Since I was six I suffered with depression
From the age of seven
they told me "You are not worth it"
since I was eleven
I've believed every word the bullies tell me
Never believing that I was in fact special
Since I was twelve
My life has nearly ended
over twenty times
I've been hospitilized over and over
for things i did to myself
because selfish people in my grade
treat me like im nothing
hate me for no reason
and bully me to the point i want it all to end
I tell them i don't care what they think of me
but in my mind all i see
is my life finally ending
I'm not smart
and im not that pretty
Well at least thats what I've believed
after 10 years of being bullied
But you know
I'll be better
Feb 13, 2015
Feb 13, 2015 at 11:33 AM UTC
No I'm not perfect
not even close
when I made breakfast this morning
I burnt my toast
But no matter what
I will try my best
to at least be somewhat
decent
Sep 15, 2014
Sep 15, 2014 at 8:59 AM UTC
If you need something
or maybe you're down
were they being mean?
please turn around
don't try and flee
put away that frown
come just come to me
There is no need to fear
don't shed a tear
baby your makeup will smear
anything you need my dear
I'll be here
Jun 18, 2014
Jun 18, 2014 at 7:15 PM UTC
Hello... I just want to let you know
that they shouldn't matter
whatever they say.
I don't know where you are
or what you're doing
if your married
or if you have any kids
if you're even out of school yet
but I wanted to let you know
you do matter
to so many great wonderful people
the people that matter will stay in your life
if they want to leave they don't matter
follow your heart
and everything else will follow quickly behind
keep doing what you love even if you ****
be smart
stay beautiful
love people who love you
it does get better remember that
it may be a little bad now
but it will get better
I love you
-Emily 6-18-14
Jun 18, 2014
Jun 18, 2014 at 7:08 PM UTC
I missed you
and everything that comes
with you
like ur a happy meal
i've missed you fries
ive missed my best friend
thank
you
for coming back
and excepting me for me
May 30, 2014
May 30, 2014 at 2:09 PM UTC
I want to be that person that
changes you
for the better
the person you can rely on for
everything
If you fall down I will be here
to pick you right back up
if you cry
trust me ill be right here
If theres anything you need
ill give it to you
I'm not looking
to change you
just to change myself
May 21, 2014
May 21, 2014 at 1:58 PM UTC
They say
I have
no
soul
no
heart
but
that's quite
heartless
don't
you think
making someone
else feel
bad
for
the color
of their
hair
I try to let it
slip my mind
forget it ever happened
but whenever I see them
in my head
I hear them
criticizing my hair
and my freckles
I can not change
I was born this
way
No one can make me different
I gave a homeless man half
of my sandwich
and five dollars
yet
I'm soulless
I gave a soldier I didn't even know
a hug and a thank you
yet I have no heart
Well you know what
I am a proud ***
Ginger
May 15, 2014
May 15, 2014 at 1:05 PM UTC
For the last two days I feel like I've been dreaming
Nothing could be better
Everything I have desired has come to me
Why is that
everyone I long for are all talking to me
The smell of rain on the pavement
(my favorite scent)
has filled the air
yet there is a hint of sun
oh and its so warm
the trees have leaves
and the flowers have bloomed
Is this nothing more than a dream
I wish these days would just stand still
I wish I could talk to him forever
Maybe forget all that was wrong before
This new found confidence is inside me
He makes me feel better than anyone has ever before
Am I falling in love
I don't know how to take this
I ache to talk to him
To see his green dot pop up on facebook
I feel so happy and so content
everything is going my way
can this please stay like this everyday
can this dream never end
Please I beg of you
don't return to my nightmare
May 13, 2014
May 13, 2014 at 11:25 AM UTC
I hate society
thanks to society I can't meet my boyfriend
thanks to society I can't meet my best friend
why you ask
they're from the middle east
and apparently everyone from the middle east is bad
well thats ********
just because of 9/11
I mean an American killed a bunch of little kids
at Sandy Hook
That doesn't mean all Americans are evil
We have security in place for a reason
what dumb *** is going to carry weapons on a plane
if they do a full body scan
Society is ****** up
But what can I do?
May 13, 2014
May 13, 2014 at 11:15 AM UTC
Before I was even born
my dad got a dog
A bull mastiff
He was the sweetest
he wasn't supposed to
live past
8 weeks
but he prevailed
he was my brother
he was my best friend
I put my trust into him
He laid his head on me
I was too young
to understand
why he had to leave
now its been six years
and I still miss him
could you blame me
He sits on my Dad's night
stand
in a gold tin
he lies on my dad's shoulder
in permanent ink
he stands near me
in a picture
actually quite a few
he holds a place
a huge one
in my heart
his name was Dozer
and this is for him
May 8, 2014
May 8, 2014 at 12:04 PM UTC