So I started reading my poems today
The ones I posted since my first Sunday
Seems to me that I suffered a lot
I was upset and wanted to spill some blood
I'm better now, I really am
Writing poems was an escape
A path that I had to take
I'm glad for everything I wrote no take backs
It's how I felt, true, raw and dark
Thank you for everyone who was
there
Without you non of these I could bear
Jun 29, 2019
Jun 29, 2019 at 8:56 AM UTC
I have class to take
I have love to make
I have places to visit
Taste the wine, so exquisite
I have people to see
I have passion on me
I have the sun and the sea
I have the birds on the tree
I have the dogs in the park
Catching the ball and bark
I have beautiful friends
Talking all night no ends
I have a fire in my soul
I thought I forgot but not at all
I'm finally free
Oh the sun and the sea
Soon it will be summer
I'll be so bronzed no wonder
Soon I'll be so free
No pain will weigh on me
So much I can share
The life, the love, the care
Apr 19, 2019
Apr 19, 2019 at 6:03 AM UTC
You are who you are, I am who I am, nothing will change
And now our fake love ..estranged
I just HAVE to move on for God's sake!
I'm tired of wasting my self, no more to take
It's finally time for my soul to feel free
I can't move, I count to three..
One : "breath"
Two : "let it sink in"
Three : "exhale slowly"
Oh..my...word, Holly Molly!
Do something for me, why do I need to suffer?!?
It's not enough what I've done?
What else do I need to learn?
They say every step is a lesson
I haven't written in a while, I'm a mess on and on..
Trying to write a poem, I followed you again
I'm trying to find your new girlfriend
Where is she what's her name?
Will she bear your child one day?
Something I was always afraid of was that I never mattered to you.
And it seems that this is my lesson :
I need to love myself more than I ever loved you..
Apr 16, 2019
Apr 16, 2019 at 5:24 PM UTC
Yesterday I felt good about myself
I thought I looked good in that dress
Today I saw a video of me
And my self esteem went down, I'm down on my knee
I'm working so hard to maintain,
A good physic my self to entertain
My self to be proud of
My self to not be worn off
I count calories every day
A limit I set to always obey
A workout regim to never look pass
Only walking, not taking the bus
I find my legs so thick why?
I find my arms so flabby, No I deny
I'm gonna try to push some more forward
To not give up on this trip, only onward
Feb 8, 2019
Feb 8, 2019 at 4:30 AM UTC
Don't have much to say
Just writting, my heart to obey
Everything hurts so much today
Everything falls along, but not my way
I, a slay..
A clueless little girl, so gray
No way for me to go, affraid
Scared and alone once more, no hey!
Can't believe what my eyes saw today
Why do I feel so alone again, Sunday
Another week has passed away
I'm scared to ask for help, I pray
My lips where yours, your prey
My hips you touch, no shame
Is that your new girlfriend, Fray?
I can't believe what I saw today..
Jan 12, 2019
Jan 12, 2019 at 4:15 PM UTC
You're just another ******* hidden under the name of God.
You're soon to be 40
I'm nowhere near 30
I hate you so much now, I only wish you bad
I hope you'll die soon, wasn't your plan to be closer to God?
All your ******* stupid beliefs broke us apart.
And I feel a LOSER falling in your trap of love.
I hope you'll read this and understand that you shouldn't exist
A mistake you were always, an angry ******* beast.
Jan 6, 2019
Jan 6, 2019 at 3:50 PM UTC
I dont need a boyfriend
I'm good on my own
I've got my friends
For my love to show
I need the love from people who care
I would never let them feel in dispair.
I will do all I can to make them feel good,
Enjoying our time in our neighbourhood
My girlfriends smiles are so sweet and kind
Makes my heart flatter with happiness never mind-
Whatever comes your way always remember
The ones who where there from the start of your life, remember!
Dec 31, 2018
Dec 31, 2018 at 9:16 AM UTC
I write because I have nothing else to do
And now your missing feels deeper than before
I need to bring you back somehow
I miss you more each day and more
I still can't believe that you're gone
And I feel more and more alone
Whatever others say you were my little brother
And my heart aches so much..
always blaming my Self
What could I have done more?
What will I do without you to adore?
You were the best thing that ever happened to me
7 I was when we met.
Atleast you're in a better place now baby, I miss you endlessly
I wish I could bring you back
But I promise we'll meet again in heaven,
Because that's where you belong.
Dec 4, 2018
Dec 4, 2018 at 11:46 AM UTC
Our first month was our start
So we can't say it was good or bad
Our second month was apart,
Far away but still our start
Our third month brought us together
To the forth we said forever
Even if for so long, we weren't together
Now entering the fifth,
I can't wait for the sixth
And seventh will follow
Our hearts will never be hollow
Eighth will pass
And ninth here it was
Tenth already feels like a bliss
Eleventh closer to the beach
And twelfth, look its already a year!
How time has passed dear oh dear
Will each year feel this way?
Time after time closer to our day?
May we always find shelter in the eyes of eachother
May we support and thank God for one another
Dec 3, 2018
Dec 3, 2018 at 8:20 AM UTC
It hurt so much to not hear from you
So I decided to disappear from the sight of you
To let you alone, let you think well
Until your heart and mind feels better
I dont know if it's the right thing to do
Been trying my best to keep the best part of you
Another day, I dont want to deal
I dont even know how to make our goals ideal
Maybe you're out, maybe you're not
Maybe I'm online and what not
Haven't spoken properly in days
Will you care more about me if we part ways?
My love I'm sorry my heart is in pain
And I can no longer live in vain
A little girl you wanted, a little girl to adore
Now that you have her you want more?
Nov 30, 2018
Nov 30, 2018 at 7:42 AM UTC