I see you everywhere.
Colorblind to my surrounds,
You're more vivid than this world.
The colors, they are so brilliant,
In this life of black and white
But then I saw you in a different shade of light.
You kept it all to yourself,
took it all away from me.
I asked you to color in my world,
so you turned it all gray.
You took it all away from me.
You never wanted me to see the colors.
You thought seeing more would open my eyes.
You thought I would find meaning past you.
So I watch the seasons go by,
unaware of the abundance of time passing by.
Oblivious to the Summer radiance, the serenity in the Fall.
The delicacy of Winter, and the vigor in Spring.
I watch the winds fly by over the water, just another shade of gray and white.
Unmindful of the chill in the air.
A lifeless world.
Because you never wanted to share it with me.
Jul 5, 2014
Jul 5, 2014 at 2:55 PM UTC
The pulse in my veins,
it trickles down
With every beat of a heart.
Keeping in harmony
Until it all just sounds a little more scattered
Until it falls into turmoil
You're changing the paths,
and out of the norm we go.
Losing our way,
Never looking for our way back.
My temper, it's rising.
Frustrated, distressed.
The pulse is getting stronger.
The heat in my body pulling me further from familiarity.
You make me lost.
Why do you let me go?
How did we get here?
Can we ever make it back now?
No, no. I'm never coming back again.
Jul 5, 2014
Jul 5, 2014 at 2:55 PM UTC
You're a fatal poison,
A repentant temptation
Lethal to my instincts,
Compelling to my greatest desires.
I'm sick at your touch,
I'm sick at your taste,
but without it, I go hungry.
This life, I can't endure without you
Why do you have to be so cruel?
You're making me go mad
Why do you entice me?
I can't get you out of my head
Fire or passion?
Love or hate?
All I'm seeing is red.
Disillusioned by your charm,
And there's no way out of this.
There's no way out of your bed.
Jul 5, 2014
Jul 5, 2014 at 2:37 PM UTC
It's a beautiful world
When you can see the beauty.
It's a beautiful life
When you see past the bull ****
So pick your head up,
And look around you.
This is right now,
And you're never going to get it back again.
What do you get out of looking down?
Why shut your eyes?
What are you looking at when you can't really see?
You give away too much,
You give it all away now.
And when someone comes searching for it,
You'll have nothing left to show.
So take a look.
Open up your eyes.
And realize you still have something.
Understand that beauty will always be there,
As long as you are looking for it.
Give them all something to find,
Than they will never make you feel blind.
Jul 4, 2014
Jul 4, 2014 at 7:19 PM UTC
Shame on you
For dragging me down this empty road.
Shame on me
For getting on the ground.
You used to drive me,
And now I'm on empty.
Now all you do is drive me away,
But I've got nothing left to get me there.
This power, it runs me.
But the miles are wearing me down.
Looking for a way out,
But only finding myself looking for the hand that pulls me.
You have this energy,
Peaceful yet spiteful.
You use it against me,
You know when to use them.
Knowing which way I'm trying to turn.
So now I've lost my drive.
I let go of the wheel.
Heading off course,
Heading towards a crash I can see coming.
But I never stopped pushing the gas.
The shame, it's all mine.
Down to the ground again.
Down to the ground.
Jul 4, 2014
Jul 4, 2014 at 7:13 PM UTC
Ask me about the first day,
And I'll let you know.
Ask me about the last day.
Just try asking.
I watched.
I watched it all.
Because I feel the pain in everything.
And I drank it all away,
I thought I was waterproof.
And I let it all go to flames.
Though, I knew I wasn't fireproof.
Life on edge is no longer for the thrill.
No need to ask me twice.
Life on edge is no longer a risk.
No need to ask at all.
**** me before you thrill me,
I can't take anymore.
**** me before you thrill me,
I can't love you anymore.
Jul 4, 2014
Jul 4, 2014 at 1:16 AM UTC
You kiss me while I’m down,
Kick me while I’m still standing.
You’ve got it all backwards,
You’re turning me upside down.
What do I have to do to stand upright?
Thinking on my feet is useless
When all the blood is rushing to my head.
So I keep my eyes on the ground, and I go on.
Legs to the clouds,
Head underground.
None of this makes sense.
None of this is ordinary.
Time is of no essence when you’re always looking down.
Never back, never forward, never right now.
You believe in your own perceptions,
And I am only what I can see from here.
Jul 3, 2014
Jul 3, 2014 at 8:05 PM UTC
What do you believe?
How could you believe it?
Do you believe in me, do you believe in you?
Define faith and tell me what you see.
The **** it says.
The pain, it all lingers.
The lies it tells.
So stop lying to me.
Stop the deception before it glorifies.
Before it resurrects itself in you, in me.
What comforts you when you lie to my face?
What do you have that lets you fall asleep peacefully beside me?
What do you hear when you tell me you’re in love?
Because I don’t believe in you.
I don’t believe you.
I can’t sleep
I can’t close my eyes.
I can’t hear because I just can’t listen anymore.
Jul 3, 2014
Jul 3, 2014 at 7:38 PM UTC
You have been the greatest risk in my many investments.
Such insignificant ventures were crowding my record,
Taking up space and giving little value.
But even in failure, I never was fully spent.
It was when I gave you all I had, that I gave away my own warning.
The one that reminds us that having nothing to lose just leaves us all worthless.
The one that explains why you cannot ask for more without a fair exchange.
But there once was a time I would always find the value in what was worthless to most.
I thought of the beauty that would come alive out of destruction.
I thought of the sun when it hid behind the clouds.
I believed in the ultimate victory after the seemingly endless fight.
I believed that pain would always fade into another pleasant day.
I saw the diamonds in your eyes.
I saw treasures in the wreckages.
I found meaning in every moment, every thought, and every dream.
And it fooled me into searching for something more.
It seized me when I thought that quitting while you are ahead was only for the quitters.
But the false pretenses fooled me into thinking there was always another stop to the next milestone.
There was always more to give in hope of that greater return.
But when I first left my safety zone, I was not aware that I was the destruction.
I was the dark cloud covering the sun, the fight against the better day.
The rock covering the shine of the crystal, the wreckage that washed and hid away the treasures.
And when I gave all I had, I lost my way, I lost my direction.
I lost the map that would always guide me towards the next milestone.
I lost all that I had saved, all I once preserved.
And with nothing left to give, there is just no merit.
As I crumble under the wreckage,
All I see is my initial investment.
An insignificance
A dead weight
A depreciating value to all that I once saw.
How I miss that beauty.
How I miss that hope.
How I miss believing that my guide had no end.
How I miss the treasures I would trade to keep going.
Just for one more stop. One more mile.
How I miss you.
Jul 3, 2014
Jul 3, 2014 at 6:59 PM UTC
I gave you a taste,
And since then you’ve been killing my senses.
Gave you a piece,
And one by one they dissipated into oblivion.
I see a little bit less,
And ignore the murmuring whispers.
Until I lose all control.
I carried the weight,
I put it all on my shoulders.
I handled the load,
Drove it out of your reach.
Untouchable to your delicacy.
A heavier burden than I could lift.
Until I lost control.
I watched the nights go by,
Awake yet barely alive,
Living to keep you pleased.
So tell me, are you pleased? Are you pleased?
My head’s spinning,
My body’s shaking.
And now I’m out of control.
Jul 3, 2014
Jul 3, 2014 at 6:57 PM UTC