emmy22 - Hello Poetry

I asked you to come over last night. I felt like I was laying on rock bottom With no way to get up As more rocks were gradually being stacked on top of me. The weight became too much to bear My body started shaking uncontrollably I did not want to be alone. “Just take deep breaths, I’ll hurry.” You came over and you climbed into my bed You held me until my racing heart had calmed And I finally felt like I could breathe again. Then something in you switched- You started gripping me tighter Moving your hands to lower places “Please babe, I really don’t want that tonight. I don’t feel like myself. I just want you to hold me.” You were persistent, whispering “Your body tells me otherwise.” My heart began to speed up again As I tried one more time to say, “Please I can’t handle that tonight. I thought it was clear, I just wanted you to hold me, And make me feel okay again.” This time you tried to take my pants off. “Do you want this- Or do you want me to go home?” Giving me an ultimatum. “I just want to feel okay. I don’t want that tonight.” And with that you got out of bed and Grabbed your keys and belongings as you headed for the door. I made sure you were watching- As I undressed myself Throwing my clothes into a neat pile on the ground Before wrapping myself up in my fuzzy blanket To comfort and calm myself. I saw your true character last night. And I learned That you cannot find serenity In the same place you found discomfort.

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Nov 2, 2018

Nov 2, 2018 at 12:12 AM UTC

Moving On

I asked you to come over last night. I felt like I was laying on rock bottom With no way to get up As more rocks were gradually being stacked on top of me. The weight became too much to bear My body started shaking uncontrollably I did not want to be alone. “Just take deep breaths, I’ll hurry.” You came over and you climbed into my bed You held me until my racing heart had calmed And I finally felt like I could breathe again. Then something in you switched- You started gripping me tighter Moving your hands to lower places “Please babe, I really don’t want that tonight. I don’t feel like myself. I just want you to hold me.” You were persistent, whispering “Your body tells me otherwise.” My heart began to speed up again As I tried one more time to say, “Please I can’t handle that tonight. I thought it was clear, I just wanted you to hold me, And make me feel okay again.” This time you tried to take my pants off. “Do you want this- Or do you want me to go home?” Giving me an ultimatum. “I just want to feel okay. I don’t want that tonight.” And with that you got out of bed and Grabbed your keys and belongings as you headed for the door. I made sure you were watching- As I undressed myself Throwing my clothes into a neat pile on the ground Before wrapping myself up in my fuzzy blanket To comfort and calm myself. I saw your true character last night. And I learned That you cannot find serenity In the same place you found discomfort.

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When your heart is broken And you carry the heaviness with you Everywhere you go- You begin to wonder If the sun is ever going to come out again You begin to wonder If you will ever find joy in little things again You being to wonder If you will ever be able to go a single day Or perhaps ~a single hour~ Without thinking of you And forgetting how to breathe

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Nov 2, 2018

Nov 2, 2018 at 12:06 AM UTC

Broken Heart

When your heart is broken And you carry the heaviness with you Everywhere you go- You begin to wonder If the sun is ever going to come out again You begin to wonder If you will ever find joy in little things again You being to wonder If you will ever be able to go a single day Or perhaps ~a single hour~ Without thinking of you And forgetting how to breathe

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I miss you the most at night When the world is so still & silent That the echoes of us making love Linger on my bedroom walls~ Thinking about your hands Makes my heart speed up... a lot. I’m scared no one’s touch Will ever burn a fire in my soul Quite like yours did. An immense wildfire- That somehow Always left me to germinate in the aftermath.... alone. But that’s the way of nature I suppose

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Nov 2, 2018

Nov 2, 2018 at 12:01 AM UTC

3:27am

I miss you the most at night When the world is so still & silent That the echoes of us making love Linger on my bedroom walls~ Thinking about your hands Makes my heart speed up... a lot. I’m scared no one’s touch Will ever burn a fire in my soul Quite like yours did. An immense wildfire- That somehow Always left me to germinate in the aftermath.... alone. But that’s the way of nature I suppose

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I always thought we were the perfect match. But matches are meant to ignite and burn out.

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Nov 1, 2018

Nov 1, 2018 at 11:58 PM UTC

Perfect Match

I always thought we were the perfect match. But matches are meant to ignite and burn out.

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You grew fond of me and decided I was ~just right~ for the part. But my wide-eyed gaze & animated youth Was uninformed I was being casted. You held my strings so loosely at first- Gently allowing me to spin for you In my favorite skirt and flower top But you slowly wrapped the strings Tighter around your fingers Giving me a warm, innocent grin- To distract me from the scene at hand. You maintained control so well- The true art of the puppet master. But I will not be attending the final showing. Thank you for the preview though. ~Let the casting begin~

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Nov 1, 2018

Nov 1, 2018 at 11:55 PM UTC

Puppet Master

You grew fond of me and decided I was ~just right~ for the part. But my wide-eyed gaze & animated youth Was uninformed I was being casted. You held my strings so loosely at first- Gently allowing me to spin for you In my favorite skirt and flower top But you slowly wrapped the strings Tighter around your fingers Giving me a warm, innocent grin- To distract me from the scene at hand. You maintained control so well- The true art of the puppet master. But I will not be attending the final showing. Thank you for the preview though. ~Let the casting begin~

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Everything is great Then the silence is broken A heavy thud Then everything is blurry And finally- Everything is black

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Nov 1, 2018

Nov 1, 2018 at 11:50 PM UTC

Euphoric Car Crash Emotions

Everything is great Then the silence is broken A heavy thud Then everything is blurry And finally- Everything is black

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Somehow Every time I gripped tighter You became further. It felt like I was drowning, Catching all the life savers But stacking them all on you. It felt like I was trapped in the dark, Or did you put my hood on?

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Nov 1, 2018

Nov 1, 2018 at 11:47 PM UTC

Holding on

Somehow Every time I gripped tighter You became further. It felt like I was drowning, Catching all the life savers But stacking them all on you. It felt like I was trapped in the dark, Or did you put my hood on?

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january how many more broken nights of crying will it take before you are strong enough to say goodbye? february stop forcing yourself to swallow your feelings. you are so much more than he is claiming, and you need to get this through your head. march follow your gut feeling. the way he speaks to you and makes you feel will never be okay and this is toxic. april stay true to your word and stop giving him more chances. he comes crawling back with flowers on your bed and you take him back every **** time. may you want to prove to him that you don't need him, and once he sees that get back together with him in a few months. but you tell everyone else that you are done for good. june you are surrounded by music and dancing and laughing and for the first time in a year you feel alive and apologize to yourself for allowing his brokenness to consume you for so long. july you can't imagine ever being with someone so toxic again. you regret letting him manipulate you for so long, but you know that you had to learn a lesson, and are now not so naive. august this has been the greatest summer of your life and you are thankful everyday that you worked up the courage to leave him. september you start college and see that he would have prohibited your future if you didn't leave him. he was manipulating and toxic. october you start to really like a new guy and for all the right reasons. you see patience, understanding, and empathy, all things that the last boy lacked. november you are still crushing on this boy and have now kissed him, but you know that you still do not want a boyfriend, you are not ready, you are still too damaged. december you are now dating this boy. you are scared to fall for him because you never again want to be so blinded by love that you stay long after it's gone bad. let yourself fall. this time you have learned, this time you are stronger, this time you are stable, and this time a good thing lies ahead.

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Jan 5, 2017

Jan 5, 2017 at 11:31 PM UTC

2016

january how many more broken nights of crying will it take before you are strong enough to say goodbye? february stop forcing yourself to swallow your feelings. you are so much more than he is claiming, and you need to get this through your head. march follow your gut feeling. the way he speaks to you and makes you feel will never be okay and this is toxic. april stay true to your word and stop giving him more chances. he comes crawling back with flowers on your bed and you take him back every **** time. may you want to prove to him that you don't need him, and once he sees that get back together with him in a few months. but you tell everyone else that you are done for good. june you are surrounded by music and dancing and laughing and for the first time in a year you feel alive and apologize to yourself for allowing his brokenness to consume you for so long. july you can't imagine ever being with someone so toxic again. you regret letting him manipulate you for so long, but you know that you had to learn a lesson, and are now not so naive. august this has been the greatest summer of your life and you are thankful everyday that you worked up the courage to leave him. september you start college and see that he would have prohibited your future if you didn't leave him. he was manipulating and toxic. october you start to really like a new guy and for all the right reasons. you see patience, understanding, and empathy, all things that the last boy lacked. november you are still crushing on this boy and have now kissed him, but you know that you still do not want a boyfriend, you are not ready, you are still too damaged. december you are now dating this boy. you are scared to fall for him because you never again want to be so blinded by love that you stay long after it's gone bad. let yourself fall. this time you have learned, this time you are stronger, this time you are stable, and this time a good thing lies ahead.

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I know that one person always loves more. And I know that in this situation that person will always be me. I know that I have slowly submerged myself into your presence and completely fallen for you. I know that when I told you this, it intrigued you. I know that you do not like me like I like you but rather it is more of a curiosity game with you and of course the affection I am providing is worth taking to you It hurts to know that you are only intrigued and that you do not actually see me the way I see you, or like me the way I like you. It hurts that you are talking to me for pure fun and something new. But I will pretend to not be phased and push ahead as if I am unbothered because I consider myself lucky to have gotten your attention at all.

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Nov 28, 2016

Nov 28, 2016 at 3:04 AM UTC

Keep Going

I know that one person always loves more. And I know that in this situation that person will always be me. I know that I have slowly submerged myself into your presence and completely fallen for you. I know that when I told you this, it intrigued you. I know that you do not like me like I like you but rather it is more of a curiosity game with you and of course the affection I am providing is worth taking to you It hurts to know that you are only intrigued and that you do not actually see me the way I see you, or like me the way I like you. It hurts that you are talking to me for pure fun and something new. But I will pretend to not be phased and push ahead as if I am unbothered because I consider myself lucky to have gotten your attention at all.

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I want to love you innocently. I just want to be around you and embrace everything that you are. I hang on to every laugh and every smile you bring into the air I am breathing. I find myself so lucky to live at the same time as such a human as yourself and to find you in my life on top of it. I know that you cannot help who you like and I would never ask you to try such a thing. But for what it's worth, I like you I like you a lot and if one day you decide that you like me too I would be the happiest girl alive.

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Nov 28, 2016

Nov 28, 2016 at 3:00 AM UTC

Untitled

I want to love you innocently. I just want to be around you and embrace everything that you are. I hang on to every laugh and every smile you bring into the air I am breathing. I find myself so lucky to live at the same time as such a human as yourself and to find you in my life on top of it. I know that you cannot help who you like and I would never ask you to try such a thing. But for what it's worth, I like you I like you a lot and if one day you decide that you like me too I would be the happiest girl alive.

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