel a little nervous
But I swear it turns me on
He takes me to meet his friends
And makes sure that they respect me
He says it's a bad neighborhood
But I know that he'll protect me
Everyone is high or drunk
Even I was a little buzzed
But every time I seen his face
My body did something it never does
All he wants is a girlfriend
He just wants someone that's down
But I told him if he gives it time
I just might stick around
He had his heart broken,
A feeling we've both met.
He wishes for a forever
That he won't later regret
He wishes for a sister
That'll keep his *** in check
Keep his pillow dry of tears
But his sheets so soak and wet
He wants the police off his back
So he doesn't have to sweat
But yet....
He can't dip because the streets is his family
Literally, EVERYONE knows him,
How could I EVER be his sanity?
How could I keep him from behind bars?
Cuz yea, he's looking like a man to me,
But to the feds?, that's dead.
They would never see his tragedy.
Yea he made mistakes.
And on paper he got a record.
But if you lost 10 friends in a year!,
I'm sure you'd be that hurt!
I'm sure you'd smoke so much loud!
Just cuz no one else would listen!
With your middle finger in the air
Screaming **** the system!
But it's okay, I'll be the flame
That matches and calms his fire
We can grow and glow together
He'll be calling me his rider
Nov 15, 2016
Nov 15, 2016 at 1:05 AM UTC
*I'd wish I had known you sooner but I mean...
We have the rest of forever and this is pretty **** perfect
You're kinda like Cinderella
No one expects your presence to light the eyes of everyone in the room
You probably don't expect it either
But Princess, you do.
Except you don't need no mice, no fairy, and no carriage.
I could wrap you in the richest of silk or the most unprocessed fur
Throw loads of makeup on you and contour your contour
But I'd still prefer you naked with steam outlining your body like fog over a lonely lake
And a lonely lake you are
But only because you choose to be
You choose not to be a river, where all of your secrets and thoughts could flow on into the next body of water
You choose to be hidden and secluded and only welcome those, who choose to visit, with your peace and tranquility
And you stay happy because of all the life around you. From the sun visiting everyday to the wild grass and weeds sprouting through you.
You know that life is beautiful. And you are Cinderella, kept behind closed doors.
Like a still lake, you're a hidden positivity.*
Oct 10, 2016
Oct 10, 2016 at 7:26 PM UTC
Sit on the edge of the bed
Spread your legs
Let me devour your divine
Grab and pull on my tiara
Let your golden skin and fingers melt within it
Entangle in it
Arch your beauty in ecstasy
Point your toes and try on your glass slippers
Step into the ball room of an ******** high
A new dimension
A colorful kingdom
We rule this realm
Back and forth, from battling
To sitting on our thrones
We celebrate
Over and over
Hand in hand
Body to body
Sweat and tears
Till we collapse and the night forever goes down in history
Oct 10, 2016
Oct 10, 2016 at 7:05 PM UTC
"Are you high?"
-Yeah
"Don't you want to go vibe with your friends?"
-No
"They might get irritated that you're on the phone"
-I don't care
I'm sorry. I really am.
I'm not trying to get rid of you.
It's just the way you say my name
That really got me into you.
I really want to keep you.
I don't want to mess this up
And if I'm as bad as others say,
Then I'll try to switch up.
I'll try not to be needy
I won't fight hard for my opinion
I'll be that perfect girl
When you introduce me to a friend
That's why I come off the way I do
I don't know any other way to handle it
But I don't want to be a bother
If you're out and smoking cannabis
I'm not used to feeling this.
Not used to not wanting to beg.
I love how you want my attention. I love feeling wanted.
I pity the girl I was before
I was dumb but still down-to-earth
And it was still a reality check
When I finally found my worth
Oct 2, 2016
Oct 2, 2016 at 1:48 AM UTC
I've always known that red lights and good music was supposed to feel special
And at one point, with you, it was.
But those dark nights and red lights became something that told me to stop.
Not to stop the car, but to stop letting you draw me into what had been such a doubtful relationship
And those dark nights were the aftermath of the happy times you brought.
Those dark nights left me with nights even darker
And that good music we played was a distraction
A distraction from God telling me I was going the wrong way.
I was in the passenger seat of the devil's car, painted red
And later on, painted white
Confusing me, making me think I was going right
Till God says that that red glowing light
Is telling you that you're going the wrong way.
Where you're headed, no one is welcome
But with me, you're welcome to stay.
So just follow the green...
But that music was too loud
And the city lights were so bright, that it even blinded me from seeing the signs of the creator,
From seeing my fate,
From looking out for my own destiny.
That music drowned out my thoughts
And wrapped it's happy lyrics around my heart
And later on, my throat
Strangling me more and more with every red light
Till the car finally crashed and I thought that that was it for me
I was rushed to the ER and I met God
And he said he'd give me another chance
And to see the lesson as a blessing that taught me
And to follow the green and only the green
Cuz all the red will ever do is stop me
And now, because of you, dark nights, red lights and good music will never be the same.
These are the paralyzed feelings you brought me
Sep 26, 2016
Sep 26, 2016 at 1:12 PM UTC
I've written and re-written
And still cant find the words
No words to describe your smile
No words to describe your curves
No words to describe your chocolate beauty
**** you are a queen
The way your eyes get more defined
While wedged against your cheeks
The way your thighs get more defined
While pressed against your jeans
Sorry but it caught my eye
How you hide such physique
Sorry if I'm blunt
I want to taste your lips
And glide against your perfect hips
With just my finger tips
And well, my thought process goes
From **** I want to kiss her"
To hear you moaning in my ear,
While in yours, I whisper
*Seductive secret words
That will only **** your mental*
Its crazy how such gentle words
Can make you feel so sensual
Sep 19, 2016
Sep 19, 2016 at 11:09 AM UTC
Get that hate off your heart and get me off your mind
No longer your concern so lets move on with time
Cuz there's No time to go backwards, we tried this before
You made it all clear that the real you is sore
Your ego had shown and your prides on the floor
But you took so **** long, now your prize out the door
...
Im not trying to boost but you could have lived lavishly
Cuz no matter our bank account, no matter what tragedy
We kept our heads up, and your soul was so attached to me
But that one last night i had you, you had did me savagely
And i accept that, matter fact i respect that
I told you to stand up for yourself and helped you grow, U can't neglect that
But when your fam ask what happened, do you tell them all the truth,
tell me what words did you really use to reflect that?
Tell me what words did you use to help you think that
What you said was how u felt cuz if u think back
Just one day before, we walked out by the shore all in love but i guess you didnt sink that
I guess you pick and choose what you want to marinate
But thank god, cuz this really could have been a later date
We were three years deep in and i let it sink in
That with you i could never see my heart break
But that broken heart and shade that you threw was never worth it
And im not playing innocent, i threw shade, i got my word in
But that really does nothing
So can we please stop the bluffin
Cuz the both of us knows we dont deserve it
The both of us cant really bare the burning
The hate in us cant stand to feel us hurting
Aug 24, 2016
Aug 24, 2016 at 10:35 AM UTC