I know that
Im supposed to follow the love
And supernatural goodness
In this life
But i love the feeling
Of sweet sorrow
The humanity
Behind pain
The beauty of
Sobbing every
Raw word
Musicality out of sight
Will I not reach Heaven
For finding beauty
In such pain?
Apr 1, 2019
Apr 1, 2019 at 10:25 PM UTC
I throw my heart down at your feet
I bend over and wash it clean
It glitters before you in perfect shine
Like the sweat
Dripping from my body
Its so coated in that fragrant varnish
That my aching back
Is the last thing
To which you are keen
Oct 11, 2018
Oct 11, 2018 at 8:00 PM UTC
Hold me
Not for you but for me
Look at me and see
My happiness as something
You want
Not for you
But for me
Oct 11, 2018
Oct 11, 2018 at 7:54 PM UTC
If I tried to leave
Would you put up a fight?
Or would you watch me go
And only remember me for the night
When was the last time
That you took initiative
I cant remember the last time you tried
To show that I mattered in your life
And i want to leave
My heart says i wont last
But what if you still care for me
Would I be giving up too fast?
Aug 6, 2018
Aug 6, 2018 at 4:02 PM UTC
I feel like ive done everything
Ive thrown my whole self in
Grab me
Please
And hold me
Show me you care
That there is something left
In the me that i gave to you
Because i cant tell
Whats real
Or what just feels good
Aug 6, 2018
Aug 6, 2018 at 12:13 AM UTC
My heart is breaking over you
Even though you're still mine
I want to give you all of me
But there's just no time
And as yours
It should be
the least I could do
I have to remind myself
That you're what I'm allowed to
And that's the reason
I'm finally understanding why
every time you leave
My heart is breaking over you
Jan 13, 2018
Jan 13, 2018 at 6:42 PM UTC
I apologized
Because I thought
Thats what you wanted to hear
I laid
My life
In front of you
And told you
To do as you pleased
I took the blame
For what you did
Instead of the help
I needed so desperately
You pushed me
Into the grave
You had dug for yourself
And I buried myself
Willingly
Sep 24, 2017
Sep 24, 2017 at 10:44 PM UTC
Her heart beat at each crossroad
and her breathing demanded her not to slow
so she dosed herself with the signs and senses
and let the blood flow to deep crevices
Decisions, not an answer she could steal
From Everything, her gift was not to feel
But empty, oh empty brought pain
It was narcotic, keeping so many sane
Everything, Compelling Everything;
thought you had a way for me
Right under your nose, I fill my senses to the brink;
making me feel just so beautifully
Everything, Oh Everything,
how could you possibly see?
I love the way you keep on laughing
at us for breathing our own fatality
Apr 24, 2017
Apr 24, 2017 at 10:50 PM UTC
How long have you sat there,
With your hands folded into your lap?
Or are you even a painting,
Maybe just a statue of marble and glass?
Painting a statue could be considered a crime,
In a way, plagiarism
Whereas chasing after a thief of natural beauty,
Would be worth more of the time
Such a cruel trick to play- stealing such a gift
From someone who had received it
From the best sender yet
If the thief thought that the victim should prove herself
How wrong he would have been
If she had not been worthy or ready
It would not have been sent
Feb 22, 2017
Feb 22, 2017 at 10:21 PM UTC
My grandfather’s house
Was extremely far away
In memory and physical distance
Yet I still remember everything to this day
I was small, and the pebbles beside his path
Had seemed at the time fairly large
And the weather- so windy and cool
The beach had always ensured
The piano that stands near my living room now
Was the same one standing in his
It was the one on which I learned how
To play and read the notes written in dark ink
So perfectly varnished before
My grandmother’s piano, then his
I will especially remember,
His love for pistachios
And how I could not open them, not ever
I don’t think I loved them as much as he did
But I will love him forever
The last time I saw him
I realize now I had never seen someone
At so much peace
My pistachio-loving grandfather
Someone to never forget
Feb 22, 2017
Feb 22, 2017 at 10:16 PM UTC