she thinks she's coy
with her shy look away
and like a ****
she hits me with that look
and smirk
as if she knows
my little secret
that she is
my biggest weakness
i stare up at the moon
and say your name
in hopes my soundwaves bounce
off of that rocky face
and reach you
and only in dreams
your breath warms me
clouds creep behind the moon
my mind warns me
if one cycle of rem
can last a life time
then i never wanna wake up
May 22
May 22, 2026 at 2:27 PM UTC
the drink and cigarette
has been abused
am i still a loser
if i aint got nothin to lose
this drink and cigarette
has been abused
am i still a loser
if i aint got nothin to lose
pray to GOD that i dont break today
so i, just put on another fake display
burnt out, like the contents in the ash tray
long gone, as if the wind swept me up up away
im the poster child
of wasted potential
the ditch i dig deepens
at a rate that's exponential
no youth
no future
held together with
dissolved sutures
i cant hold this in anymore
how do i let go of memories
stained in the dna
do i have to bleed it out
or is there another way
the drink and cigarette
has been abused
am i still a loser
if i aint got nothin to lose
pray to GOD that i dont break today
so i, just put on another fake display
burnt out, like the contents in the ash tray
long gone, as if the wind swept me up up away
mentally ill
self medicated
disassociated
between life
and death
debated
...
still waiting on a decision
Mar 15
Mar 15, 2026 at 11:02 PM UTC
im bitter
you took so much from me
you go off and live your life so happily
family, accomplishments, success
and i struggle every day
nothing but this pain
barely surviving
and even less so healing
if i hurt someone they way you did to me
i'd never be able to sleep
i'd be afraid that person would want their revenge
but it just confirms how little you think of me
im at a crossroads where i use the anger and resentment
and the sensation of injustice as fuel
or its going to keep consuming me
until i break
i think im moving on until
some days i wake up and my side splits
the stitches burst
and i hemorrhage again
Mar 15
Mar 15, 2026 at 7:26 PM UTC
resentment has rooted
i let the anger win
grenade in my hand
i pulled the pin
and i dont know how
to get it back in
my grip is weak
my patience thin
Mar 15
Mar 15, 2026 at 6:18 PM UTC
i wept
and i yearned
scars are the memories
of lessons i learned
but today the past behind me
will be a path that i burn
dangers lurk inside me
trying to keep my nerve
my heart can be gentle
but my mind is unkind
i dream of straight and narrow
but every road i find
bends and winds
so im
going for a long long long long ride
going for a long long long long ride
gotta look deep and find whats inside
leaving the memories and a cloud of dust behind
Feb 18
Feb 18, 2026 at 12:15 PM UTC
im out
im out
im outta
******* time
spirit drinks
are gasoline
to flames
thoughts of my mind
im out
im out
hey im outta
******* time
spirit drinks
are gasoline
to flames
thoughts of my mind
all i really
wanna do is
disco
with a qt
whose hips move
like a hypno-
tist
gently kiss her lips
or maybe
fall face first
with a
swing and miss
and then im out
-
before and afters
drunk frantic laughter
stumbling back on our heels
smiles and "im okay"s conceal
the flood
drowning the thoughts of my mind
your soft lips and pointy hips
pressed onto mine
Jan 20
Jan 20, 2026 at 12:28 AM UTC
im hiding behind
a mask made of glass
when it slipped
the whole thing shattered
your smile
haunts me in dreams, what a blast!
when you took the knife out
my entrails splattered
encircled by folks
who laughed, "ha! what a joke!"
i grew numb
from continuous chatter
at last, my vision fades
i had desperately hoped
that somehow
my time on this earth mattered
but it didnt
Jan 15
Jan 15, 2026 at 11:23 PM UTC
your beauty
isn't perfection
when you're weak
the nights are darkest
your shine brings justice
in the night
some days
you don't even show
but you're still
the push and pull
the rise and fall
the motion the flow
if no wolves holwed
in your glory
if you were not seen
in lovers' eyes
you're still you
no matter who knows
or who shows
Jan 12
Jan 12, 2026 at 2:14 PM UTC
my former self
skeleton in the closet
every piece of me i give
is just another deposit
to the toll, the price
the sacrifice
i’m just trying
to keep steady
but the storm
will never let me
sometimes it’s too much
it’s too heavy
fractured dam and
failed levees
cinema of my mind
where no show runs on time
outdated effects and tricks
stack of blank papers for scripts
comedic violence
fantastical tragedies
manifest into
sad actualities
Dec 8, 2025
Dec 8, 2025 at 8:26 PM UTC
It feels
Too late
To run
I got
silver bullets
But no gun
when clouds
Creep
Behind the moon
You know
It’s coming soon
Wore garlic
around my neck
And got a rash
Tucked a stake
On my waist
Got a splinter in my ***
Made a circle
by pouring salt
Used sugar instead
Now ghosts
Haunt my dreams
And there’s ants in my bed
Nov 13, 2025
Nov 13, 2025 at 9:25 PM UTC