emma-jacobson
American
I have a love affair with words. I am too smart for my own good sometimes. I am aware of a lot more than most people. I love to love. I don't relate to anyone and it doesn't bother me at all. I like to tell people I am not afraid of anything. Learning is my favorite thing to do.
I just want to run wild
strap my black boots on tight
hear leather on concrete in empty night
Let my lightning set the streets on fire
feel my skin ****** by distant eyes
watching me from the icy sides
of their mundane wives
mundane lives
shooting up their jealously makes my head feel high
scream up like a bullet at the sky
please God, don't let me cry
leave these crystal eyes diamond dry
already on the edge, just let me fly
I've never felt more alive
I laugh like a deviant child,
when you all seem to think I've died
But baby, I'm only dead on the inside
or the outside
Maybe both, or neither, at the same time
I still like me better when I've lost my mind
Jun 27, 2014
Jun 27, 2014 at 6:00 PM UTC
I let you use my body last night
i think i liked it more than you did
the look in your lion eyes made me tremble as
you crawled over the leather skin of my couch
and dragged your hungry lips over mine
i let the embers on your fingertips brand chains around my wrists
a wild laugh escaped from your teeth
as you pressed yourself up against me
to let me feel the excitement
and show me what was coming
your breath pricked my skin
as your hands ripped away everything stopping them from warm flesh
i was naked
exposed
stripped
raw
for you to see
and touch
and control
you led me like a child into the bedroom
I was your doll, as you bent me over the side of the bed
sweat licked my spine
and i felt your eyes tasting every curve of my body
anticipation ran its fingernails over the velvet of my back
You stood silently behind me,
your fingers played with the space just above my anxious skin
making me wait
I bite into the skin of surrender
and let the juices bleed
down my open lips
to the blooming lilies of my neck
May 19, 2014
May 19, 2014 at 2:44 PM UTC
embers become stuck
blooming stars in the dark skies
of my onyx eyes
Mar 22, 2014
Mar 22, 2014 at 4:45 PM UTC
I look up at the tired wood ceiling,
because i can't get your face out of my head
You stick to me like stubborn paint
and grip my skin with barbed wire teeth
Sharp snow comes down like hammers in my chest
icicles get stuck to the raw skin of my throat
Cold tears push their way through
my eyes hurt from trying to hold them in for so long
they cling to my lashes for dear life
until their fingers break like china dolls
Only then they flow,
impatient rain drops falling from tree tops
Echoes from howling heart grind against my ear drums
rose tears float along satin veins
The acid in your foot steps makes my exposed skin tremble,
every time you and her walk down the roads of my mind
My stomach turns violent to think of her sleeping next to you
that you roll over and watch her dream
that she gets to hear your tired mumbling
and have your scent cling to all of her clothes
I cringe when i think shes wearing your favorite sweatpants
and that she makes you laugh more than i did
I want to stomp on the butterflies she gives you in your stomach
or catch them, **** them, and wear them as a trophy
it hurts me to know I'm just a piece of your past
I'm part of the puzzle that got lost under the sofa
something stale and forgotten
Mar 21, 2014
Mar 21, 2014 at 3:46 PM UTC
The pain rushes in like manic waves.
their hungry currents are irate,
and knock my feet out from under me.
Tar oozes down my spine slowly like wet slug,
And traps the lighting in each vertebrae.
They sting and splinter like diamonds.
My skin sings the blues louder than the storm shrieking inside me.
It begs me on its knees to play those silver keys,
and let ruby notes sparkle down
paper wrists to finger tips.
My tears release their fleeting grip
and get comfortable on my cheeks.
My heart screams mercy and defeat.
Nothing is in control but the chaos
and there is only chaos with careful control.
I am a tired star ready to sleep.
On the edge of a supernova,
waiting for my chance to be stardust
Mar 13, 2014
Mar 13, 2014 at 11:30 PM UTC
The salty wind twirls its fingers around the waves of my hair
and the sand sleeps draped in moonlight under my feet
The ocean meditates
and the sky wears a veil of midnight moss
Your hands drip down my back like warm honey
My skins licks the sweetness from your palms
I drink you down like sun rays and pink lemonade
Your sugar dives deep into my cherry veins
Your heat makes all my questions evaporate
My eyes are full moons glowing on your face
Your lips throw mine up against a wall
and explore
And a breath escapes me like wild hummingbirds
Mar 11, 2014
Mar 11, 2014 at 11:29 PM UTC
I kissed you out in the open last night
My lips were sticky with beer and static
I smelled like cigarettes and wild apples
My skin whispered to the tips of your fingers every time we touched
I felt like a violent flame dancing with no wind
Your eyes on my skin felt like cool black glass
Your tongue was so willing and tasted like maple syrup
Sweet and heavy
It dripped down my teeth like hot, sugary wax
My insides were shrieking horses, waiting to run
Their hooves drilled the ground with impatience
and their eyes were wild children, running towards sunsets
You pulled me closer
My heart beats were thunder
My breath was lightening
My hands moved like savages down your shoulders
The sky snickered
The stars sighed
And the moon looked away
I didn't care
All i could taste was maple syrup
Mar 8, 2014
Mar 8, 2014 at 5:26 PM UTC
All I can do i laugh until I cry
As i watch you forget to say goodbye
you walked away
Like it was all a little game
But you didn't forget to dig my grave
Your shovel cuts deep into my back
I can't see anything, but empty black
My tears crawl down
and break the ground
without a sound
I'm lost without you around
It's funny how this all played out
And how quickly you forget all we talked about
Were her kisses anything like mine?
Do you think she could taste all of your lies?
All you ever did was make me cry
And its like all I ever do is lose my mind
I shiver at how easy it was to leave me behind
I hope you freeze without my fire
Mar 5, 2014
Mar 5, 2014 at 11:41 PM UTC
All of this time has gone by
I can't seem to stop the arms on the clock.
No matter how hard I push them back,
they slingshot forward like comets
with lost tears trailing desperately behind.
Overcast sleeps soundly above the grooves of my brain
and sleet slides like needles down the back of my neck
glass paints the pavement of my cheeks
Frozen quartz blooms from my eyelashes
When i think of you,
a storm shrieks inside my chest
Its furious
and ******
It breaks all of my windows
And all of my houses collapse
the image of your face in my mind is like peeling wallpaper
Ugly
Tired
and sad.
Mar 5, 2014
Mar 5, 2014 at 11:30 PM UTC
Its's hard to write in here sometimes
I'm afraid to confront myself
It feels like an intervention
It's way easier to be honest with everyone else
Life is just scary right now
My three year relationship is over...
And it breaks my heart
Why couldn't he be what i needed?
Why couldn't he not be selfish?
Why couldn't he be the person i thought he was?
His baggage is just too heavy for me
and he can't figure out how not to hurt me
how sad is that?
i feel like a used napkin
All i can do now is let go
like everyone keeps saying
there's always just a crescent of hope glowing inside me
and i cling to happiness like an old teddy bear
all the good times rush in like warm waves...
Then they fall back to the sea
its not enough
love is funny like that
it can't stand on its own two feet
I'm alone now.
Its really sad and relieving
I feel like i can breath and like i'm suffocating
Like i'm in an open field and a jail cell
I'm a ghost and a brick wall
I don't know
It's just really hard to write in here.
Mar 5, 2014
Mar 5, 2014 at 11:21 PM UTC