Hey its me again
I just need to vent
Its time my mind got right
So I can breath again
But things begin
To take a toll
And sometimes you can feel so small
That it crushes you
Punches you in the gut
Followed with a uppercut
Like what the ****
Can I get a break?
Can I get some time to recuperate?
I guess this is life
These ups and downs
The smiles and frowns
Jul 12, 2023
Jul 12, 2023 at 1:08 AM UTC
It’s exhausting
Feeling like you don’t care
Your ripping the air
Right out my lungs
I can’t breathe
I’m suffocating
All this ******* pain
Is driving me insane
So I have to let you go
I can’t give you anymore
Nov 12, 2019
Nov 12, 2019 at 11:41 PM UTC
I swear I ******* hate your guts and I hate the way this feels
I wish you could listen to what I'm saying
instead you cause all this rage and sadness
And it is not what I pictured for us, not what I imagined
I thought giving you a beautiful little girl
would soften you up but all it made me
realize is that you just don't give a ****
Jan 24, 2019
Jan 24, 2019 at 10:22 PM UTC
Im sorry that I cant comprehend your sorrow
and how mine seems like nothing to you
and its ok because I cant expect you to think of me
in a time like this,
but Ive shown you that I care,
Ive tired so hard to show you that Im there,
you went from calling me frequently
to now hardly taking time to speak to me,
I dont know what to think
if your futher because of your depression
and maybe this is the reason for your regression;
I tired to decipher thinking "He's just busy"
and "He's just down",
my mind is getting dizzy;
I tell you I miss you,
That I just wanna see and kiss you,
and you say your busy and have no time
although Ive given you so much of mine,
and then I see you make time for your friends
so I guess it just depends
on who you make important.
You confuse me with the attention on some days
and the rejection most days
I dont thinks it fair
and I cant tell you because Im so selfless
that I dont wanna seem selfish,
but its hurting me
because every man has made me feel last on there list
and I cant even tell you this;
So all I can do is keep a piece of my heart protected
keep it from getting affected,
because now Im really feeling Im just irrelevant to you
and although that might me true
Ill still be here for you
when you feel blue
but I have to take care of myself
because one has to value oneself;
Im beautiful and smart
with a tremendous heart
and maybe things will change
and you'll see the woman thats here
is real
but yet again maybe you wont
and its ok Im use to it
maybe Im not meant to be loved
to be hugged
to be shown for once Im held high above
so Ill just kept loving myself
because one thing Ive learned is that no one with love me
like I love me
and Ill have to learn to never put someone above me....
Nov 1, 2016
Nov 1, 2016 at 9:47 PM UTC
And so the story goes of how a ***** got so cold,
and as in ***** I mean me,
yes Im a she;
I dont give a **** if you dont like my linguistics,
but anyway let me get back to the real ****
As I was saying of how I got so cold,
you know how it goes,
how when stupid **** keeps repeating itself it gets ******* old;
**** being cold,
its now to the point my heart is getting old;
Nah scratch its getting old, its ******* dead,
it ******* dried up and disintegrated, no love to be felt or said;
Its no longer doable like calculus,
its gonna take a ******* alchemist
to revive something that is lost, never to come back again;
Any hope I had left is done,
in place of my heart now lies a gun
ready to shoot any ************
whos trying to play me for a sucker;
I refuse to suffer
so instead I just became rougher, tougher,
immune to all these ******* bluffers;
I dont believe **** none of ya say,
I cannot be dismayed
anymore
So please dont look at my love as something to implore;
Its ******* mine,
until the day that I die...
-E.G
Oct 6, 2016
Oct 6, 2016 at 2:01 AM UTC
Remember that guy,
Yea the one who I said made me feel all this love inside;
Well he ******* lied,
He played with my mind,
I should of known after seeing several bad signs;
Never did I ever think he would or could do that to me,
He ******* cheating on me,
He thought I wouldn't see;
I'm too smart to not have found out,
He thought I would believe his words without a doubt?
Nah my intuition
is far beyond his cognition;
So I got up and did better,
To not value me is something I won't except, never;
So **** his love,
**** all those fake hugs;
They mean nothing now,
What he did to me was ******* foul;
I have no losses,
because in this situation I was faultless;
I just hope I'm not having his baby,
Because to have two ******* pregnant now that ***** crazy;
It's too bad
he lost the best life he could of had;
As for me I'm unbreakable,
And he's now erasable.
-E.G
Sep 26, 2016
Sep 26, 2016 at 11:53 PM UTC
You got me breaking my own rules,
Like how I was supposed to stay single while finishing school;
Remember I was telling you,
To work on you and then once your done to come through;
I told you we couldn't kiss,
But when we did it bliss;
I even told you I was scared,
And for me to feel was something rare;
My heart was closed,
Locked up somewhere dark and cold,
Motionless it stood frozen by the snow,
Everything was dead around, nothing could possibly grow;
And then the snow started feeling funny,
It was melting as it hit my heart,
And me being smart,
Realized something was cooking,
That's when I opened my eyes and started looking;
And realized I was feeling you,
I wanted you, that was true;
And I started breaking my rules;
Took out my tools,
and started reconstructing,
readjusting;
I fixed it, there's a beat,
suddenly I can feel my feet,
So I started moving forward,
with you I started a new tomorrow;
Can't you see, said my heart to me,
It seems it's meant to be;
So I made you mine and locked you away,
In a place that was far far away;
Now your heart is in my oasis,
never to be tampered with, never to be tainted.
-E.G
Sep 13, 2016
Sep 13, 2016 at 11:49 PM UTC
I dont think you quite understand what Im feeling,
or how everytime I see you my heart starts beaming;
Its like all my fears,
you just made them **** disappear;
Im falling in love,
something I didnt think I was capable of;
Im baffled,
never did I think these chains on my heart would ever be unraveled;
How did you do it? How is it possible?
How did you reach the deepths of my heart?, something that I thought would never be plausible;
Im so stunned,
I no longer feel numb;
Im filled with emotions,
after living so long feeling broken;
So I just want to say thank you,
for causing that breakthrough,
for making me believe in love again,
for showing me your not like those other men;
Im swept of my feet,
I just wanna be yours forever to keep;
I love those eyes,
because when they look at me I feel they hide no disguise;
Your lips drive me crazy,
and how they make me feel is so ******* amazing;
Your everything Ive been waiting for,
and therefore,
Your my king,
and In time as our loves grows, I'll be ready for that ring.
-E.G
Sep 7, 2016
Sep 7, 2016 at 3:02 AM UTC
I have this uncertainty,
when it comes to you and me;
Simply because of the things
I truly believe in regarding my King;
My God, my Elohim.
Its not an easy road to seek his will,
takes alot of work to fully fullfill.
Love is confusing but it take a common understanding,
knowing where your standing;
Regarding the future
and what is needed to make it run smoother;
Because life is hard enough and the pain Ive been through,
has made me toughen up.
So deciphering between your heart and you brain,
takes practice to keep yourself sain.
Hard decisions never feeling completely right,
but making that decision that brings your peace, now thats alright.
Aug 24, 2016
Aug 24, 2016 at 2:30 PM UTC