It doesn’t stop hurting.
From my fingers, to my toes.
It swirls in my head and shocks the heart.
Over and over it goes.
Dry mouth, and empty stomach.
There is nothing to stop the pain.
So I guess I’ll sit in silence,
Because I’m not sure who to blame.
Talking doesn’t help.
Although you think it would.
Music only hurts my ears,
When usually it does me good.
Hot, cold, or neither?
It seems I cannot tell.
The affect I have on others,
I have no idea as well.
I wish I could do something.
But my body will not move.
All I know is that I hurt,
And there’s nothing that I can do.
I guess I should be worried,
But I don’t think I can.
I don’t even know if this is real,
Or if maybe it’s the end.
Dec 9, 2011
Dec 9, 2011 at 4:06 PM UTC
You don’t know me, you don’t care.
I am here and you are there.
Convenience is your only way.
I’d say anything to make you stay.
Killing me softly,
With the games in my head.
Trapped myself,
With the things I have said.
Can’t cry, Can’t speak.
I’m all out of power.
So what say you,
In my final hour?
Digame more,
Digame less.
I am alone.
And I am a mess.
Dec 9, 2011
Dec 9, 2011 at 3:33 PM UTC
Nerves scrambled.
Whisk whisk.
Always the fool,
When I take a risk.
Hating heavy,
But hurting more.
What will be,
When you’re next door?
What the **** your problem is?
You don’t know her, never did.
Wreck this fantasy.
It does not exist.
Tear out your heart.
That giant cyst.
I know, crazy.
A bit of a twist.
Maybe I,
Exaggerated a bit?
Dec 9, 2011
Dec 9, 2011 at 3:31 PM UTC
I.
Nowhere near sane.
Mood flips, happy dips.
Struggling to be solid.
My insides jello.
Yearning for mellow.
My heart is fire, my fingers ice.
Asked me how I’m doing. Nice.
Pleading for the end,
But no end in sight.
I haven’t done the work,
Not yet, still might.
Only halfway there?
Losing or gaining speed?
I feel hate for you.
But you’re what I need.
My journey is solo.
Bipolar? I hope no.
Want to stay, but HAVE to go.
I’m a mess.
“Duh, we know.”
It’s a battle.
My internal war.
In the end,
My goal is more.
SCREAMING heavy.
Desperation kicks in.
And all of this,
I hold within.
Dec 9, 2011
Dec 9, 2011 at 3:11 PM UTC
I'm absolutely horrified.
At night I lie and wait to die.
I feel sick and ashamed.
You took a pistol to my heart and aimed.
I'm black, tainted, no longer good.
Apologize? As if you could.
Jun 27, 2011
Jun 27, 2011 at 1:08 PM UTC
You can't be Mercury and then Pluto,
As if my hearts the sun.
You can't whine like a baby,
and then try and call me ***
You can't treat me like a worm,
and peck at me with your beak.
You can't say we're forever,
and then tell me not to speak.
Jun 19, 2011
Jun 19, 2011 at 9:11 AM UTC
Nothing in my pocket,
Nothing on my shoe.
I'm going around in circles
Im someone I thought I knew
Left, broken and heavy
With nothing on my plate.
You've gone and run away,
And as always I'm too late.
Jun 12, 2011
Jun 12, 2011 at 9:34 PM UTC
The wordless speaker
Constantly babbling
No meaning, no passion
Blindly stumbling
Bit by bit
I try and copy down her words
But she's not saying anything
Tears hit the paper
I cry for the woman with nothing
All I can do is stare
And search for signs of life
Sep 2, 2010
Sep 2, 2010 at 11:30 AM UTC
Take the wooden spoon
and dig me out
make me hollow
send me afloat
down the river
away, away
from nothing
towards nothing
Ill stare at the sky
count the stars
listen
and I wont return
because Im hollow
and you made me this way.
Aug 26, 2010
Aug 26, 2010 at 10:24 PM UTC
Yes, no
Two simple Words
And I did not say either
Lying there
Suffocating
My heart pounding on fire
My mind screaming
Wishing i was somewhere else
Wishing someone would save me
Tears streaming down my face
My whole body shaky
He took what was mine
I can never get back
A gift that is no longer
Now that he is out of my life
I hope this makes me stronger
Aug 20, 2010
Aug 20, 2010 at 9:27 PM UTC