How to describe something so perfect?
A smile that shines brighter through your eyes than your lips
Slowly leaning into you
The way you easily reciprocate my sarcasm
You keeping the receipt from our first date with our stick figure rendition that the waitress drew for us
Pausing the movie so we could dance
Our first kiss
The whirlwind of the first week
Hearing I love you tumble from your lips
How to describe something so wrong?
A wall, though not physical in nature, effective just the same
The grains of you slipping through my fingers
The absence of the spark in your eyes that told me I was the only one
The silence that should be filled with the words I never said
I love you too
May 29, 2017
May 29, 2017 at 1:41 AM UTC
It was more than a year ago
I admitted you were no good
I tried to let you leave my head
And you did
But all good things must come to an end they say
And one short week was enough
to pull me back
Sorta
I was convinced things were different
We were friends now
Temptation was prevented
by my faithfulness to Someone Else
Until that Someone Else left
and surprise.
You were back.
creeping your way back into my head
monopolizing my thoughts
I tried to remember
You are no good
But every time those six letters
appear on my screen
my heart jumps
a little
So please
Don't talk to me today
if you don't plan on saying Hello
tomorrow
Apr 14, 2017
Apr 14, 2017 at 1:47 AM UTC
"And We're Burning All the Bridges."
she listens to the lyrics and thinks of what her mother had told her:
"You are their bridge"
they must be burning me now
Mar 27, 2015
Mar 27, 2015 at 10:22 PM UTC
There are days
When I look at the week before me
And only see the list of things
To be completed and checked of
No joy, simply a methodical process
I call life
But I had an exam this week
For dance not school
A change in the schedule
Stressful, yes
But also an accomplishment greater than my average week
And as I came out of the exam
I remembered why I put myself through hours of rehearsal each week
Because when I perform
I am alive
I am full of an energy
High on the sense of pride and self-esteem I don't feel any other time
Feeling like, for a moment, I can do anything
It doesn't last all that long
But that's is okay
Because now I've remembered
And I won't forget again
Feb 7, 2015
Feb 7, 2015 at 9:24 PM UTC
Where do you go
When your house
Is no longer a home
When you no longer feel safe in your bed
Because you can hear their words
And your cheerleaders
Are the ones holding you back
Where to you turn
When you supposedly greatest supporters
Become your greatest critics
When the gossiping girls in the bathroom
Have insults
That seem like elementary insults
Compared to the things you hear at home
When do you decide
Enough is enough
When they are to afraid to repeat their words
To your face
When you can't tell them things
For fear they will use it against you
When do you decide it is time to spread your wings
And leave the nest that has become a death trap
It doesn't matter if I can or cannot fly
I would gladly plummet downwards
As long as I escaped
When do you finally stop denying
What once were your parents
Are now simply your
"Legal Guardians"
Feb 5, 2015
Feb 5, 2015 at 11:51 PM UTC
I understand your frustration
With my lack of motivation
And my repetitive procrastination
But you need to realize
I'm only doing what I need to
To survive
Music and books
Keep me alive
Therefore
if you wish to see me
Tomorrow morn
Please leave me be
Feb 3, 2015
Feb 3, 2015 at 1:14 AM UTC
I'm drowning again
Waves have been crashing over me
As I struggled to swim
But now
I'm just sinking
The fight is gone
Gravity is taking over
And the light grows thin
As I sink into darkness
I tell myself to breathe
But it's a hard thing to do underwater
Jan 31, 2015
Jan 31, 2015 at 12:11 AM UTC
I've been feeling so alone
And so lost
As if I was trapped in the dark forest of my mind
Not knowing which way is out
And which way is into further isolation
And than I walked
And walked
With music playing in my ears
Alone
But I wasn't lonely
I was free
And I wished that I could just walk forever
Not away from anything
Not to anything
Just walking
forever
Jan 21, 2015
Jan 21, 2015 at 11:54 AM UTC
You tell me it's okay
You're fine
But you are lying
It hurts when no one notices
I know
I always thought
I was good at seeing when others were hurting
It was one thing I could do
Be a good friend
But now I know
I am not even that
I am so sorry
I wish I could take your pain
And keep it for myself
Bear the burden you don't deserve
Shelter you both from the world
Stop you from hurting
I can't
So it turns out
I'm just a ****** person
Jan 18, 2015
Jan 18, 2015 at 4:46 PM UTC