And I'm back
Stuck in this cycle
Why are we expected to live this way?
Stuck in this stifling house of hot air
Suffocating air pushing our feelings down
What if we open a window?
Letting out that air, letting it rush out and fill the sky
That would be the worst, would it not?
If you feel the love and support of a women, feel that warm summer air...
You might catch on fire, you might yourself be suffocated.
So go on, push it back on us, push us into the fire, mold us to be what is most convenient for you.
Aug 16, 2016
Aug 16, 2016 at 4:22 PM UTC
I'm trying my best to let you go.
Why do you stay in my head?
I beg, I insist,
I have to give him a chance...
He is too good for the broken girl you left behind,
But still I want him.
I want what he represents,
A new beginning.
I want to be healed by this good man,
Have him erase the damage you've done.
Aug 4, 2016
Aug 4, 2016 at 3:14 PM UTC
I float between these two realms
Am I waiting today?
Am I doing today?
Whether I sit around
Or decide to take action
The mockery, the backlash
It's always just around the corner
I try to take control, make things happen
And it is why can't you just chill?
I try to be patient, step back and let destiny do its thing
And it is you can't expect something to happen when you do nothing
No matter what I do
I can't be the perfect middle you want me to be
Well guess what?
TODAY is the day I fight back
TODAY is the day that I refuse to back down
I will continue to be who I am
Because I am enough
Because who I am is powerful
And loving, and crazy, and just perfect
For me
Jul 31, 2016
Jul 31, 2016 at 8:46 PM UTC
The way you used to talk to me
The way you used to call me beautiful, say good-morning every day
There was so much promise, so much hope
How was it taken away from me so fast?
I try to be calm and subtle
But how can I do that when all that was promised is a lie?
I yearn for what used to be
Before we touched
Before we fought
Before you pushed me away
Help me understand
Help me heal
Help me move on
Tell me what went wrong
Jul 31, 2016
Jul 31, 2016 at 12:23 AM UTC
I don't love you.
It isn't that.
I just hope
And yearn
And crave
To be noticed,
To be touched.
I want that validation,
Can't you afford me even that?
Jul 30, 2016
Jul 30, 2016 at 10:17 PM UTC
It was such a whirlwind.
You came in
Made me feel
Made me hope
Made me crave
Then you're gone.
The storm of your presence has passed.
But it is still muddy.
I am still left to pick up.
I am still left to wipe off my boots.
I am still left to try to carry on,
When everything is dripping with a reminder of you.
Apr 3, 2016
Apr 3, 2016 at 2:15 AM UTC
Do I feel anything?
I feel you slipping away.
I feel the hole you left.
But do I actually care?
It feels like a dream.
Only tomorrow will show what is real.
I pray to the moons and the stars that you will become a fleeting memory.
I pray you slip out of my life unnoticed;
Just like you let me fall out of yours.
Apr 3, 2016
Apr 3, 2016 at 2:14 AM UTC
Don't speak
We are silenced
We are shutdown
*We are crazy*
Why?
Is it so impossible?
Is power really unattainable?
Is a voice that repulsive?
The rules aren't the same
Expression must be stifled
Love must be dimmed
Our thoughts, our hopes, our wants
They just aren't valid
Are they?
Mar 29, 2016
Mar 29, 2016 at 9:54 PM UTC
Drowning?
Not a chance
Swimming?
Not even close
I’m trying, can’t you see
Barely above the surface
Minimal effort
Maximum exertion
Holding on,
Letting go,
I’m just... floating
Mar 29, 2016
Mar 29, 2016 at 9:40 PM UTC