dr-jade - Hello Poetry

Something always brings me back to you In a circle, It never takes too long... A heart doesn't realize what it's missing Until something or someone makes it whole again And you hold me and you break me You pull me in and you push me away You say you need me then you leave me You always kept me guessing, always unsure of my footing I try to free myself from you And I find I take two steps back No matter what I say or do I'm always drawn like a magnet to you Do you love me because I'm fragile? Even when I thought that I was strong You've never made up your mind about me And I lie to my heart, thinking that you felt it

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Jan 19, 2017

Jan 19, 2017 at 7:46 AM UTC

Confusion

Something always brings me back to you In a circle, It never takes too long... A heart doesn't realize what it's missing Until something or someone makes it whole again And you hold me and you break me You pull me in and you push me away You say you need me then you leave me You always kept me guessing, always unsure of my footing I try to free myself from you And I find I take two steps back No matter what I say or do I'm always drawn like a magnet to you Do you love me because I'm fragile? Even when I thought that I was strong You've never made up your mind about me And I lie to my heart, thinking that you felt it

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It's 9 AM on a weekday I'm going to play hooky and stay Lounge on the bed like I have all day Skin against the sheets, hair tumbling in waves The smell of freshly brewed coffee with a hint of caramel Awakens my senses and I stretch luxuriously I see the source, a steaming cup of bliss Delivered with a shy smile and a sweet kiss You lead me by the hand Out of your cabin in the woods I find on a warm wooly blanket Some china, silver, and crystal set for two You start tickling me, like a devilish five year old I retaliate with glee and abandon Running around until we fall to the ground The beating of our hearts, the only sound We spend the afternoon talking and building dreams Around us fall the red and golden leaves Wishing for fireworks to light our clear sky A magic shroud for where unicorns lie We end the day with your head on my lap My fingers through your hair as you take a nap As I write a poem of what you mean to me And this easy breezy day, just for you and me

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Jan 19, 2017

Jan 19, 2017 at 12:03 AM UTC

Easy

It's 9 AM on a weekday I'm going to play hooky and stay Lounge on the bed like I have all day Skin against the sheets, hair tumbling in waves The smell of freshly brewed coffee with a hint of caramel Awakens my senses and I stretch luxuriously I see the source, a steaming cup of bliss Delivered with a shy smile and a sweet kiss You lead me by the hand Out of your cabin in the woods I find on a warm wooly blanket Some china, silver, and crystal set for two You start tickling me, like a devilish five year old I retaliate with glee and abandon Running around until we fall to the ground The beating of our hearts, the only sound We spend the afternoon talking and building dreams Around us fall the red and golden leaves Wishing for fireworks to light our clear sky A magic shroud for where unicorns lie We end the day with your head on my lap My fingers through your hair as you take a nap As I write a poem of what you mean to me And this easy breezy day, just for you and me

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You crept up to me Stealthily, silently Occupying my mind My dreams, my desires Taking my heart Unnoticed, unaware Making me yours Completely, entirely.

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Jan 18, 2017

Jan 18, 2017 at 10:29 AM UTC

Thief

You crept up to me Stealthily, silently Occupying my mind My dreams, my desires Taking my heart Unnoticed, unaware Making me yours Completely, entirely.

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I've been fighting for so long I have shattered views and broken bones Those closest to me Hurt me the most, Burned me to the core I smile, though I feel like dying I'm frozen to the bones, still I keep on going Shackled by my demons and fears I hurt myself more than anyone could ever dream You are the light to the dark side of me The gates of Heaven could open with a single kiss These emotions play with me dangerously I would kneel at your feet, if it meant you'd love me Even when the darkness subsides, shadows still remain It's hard to believe you're not a phantasm...fleeting, then gone The doubt coils around me, choking me Its sick cadence infecting me, taunting me

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Jan 18, 2017

Jan 18, 2017 at 8:56 AM UTC

Edge

I've been fighting for so long I have shattered views and broken bones Those closest to me Hurt me the most, Burned me to the core I smile, though I feel like dying I'm frozen to the bones, still I keep on going Shackled by my demons and fears I hurt myself more than anyone could ever dream You are the light to the dark side of me The gates of Heaven could open with a single kiss These emotions play with me dangerously I would kneel at your feet, if it meant you'd love me Even when the darkness subsides, shadows still remain It's hard to believe you're not a phantasm...fleeting, then gone The doubt coils around me, choking me Its sick cadence infecting me, taunting me

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Nothing haunts us like the things we didn't do or the things we didn't say... I wanted to write a letter to my best friend, and realized I don't really have one. You know, that someone you've known all your life, someone you share your hopes, fears, secrets, and dreams with. Someone who knows and understands the real you, and accepts you for who you are. Someone you trust with your life... Well, I don't have that, although you are the closest one I have to that. Remember the first time we talked? You were confident and brash. I was awkward and shy... I thought (and I still do) that you're the funniest, most interesting, and most genuine person I've ever met. As the years went by, the jokes we shared became second nature to me. But I always get this feeling that there are parts of you that are kept hidden and unreachable. I'm quite sure you've thought the same of me. Other times, when I am fortunate, you let me see a different side of you, I get a glimpse of just how brilliant you are... It takes my breath away and my heart constricts painfully. There's a doubtful, insecure, and hurting side of me that I struggle to control, for fear of appearing weak and needy. I always felt that I was never good enough, for you or for anyone else. I'm a mess of self hate and dark thoughts, and I have to battle my demons each day. I do know that you try to help me overcome the things that I deal with... I want to heal, to be compassionate, forgiving, kind, and strong in spirit. I want to be brave and fearless, to venture to know every aspect of you. I want to be able to take risks, even accept being vulnerable. If only I'd stop hiding behind secrets and things I don't say, then maybe, just maybe, we could have a deeper sense of friendship that we crave from each other. Sometimes I want to cry. Not the silent and controlled tears, but loud and unrestrained sobbing. I want to let out all the pent up pain and grief and rage inside. I want to cry for myself and for others, for the tragic and ugly things humanity has to suffer through. I want to cry until I've let everything out, until I'm spent and empty, ready to be filled again. Other times I turn to you. For comfort, for reassurance, for a distraction. I hope dealing with me isn't too much of a burden for you. And selfish person that I am, I don't think I've ever done the same for you. I can be oblivious and dense at times. The other half, I don't want to overstep the boundaries we've set up. I wouldn't want to set your world on fire, even if I was being burned alive. But it doesn't mean that I don't care. On the contrary, you are so important to me that I am afraid of ruining whatever this is that we have. You'd tell me if you need me, right? Please know that if you call, I'd do everything in my power to be with you and anything I can to help you. Still there are other times when I lie awake in bed in the wee hours of the morning when I wonder what it would be like to fall asleep in your arms... I know that I'm lost and searching, and God knows when I will be at peace with myself, but I'm trying. I won't hope, because hope is a passive-aggressive son of a barnacle. Everything is amplified a thousandfold when hope is shattered and I'm left feeling alone and wretched, to pick up the pieces. Instead I will believe, because believing will drive me further that hope ever could. It tethers me to something real, so I can wander but not get lost... That's the beauty of faith and belief, I guess. It gives me a sense of purpose, a direction. So I will hold on to my last scraps of strength with my whole being and believe. My life may be tough, but I'm tougher. Please be patient with me, my darling. Know that in a sea of people, my eyes will always look for yours.

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Oct 9, 2015

Oct 9, 2015 at 1:37 AM UTC

Dear Someone,

Nothing haunts us like the things we didn't do or the things we didn't say... I wanted to write a letter to my best friend, and realized I don't really have one. You know, that someone you've known all your life, someone you share your hopes, fears, secrets, and dreams with. Someone who knows and understands the real you, and accepts you for who you are. Someone you trust with your life... Well, I don't have that, although you are the closest one I have to that. Remember the first time we talked? You were confident and brash. I was awkward and shy... I thought (and I still do) that you're the funniest, most interesting, and most genuine person I've ever met. As the years went by, the jokes we shared became second nature to me. But I always get this feeling that there are parts of you that are kept hidden and unreachable. I'm quite sure you've thought the same of me. Other times, when I am fortunate, you let me see a different side of you, I get a glimpse of just how brilliant you are... It takes my breath away and my heart constricts painfully. There's a doubtful, insecure, and hurting side of me that I struggle to control, for fear of appearing weak and needy. I always felt that I was never good enough, for you or for anyone else. I'm a mess of self hate and dark thoughts, and I have to battle my demons each day. I do know that you try to help me overcome the things that I deal with... I want to heal, to be compassionate, forgiving, kind, and strong in spirit. I want to be brave and fearless, to venture to know every aspect of you. I want to be able to take risks, even accept being vulnerable. If only I'd stop hiding behind secrets and things I don't say, then maybe, just maybe, we could have a deeper sense of friendship that we crave from each other. Sometimes I want to cry. Not the silent and controlled tears, but loud and unrestrained sobbing. I want to let out all the pent up pain and grief and rage inside. I want to cry for myself and for others, for the tragic and ugly things humanity has to suffer through. I want to cry until I've let everything out, until I'm spent and empty, ready to be filled again. Other times I turn to you. For comfort, for reassurance, for a distraction. I hope dealing with me isn't too much of a burden for you. And selfish person that I am, I don't think I've ever done the same for you. I can be oblivious and dense at times. The other half, I don't want to overstep the boundaries we've set up. I wouldn't want to set your world on fire, even if I was being burned alive. But it doesn't mean that I don't care. On the contrary, you are so important to me that I am afraid of ruining whatever this is that we have. You'd tell me if you need me, right? Please know that if you call, I'd do everything in my power to be with you and anything I can to help you. Still there are other times when I lie awake in bed in the wee hours of the morning when I wonder what it would be like to fall asleep in your arms... I know that I'm lost and searching, and God knows when I will be at peace with myself, but I'm trying. I won't hope, because hope is a passive-aggressive son of a barnacle. Everything is amplified a thousandfold when hope is shattered and I'm left feeling alone and wretched, to pick up the pieces. Instead I will believe, because believing will drive me further that hope ever could. It tethers me to something real, so I can wander but not get lost... That's the beauty of faith and belief, I guess. It gives me a sense of purpose, a direction. So I will hold on to my last scraps of strength with my whole being and believe. My life may be tough, but I'm tougher. Please be patient with me, my darling. Know that in a sea of people, my eyes will always look for yours.

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I reach out to someone I cannot see Longing for some form of connection Wanting some sort of warmth Adoring you from afar You are my moon A part of you always hidden A part of you untouchable Forever out of reach I want to know you, to understand you But I don't want to change you For my heart has eyes and is not blind I see you, and I love you just the way you are

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Oct 5, 2015

Oct 5, 2015 at 10:08 AM UTC

Untitled

I reach out to someone I cannot see Longing for some form of connection Wanting some sort of warmth Adoring you from afar You are my moon A part of you always hidden A part of you untouchable Forever out of reach I want to know you, to understand you But I don't want to change you For my heart has eyes and is not blind I see you, and I love you just the way you are

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Seems like it's getting harder to believe in anything Stirring and blurring, the truth and the lies Always confusing the thoughts in my head That I don't know what's real and what's not That I can't trust myself anymore Dancing around the stories we tell I tell myself you're better off without me My life isn't easy, and it hurts remembering How it felt to shut down How it felt to be utterly alone Love is a ruthless game I thought I had him all figured out His misery was looking for some company and I was there He showed me games I didn't want to play I was a toy he left aside and threw away I've never thought I'd get this far When there's no one to help me now Lost in all my troubled thoughts Get along with the monsters under my bed But my heart is full, I believe that there's hope buried underneath it all So I went to find you, always find my way back to you Just my luck... Found something real that's out of touch It might be selfish, but I don't dare let go I just want to be by your side If only these broken wings could fly

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Aug 20, 2015

Aug 20, 2015 at 10:36 AM UTC

Chasing visions

Seems like it's getting harder to believe in anything Stirring and blurring, the truth and the lies Always confusing the thoughts in my head That I don't know what's real and what's not That I can't trust myself anymore Dancing around the stories we tell I tell myself you're better off without me My life isn't easy, and it hurts remembering How it felt to shut down How it felt to be utterly alone Love is a ruthless game I thought I had him all figured out His misery was looking for some company and I was there He showed me games I didn't want to play I was a toy he left aside and threw away I've never thought I'd get this far When there's no one to help me now Lost in all my troubled thoughts Get along with the monsters under my bed But my heart is full, I believe that there's hope buried underneath it all So I went to find you, always find my way back to you Just my luck... Found something real that's out of touch It might be selfish, but I don't dare let go I just want to be by your side If only these broken wings could fly

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I feel like I've known you all my life Perhaps even before that... I feel like we're meant to be together Even though we're far apart We walked alongside each other Fingertips nearly touching The silence envelops us...comfortable, warm, safe The way I've always felt when I'm with you You turned to me and made a funny face For the first time I laughed freely and openly And as your chocolate gaze fell on mine I knew you're what I've always wanted, it felt right For it held patience, forgiveness, kindness The way you have always cared for me It held strength, resolution, and a promise Something that I hoped was enough for you and me. I held my breath in anticipation As your lips met mine in a sweet melting of souls I was mortal, and your kiss changed me I reached upward to hold you close... And clutching only cold air.

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Aug 12, 2015

Aug 12, 2015 at 2:27 AM UTC

First kiss

I feel like I've known you all my life Perhaps even before that... I feel like we're meant to be together Even though we're far apart We walked alongside each other Fingertips nearly touching The silence envelops us...comfortable, warm, safe The way I've always felt when I'm with you You turned to me and made a funny face For the first time I laughed freely and openly And as your chocolate gaze fell on mine I knew you're what I've always wanted, it felt right For it held patience, forgiveness, kindness The way you have always cared for me It held strength, resolution, and a promise Something that I hoped was enough for you and me. I held my breath in anticipation As your lips met mine in a sweet melting of souls I was mortal, and your kiss changed me I reached upward to hold you close... And clutching only cold air.

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Life is too short for me to be afraid Of falling or catching fire I'll allow myself to be open To experience joy, sadness, passion, heartache, contentment At this hour, which is neither night nor day I promise myself to be brave, be strong, be true And let you know each day Even though I cannot be by your side That you are cherished, that you are loved

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Jul 17, 2015

Jul 17, 2015 at 2:40 PM UTC

Untitled

Life is too short for me to be afraid Of falling or catching fire I'll allow myself to be open To experience joy, sadness, passion, heartache, contentment At this hour, which is neither night nor day I promise myself to be brave, be strong, be true And let you know each day Even though I cannot be by your side That you are cherished, that you are loved

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I'm just missing you tonight As the rain beats its staccato rhythm I just wish you were beside me Warm, comforting...home In this minute that is neither night nor day I wonder how you are, so far away That I cannot touch you or hold you close That we cannot even share the same moon It's selfish, I know, that I miss you because... You make me stronger, braver You make me feel, you make me hope You make me love myself a little more I'm selfish, I know... I wonder if you feel my thoughts If you're thinking of me too If...

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Jul 10, 2015

Jul 10, 2015 at 12:20 PM UTC

Rain at Twilight

I'm just missing you tonight As the rain beats its staccato rhythm I just wish you were beside me Warm, comforting...home In this minute that is neither night nor day I wonder how you are, so far away That I cannot touch you or hold you close That we cannot even share the same moon It's selfish, I know, that I miss you because... You make me stronger, braver You make me feel, you make me hope You make me love myself a little more I'm selfish, I know... I wonder if you feel my thoughts If you're thinking of me too If...

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