All I see is my mother walking away
With her favorite child of the day
All I see is her face
Wrinkled with laughter
While she is obvious to my presence
The door she closes is slammed shut
And I have no way of gaining her love
Jan 28, 2015
Jan 28, 2015 at 1:08 AM UTC
What good is family for?
When all they do is tear you down
They bruise you with cruel words
And leave you bleeding and crying
This isn't the family
I wanted to be born with
I don't want to live with them
They will tear me apart
Before I am even stitched together
Their love is not real
Their hearts are made of ice
Will I become one of them?
Terrible and cold?
Jan 5, 2015
Jan 5, 2015 at 8:46 PM UTC
I touch my cheek
And feel the wetness of it
On my hand
I wipe it away
As I whisper to myself
"I can't give this world more of my tears."
Jan 5, 2015
Jan 5, 2015 at 8:41 PM UTC
In the closet, she laid curled up on the floor. Her vision overcomed by darkness and all she could hear was the collision her eyelashes made with the lens of her glasses.
She remained very still as she heard her fathers heavy footsteps slowly fade away as he headed downstairs. She didn't want him to find her, nor her mother.
She was tired of receiving hateful glances and shouts directed at her. She didn't understand why they hated her so much. Why they used her in order to release their anger.
She dreamed of the day she'd finally be able to leave this horrible place that no longer deserved to be named home.
Jan 3, 2015
Jan 3, 2015 at 9:19 PM UTC
Darkness seeps within my soul
I weep and weep
As I try to get rid of it all
I stumble and fall
As I try to regain my strength
But then I think, "what for?"
So I let the darkness consume my soul
Do I weep and weep?
Not at all.
Nov 12, 2014
Nov 12, 2014 at 7:56 PM UTC
My biggest fear
Is to stay home
Behind these four walls
My screams are muffled
My biggest fear
Is not to be heard
Staying behind
And losing all control
Nov 6, 2014
Nov 6, 2014 at 11:58 AM UTC
The look of disdain
fills my mothers face
Five year old me
is turned away
The look of hate
fills my mothers face
10 year old me
feels out of place
The look of malice
fills my mothers face
Fifteen year old me
shrugs it away
The look of disgust
fills my mothers face
But the 17 year old me
can't pretend it
doesn't hurt
as I try to keep
a stoic face
Nov 2, 2014
Nov 2, 2014 at 6:49 PM UTC
I still get flashbacks
Of the time I spent encased in those
Bright, white hospital walls
We were all insane
Yet no one realized we made sense
We saw the world as it really was
And the people on the outside?
Well, they just lived in their fantasies
Oct 29, 2014
Oct 29, 2014 at 11:44 PM UTC
I desperately search the crowd looking for his face
the face that makes my heart race faster than anything before
I find him before he finds her
before his love for her is expressed on his face
That’s the best part for me
to see that there’s someone who can adore another such as he does
The fact that he spends his time looking at her
memorizing each detail and absorbing
it
He’s still in love with her despite all the hard years
and the way he loves her made me fall in love with him.
Oct 26, 2014
Oct 26, 2014 at 1:29 AM UTC
The demons in my head
don't let me rest
They taunt me
until I give in to their request
I'm getting tired
each and every day
I don't think I can
make it another day
Oct 26, 2014
Oct 26, 2014 at 1:22 AM UTC