You kissed away the scratches,
turned them into rose petals.
Nov 9, 2017
Nov 9, 2017 at 9:26 PM UTC
You are the vibrations;
deep blues
orange saturations
feathered red
drips of copper
yellow strands
charcoal shadow of the sea
river in my veins.
Nov 9, 2017
Nov 9, 2017 at 9:24 PM UTC
You taught me the sky
The sea
And how hot a fire can burn.
Nov 9, 2017
Nov 9, 2017 at 9:23 PM UTC
I still feel
Feel
Feel you
In my head
Like a pounding that won't quit
I want you more than time
and there is no shortness
of that.
still...
Nov 9, 2017
Nov 9, 2017 at 9:04 PM UTC
Addiction is tricky.
A man who quit smoking for 11 years may only spend 15 seconds in an elevator with a man who had just finished a cigarette outside.
But yet, he gave in.
What I’m trying to say is,
I think I love you again.
Did I ever really stop?
Nov 9, 2017
Nov 9, 2017 at 9:01 PM UTC
Have you ever felt a love so true
it was almost painful?
A feeling a bliss so strong you almost can't breathe.
I want it all back.
Every moment, every kiss, every touch.
We were safe together,
alone.
I felt warmth and butterflies throughout my body.
We melded together perfectly,
comfortably, entangled in lust.
And in one instant,
moments of perfect harmony disappeared.
I watched as you slipped from my fingers.
The world darkened,
and I crumbled.
I laid the same way we did.
But this time I felt no warmth,
I felt cold sharp air against me.
And so I let the poison run through my blood,
and my own lethal lie left me to die.
Nov 9, 2017
Nov 9, 2017 at 8:56 PM UTC
"I'm scared to leave..
but I can't return
home."
I would have tried to stop you.
but would you have let me stop you?
This is all straight ********
It was not a selfish act
kissing that semi,
and I accept that.
What I do not accept,
is that I feel I could have done
something.
You turned very quickly from a boy to a man.
Caring for your sisters, being a father figure.
Jenny wasn't there, wasn't the mother she needed to be.
And she still isn't.
Whose fault is it?
I NEED SOMEONE TO BLAME.
Taking your own life can't just be passed off.
I am so happy you are at peace,
but what I fear is what you left behind.
The littles are helpless,
trapped by her, this.
How do I help them escape?
Is there a way?
I can only imagine what pushed you to your limit.
I wish I could have told you I struggle with the same feelings.
I wonder, could it have stopped you?
Is it better you being dead?
…is that an inappropriate question to ask?
I miss you, brother.
Feb 10, 2015
Feb 10, 2015 at 9:19 PM UTC
I was just learning to forget about you.
I had found someone.
A great someone.
Now all of a sudden you want me and I don't know what to do.
Who to choose.
Your timing is
impecable.
Mar 4, 2014
Mar 4, 2014 at 10:52 PM UTC
Out of all the people
it's you.
I feel like I regret it
more than I should.
Jan 22, 2014
Jan 22, 2014 at 4:39 PM UTC
Eye contact.
Thats something I strive for when I'm around you.
Those beautiful blue eyes that stare into me.
When you hold my hand, and play around with me,
I loose it.
You make me feel like I'm on cloud nine.
Being close to you,
talking to you,
it's like a drug.
You ignite this fire inside of me.
You are a mystery to me.
I don't understand you.
But I want to know what makes you tick.
I want to know all of your secrets.
And I want to tell you mine.
Your the first person since...him.
Jan 12, 2014
Jan 12, 2014 at 7:04 PM UTC