you cannot water their garden
for you have your own to care for.
there are far too many flowers
and not enough water
between the two
for you to water both.
you must
keep your own garden
alive
and allow the other person
to fetch their own water
and provide for their garden
for if you attempt
to water both
both gardens will suffer.
Jan 23, 2020
Jan 23, 2020 at 9:08 AM UTC
for me
home is not a building
constructed of wood
and filled with furniture.
it is not a dwelling
where family members gather
once their days have ended.
my home is my safe place
where i can let myself breathe
after a long day
of holding in my breaths.
my home is the place i go
when i feel unsafe
because "it" happened again.
my home is the only place
i truly feel warmth
for it is the only place it is provided.
my home is the place i am at peace
for my mind talks too much
anywhere else.
my home is the place
i can rest
and trust will provide me protection.
for me
home is not a building
constructed of wood
and filled with furniture.
my home is you.
Jan 16, 2020
Jan 16, 2020 at 11:53 PM UTC
you look at me
the way he used to
before he left
i adore the way you look at me
and speak to me
the way he used to
but i prepare myself for the day
when you begin to realize
why he left
why they all left
and join them
isolating yourself from me
"that won't happen"
you tell me
unaware that those are the same words
i've heard a dozen times
from a dozen people
that are now strangers
i apologize for the panic attacks
i will have
due to the thought of losing you
losing yet another person
i've opened up to
and i apologize for opening up to you
and ruining
that original image
you had of me in your head
please
don't leave
Aug 19, 2019
Aug 19, 2019 at 12:08 AM UTC
i am so exhausted
of this fight with my head
it could be time
to lay down and rest instead
please don't miss me when i go
you'll see me again one day
but i wish to be cold like snow
i promise you'll be okay
it's time for me to leave
but when you find me
don't roll up my sleeve
my apologies
for leaving you this way
but don't worry
you'll forget about me
as you go on with your days
May 8, 2019
May 8, 2019 at 7:54 PM UTC
your love
is my life support
please don’t pull the plug
your touch
is like a blanket
it’s cold, please don’t take it off
your kiss is essential
don’t you see i’m craving you?
you’re a master piece
a work of art
i could stare and admire all day
the way your beautiful
brown body
curves
and your black wavy hair
falls upon your shoulders
and glistens in the moonlight
while your skin
glows with every step you take
i admire you as if
you were created by
vincent van gogh
i wonder what you think of me
Feb 14, 2019
Feb 14, 2019 at 6:50 AM UTC
i apologize to everyone
that i am leaving behind.
it was never your fault,
you've been nothing but kind.
i promise that i love you
and i always will
but sometimes, late at night
i wish time would stand still
so i'm stopping my own clock
don't worry, you'll be okay
we'll see each other soon
you'll be in my arms again one day
i'm sorry i had to leave you
but please don't miss me
i'll still be there by your side
don't cry, baby, you'll see
Dec 10, 2018
Dec 10, 2018 at 10:22 PM UTC
you say she's just a friend
but "just a friend" wouldn't visit you at work on your first day.
"just a friend" doesn't lay in your lap
while you play with her hair.
"just a friend" doesn't flirt with you.
"just a friend" wouldn't make me want to see myself bleed.
"just a friend" would be just a friend.
Nov 4, 2018
Nov 4, 2018 at 4:56 PM UTC
tell me why
i'd do anything for you
but you won't do **** for me
i sit here
crying over the thought
of losing you
while you stand there
towering over me
constantly lying
constantly deceiving
constantly betraying
me
you cannot please
my one simple request
yet demand that i
not do a list of things
and i listen
i long for the day
when my unrequited love
is finally equated
and the day you finally
give a **** about my sobs
but until then
i will lay here
alone in bed
in the world
silently suffering
while you enjoy a night out
with the friend of yours
who wants me dead
Oct 29, 2018
Oct 29, 2018 at 3:36 AM UTC
i am sry
that i refuse 2 water
the flowers
that r in my brain
ur the only flower
i provide water 2
and i give it all 2 u
Oct 28, 2018
Oct 28, 2018 at 8:37 PM UTC
i used to crave
empty lungs
****** wrists
and a dead heart
but ever since i fell in love with you
i crave listening
to your voice
and being the reason
for your smile
you are the light
at the end of the tunnel
and the rainbow
at the end of my storm
Aug 12, 2018
Aug 12, 2018 at 9:29 PM UTC