dougie-simps - Hello Poetry

At times I wake up Thinking why the hell did god let me see another day? I barely pray. Barely say “dear lord thank you, for blessing me” Guess I have a purpose 28 years layin down feeling so worthless Nobody’s perfect I lashed out at everyone because inside I was hurtin. Feelin so deserted - needing self glory. Wondering every **** day When I die, what was my story? Was I gift? Sent here to help spread change? Was I a monster? Sent here to help spread pain. Maybe I was a non factor and just fell back Maybe I touched a few hearts...while sadly remaining detached I don’t kno what it is, nor can I ****** give anymore effort This world is tough and everyday we all tryna to gain new leverage I stop to see What it was that was always in front of me The open sea. With endless possibilities… I see my siblings and watch them go out and fulfill their dreams I see my friends - growing up and accomplishing all they were meant to be I see my mother - who pushes on when life gets heavy I see my soul - who is uncertain yet, claims to remain ready. But that’s life - it’ll always remain unsteady. It’ll gas you up, lie to you and even act semi petty. 80 percent is how you react, while 20 percent is what you let in I’ve let it all come into me - some would call me reactive. Not many people enjoy you - this trait is not attractive. Yet, I’m combative - for I am, the way I am and that’s that kid. I’ve changed so much that I could’ve gotten into fashion I feel I need a cause for the reason that I am who I am and I’m so tired of askin God and I just don’t see eye to eye and he no longer understand why I need to cry When I work out with my demons- thinking that I got stronger Is it excuse that I wanna die young? Or can I not take it any longer? Idk, don’t ask such personal questions until you walk a mile in they shoes Don’t count your wins before your blessing or your destined to lose Don’t say a rich man means having green in the money holdin machine... To me success comes from the genuine love within a human being Or does it. I’m just tryna stay balanced on this uneven scale Will I prevail or will I fail? The clique so you chose the path you’d like to trail You make the decisions that benefit Even if they barely fit Some sweat writing this **** I’m nervous I’m losing hold and can’t get a grip While sayin metaphors out these lips Imma end this small poem here Just tryna say don’t waste time on what don’t matter You never know if you’ll see another year Text someone you love - thank a stranger for holdin the door - tell the broken winged child they can fly and allow your heart to finally soar Make peace with your demons - try your best to chase your dreams - to make change isn’t always visible - but the act of kindness & love will never remain unseen.

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Sep 12, 2019

Sep 12, 2019 at 2:36 PM UTC

“Scattered Thoughts”

At times I wake up Thinking why the hell did god let me see another day? I barely pray. Barely say “dear lord thank you, for blessing me” Guess I have a purpose 28 years layin down feeling so worthless Nobody’s perfect I lashed out at everyone because inside I was hurtin. Feelin so deserted - needing self glory. Wondering every **** day When I die, what was my story? Was I gift? Sent here to help spread change? Was I a monster? Sent here to help spread pain. Maybe I was a non factor and just fell back Maybe I touched a few hearts...while sadly remaining detached I don’t kno what it is, nor can I ****** give anymore effort This world is tough and everyday we all tryna to gain new leverage I stop to see What it was that was always in front of me The open sea. With endless possibilities… I see my siblings and watch them go out and fulfill their dreams I see my friends - growing up and accomplishing all they were meant to be I see my mother - who pushes on when life gets heavy I see my soul - who is uncertain yet, claims to remain ready. But that’s life - it’ll always remain unsteady. It’ll gas you up, lie to you and even act semi petty. 80 percent is how you react, while 20 percent is what you let in I’ve let it all come into me - some would call me reactive. Not many people enjoy you - this trait is not attractive. Yet, I’m combative - for I am, the way I am and that’s that kid. I’ve changed so much that I could’ve gotten into fashion I feel I need a cause for the reason that I am who I am and I’m so tired of askin God and I just don’t see eye to eye and he no longer understand why I need to cry When I work out with my demons- thinking that I got stronger Is it excuse that I wanna die young? Or can I not take it any longer? Idk, don’t ask such personal questions until you walk a mile in they shoes Don’t count your wins before your blessing or your destined to lose Don’t say a rich man means having green in the money holdin machine... To me success comes from the genuine love within a human being Or does it. I’m just tryna stay balanced on this uneven scale Will I prevail or will I fail? The clique so you chose the path you’d like to trail You make the decisions that benefit Even if they barely fit Some sweat writing this **** I’m nervous I’m losing hold and can’t get a grip While sayin metaphors out these lips Imma end this small poem here Just tryna say don’t waste time on what don’t matter You never know if you’ll see another year Text someone you love - thank a stranger for holdin the door - tell the broken winged child they can fly and allow your heart to finally soar Make peace with your demons - try your best to chase your dreams - to make change isn’t always visible - but the act of kindness & love will never remain unseen.

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My mind Whispers through the nighttime Voices always keeping me up Telling me I need to give up... Cause lately I’ve been in the backseat...to my own life Trying to steer - and take control...but I don’t always know how to. Is that alright? For sadness is in our cup And we tend to sip it slowly What’s life worth...if everyone’s around but you feel so lonely? No tears for the sorrow, when we aren’t promised tomorrow So why self indulge on our pity? Attempting to heal our wild minds in this painful, structured city. Searching for riches - to numb those who are morally poor Standing up for those who are/were down, including myself...because I’ve been there and quiet frankly... I don’t wanna be sad, I don’t wanna be sad, I don’t wanna be sad anymore.

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Jun 28, 2019

Jun 28, 2019 at 12:37 PM UTC

Sad anymore

My mind Whispers through the nighttime Voices always keeping me up Telling me I need to give up... Cause lately I’ve been in the backseat...to my own life Trying to steer - and take control...but I don’t always know how to. Is that alright? For sadness is in our cup And we tend to sip it slowly What’s life worth...if everyone’s around but you feel so lonely? No tears for the sorrow, when we aren’t promised tomorrow So why self indulge on our pity? Attempting to heal our wild minds in this painful, structured city. Searching for riches - to numb those who are morally poor Standing up for those who are/were down, including myself...because I’ve been there and quiet frankly... I don’t wanna be sad, I don’t wanna be sad, I don’t wanna be sad anymore.

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Ive thought long and hard about how I wanted this to be spoken Hard to feel you can complete a heart that’s already been broken But I’m young, dumb and hopeless That’s why my romance has a chance I’d take you back to prom days and ask you for one dance Relive ya memories and make them with me But understand you go through those obstacles to finally make it to me I’d take those long drinking nights, with the blues melodies and do it all over I’d take on the whole world and cry myself to sleep if it meant I’d get the nights that you come over I over react - I over think My mind works like a workshop that never closes But that all changed the day I saw your smile and addressed your beauty with red roses You are my purpose, you make it all worth it I’ve spent my whole life looking for you I’m so glad to be done searching You’re the morning coffee that starts my day The perfect song to make the sorrows fade away The feeling you get when you’re surprised and forever endure that love The most gorgeous soul I’ve ever seen My Gabrielle,my bubs Imma show you a life you never ever imagined And fly with you anywhere Just you and I...let’s leave behind all the baggage It’s our world - you’re my girl Let me be the one to wipe away all your tears Fight away all your fears... Walk with you through life Holding hands for years and years When your heart is tired let me be the one to love you Promise to be your armor and protect all the pain that comes for you I’ve found a love that only those wish upon Guess my shooting star granted Cupid took some shots at my intuition and that arrow perfectly landed Moral of the story is I went through life ripped, damaged goods and constantly having to restart “You complete me” no Jerry McGuire I’m just so grateful to finally have found... My whole heart.

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Apr 3, 2019

Apr 3, 2019 at 4:21 PM UTC

My whole heart

Ive thought long and hard about how I wanted this to be spoken Hard to feel you can complete a heart that’s already been broken But I’m young, dumb and hopeless That’s why my romance has a chance I’d take you back to prom days and ask you for one dance Relive ya memories and make them with me But understand you go through those obstacles to finally make it to me I’d take those long drinking nights, with the blues melodies and do it all over I’d take on the whole world and cry myself to sleep if it meant I’d get the nights that you come over I over react - I over think My mind works like a workshop that never closes But that all changed the day I saw your smile and addressed your beauty with red roses You are my purpose, you make it all worth it I’ve spent my whole life looking for you I’m so glad to be done searching You’re the morning coffee that starts my day The perfect song to make the sorrows fade away The feeling you get when you’re surprised and forever endure that love The most gorgeous soul I’ve ever seen My Gabrielle,my bubs Imma show you a life you never ever imagined And fly with you anywhere Just you and I...let’s leave behind all the baggage It’s our world - you’re my girl Let me be the one to wipe away all your tears Fight away all your fears... Walk with you through life Holding hands for years and years When your heart is tired let me be the one to love you Promise to be your armor and protect all the pain that comes for you I’ve found a love that only those wish upon Guess my shooting star granted Cupid took some shots at my intuition and that arrow perfectly landed Moral of the story is I went through life ripped, damaged goods and constantly having to restart “You complete me” no Jerry McGuire I’m just so grateful to finally have found... My whole heart.

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It’s been a while but wanted to write to you on better terms Last time we spoke my life was taking a hard turn Grew up a lot, learned sometimes its best to just let it burn Nourish those who need the good in me their souls are starving ferns I keep your memories because a good feeling is for good healing Raise my hands up only to no longer just feel the ceiling My vision changed and simplicity is way more appealing Don’t need jump on people’s throats, take a breath and think about your core feeling. I’ve made peace with your son - look what I’ve become I face the things that challenge me, no longer look to turn around and run Life has its ups and downs but you’ve seen me through my struggles Trying to lead my team but can’t always remember the plays in the huddle My imperfections have sorta been corrected Still need to be burn by the fire in order to learn my lesson I found a new love, which is beyond a blessing But I don’t feel I deserve it and that’s my own misconception Gave up on being aggressive and showing off for the attention I thank you everyday for your strength by the way... That’s just something I needed to mention You taught me I’m a product of what I go through And even if they wrong don’t hurt them back just to help you I gave up the drugs to numb my pain I look up now but for the clear skies and not the rain I don’t think I need to pull the trigger to help defuse my explosive brain For the first time in my life I actually feel sane The family good and seem more connected than ever Feel we follow you and grannies policy of always keeping the family together I’ve learned that I don’t need to escape nor think I don’t belong Come around a bit more because my family needs me so we can collectively be strong My past still haunts me and the demons remain strong I’m working on letting that all go though and not trying to hold on. That dark thought will sneak in and at times I’ll still ask for death But I’m learning my purpose now and cherishing every single breath. You’re the greatest man I’ve ever known and I miss you being around The only man in my life I can truly say who’s never let me down I thank you for your guidance Protecting me from my internal violence Learning to listen a bit more You get the most out of others through your inner silence That little boy opens his eyes now and is no longer hiding. Finally appreciating my life, which is way more exciting. Inspiration has come back, that’s why I got the chance to write you this song Feels good to let go of everything I’ve done wrong. **** You taught me to remember when I get set backs Been through the worst times to get the best back Wish sometimes I could go back in time and give the low me a jet pack. But... You was right about it all, Im finally learning for myself I hope this is someway a thank you for all your spiritual help. Promise to keep spreading your word and only improving myself Hope the angels take care of you until I see you myself.

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Mar 10, 2019

Mar 10, 2019 at 12:10 PM UTC

Dear Grandpa - (I hope you’re proud)

It’s been a while but wanted to write to you on better terms Last time we spoke my life was taking a hard turn Grew up a lot, learned sometimes its best to just let it burn Nourish those who need the good in me their souls are starving ferns I keep your memories because a good feeling is for good healing Raise my hands up only to no longer just feel the ceiling My vision changed and simplicity is way more appealing Don’t need jump on people’s throats, take a breath and think about your core feeling. I’ve made peace with your son - look what I’ve become I face the things that challenge me, no longer look to turn around and run Life has its ups and downs but you’ve seen me through my struggles Trying to lead my team but can’t always remember the plays in the huddle My imperfections have sorta been corrected Still need to be burn by the fire in order to learn my lesson I found a new love, which is beyond a blessing But I don’t feel I deserve it and that’s my own misconception Gave up on being aggressive and showing off for the attention I thank you everyday for your strength by the way... That’s just something I needed to mention You taught me I’m a product of what I go through And even if they wrong don’t hurt them back just to help you I gave up the drugs to numb my pain I look up now but for the clear skies and not the rain I don’t think I need to pull the trigger to help defuse my explosive brain For the first time in my life I actually feel sane The family good and seem more connected than ever Feel we follow you and grannies policy of always keeping the family together I’ve learned that I don’t need to escape nor think I don’t belong Come around a bit more because my family needs me so we can collectively be strong My past still haunts me and the demons remain strong I’m working on letting that all go though and not trying to hold on. That dark thought will sneak in and at times I’ll still ask for death But I’m learning my purpose now and cherishing every single breath. You’re the greatest man I’ve ever known and I miss you being around The only man in my life I can truly say who’s never let me down I thank you for your guidance Protecting me from my internal violence Learning to listen a bit more You get the most out of others through your inner silence That little boy opens his eyes now and is no longer hiding. Finally appreciating my life, which is way more exciting. Inspiration has come back, that’s why I got the chance to write you this song Feels good to let go of everything I’ve done wrong. **** You taught me to remember when I get set backs Been through the worst times to get the best back Wish sometimes I could go back in time and give the low me a jet pack. But... You was right about it all, Im finally learning for myself I hope this is someway a thank you for all your spiritual help. Promise to keep spreading your word and only improving myself Hope the angels take care of you until I see you myself.

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False claims, you said you loved me - my bed wasn’t the only place you lied. It’s funny when someone says “they’d never hurt you” - but watch you...as the blood rushes to your eyes.

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Feb 7, 2019

Feb 7, 2019 at 12:35 AM UTC

Twisted love

False claims, you said you loved me - my bed wasn’t the only place you lied. It’s funny when someone says “they’d never hurt you” - but watch you...as the blood rushes to your eyes.

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(Piano) I know this should be easy How come it’s been hard to let go? So much stronger... Why is my mind weak though? Time has passed by I won’t dare cry My chest has been burning ever since you left My heart’s replaced with the fire My minds open but stuck in desire Waited so long... hoping things would change Was this always hopeless? Was my hope insane? They say good love could take you to unforgettable limits Please hear me and accept my forgiveness Never saw you, as you walked by Things were broken, It took time to realize You don’t know, no you don’t know the nights I lay here I smile for everyone - I don’t want them to see my sadness - dear It hurts to admit this But I have to ask... Why didn’t you want to stay? Actually, please don’t answer that... No more questions. no more saying your name I can’t take anymore of your pain Days have fallen I have risen Fully functional - but feels somethings missing Replaceable - so easy to start over... We both know that’s not true But needed the closure. You reached a limit I wasn’t enough! It’s like a fire - replaced all of our love. What is real love? Is it Cupid? Is it the madness - two minds that are so foolish? This time is different No resentment Just freedom - let go of repentance. Not a day goes by that I wonder What would’ve happened if we made it this summer... Never fun losing a best friend Even worst if their your lover I won’t say another word Time is of the essence But I can no longer lie...I don’t understand why I still feel your presence I have the memories - hope you still do too Hope you’re smiling and finding all of you As we move on - finding new life and devotion I have to say this - without using too much emotion Thank you for everything Even for the love I hope I helped you - hope I was enough Hope we never forget this No matter if it was right or wrong These words are burning... The ashes are all that are left of this song.

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Nov 1, 2017

Nov 1, 2017 at 12:42 AM UTC

Burning

(Piano) I know this should be easy How come it’s been hard to let go? So much stronger... Why is my mind weak though? Time has passed by I won’t dare cry My chest has been burning ever since you left My heart’s replaced with the fire My minds open but stuck in desire Waited so long... hoping things would change Was this always hopeless? Was my hope insane? They say good love could take you to unforgettable limits Please hear me and accept my forgiveness Never saw you, as you walked by Things were broken, It took time to realize You don’t know, no you don’t know the nights I lay here I smile for everyone - I don’t want them to see my sadness - dear It hurts to admit this But I have to ask... Why didn’t you want to stay? Actually, please don’t answer that... No more questions. no more saying your name I can’t take anymore of your pain Days have fallen I have risen Fully functional - but feels somethings missing Replaceable - so easy to start over... We both know that’s not true But needed the closure. You reached a limit I wasn’t enough! It’s like a fire - replaced all of our love. What is real love? Is it Cupid? Is it the madness - two minds that are so foolish? This time is different No resentment Just freedom - let go of repentance. Not a day goes by that I wonder What would’ve happened if we made it this summer... Never fun losing a best friend Even worst if their your lover I won’t say another word Time is of the essence But I can no longer lie...I don’t understand why I still feel your presence I have the memories - hope you still do too Hope you’re smiling and finding all of you As we move on - finding new life and devotion I have to say this - without using too much emotion Thank you for everything Even for the love I hope I helped you - hope I was enough Hope we never forget this No matter if it was right or wrong These words are burning... The ashes are all that are left of this song.

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"You don't just walk away when it gets tough babe! You work it out together when it comes to relationships and lov...tha...peerrrsonnn..." (her voice) Yeah, But I guess I was just dreaming You see I wrote this first part weeks before the news Because it was you - I still believed in Regardless of the paid respects You can't buy someone's love for any less Can't clean up the previous mess I was the problem when I had you at ya best! (Dayum) I hate the way you would avoid a text The truth was between the lines But the lies were all that were left Thought I was drowning in your eyes but really it was just time for me to reflect Ended things calmly but feel like I was just in a vortex Can't be afraid of goodbyes when hellos seem to be the hardest Truth is I wish I deserved it Asking all the time to see her only to get curved in Silent treatment to someone who only tried to treat ya Knowing her life was getting tough and I was trying to keep ya. Tell me who was trying to push away who? Maybe March 17th was the last time I really met you. And I don't believe that the last time we spoke that was really you Sometimes **** just gets hard and you gotta get thru. (And I know you'll make it) Can't give into love's strain and conviction I hate that I love you...without the realization of my false contradictions. Given up on me - yet, add another to the list My mind boggles these days but not in the thought of you - but when things with us took a sudden switch Crazy to think you give someone everything you got to just be forgotten The way you handled those last few weeks were foul girl - spoiled rotten. Why comeback only to leave? To showcase who you "truly" are but only for yourself to see? To reach out to someone who just can't be reached This seems to be a pattern of one's personality I don't need clarity. The pen is loaded - the target is set Why can't I pull the trigger!? You quit on us and deserve the shots! Why am I trying to be bigger!? ... Cause I've learned a lot Took some deep breaths saw what was hurting me temporarily instead of making me feel blessed This isn't shade This is honesty and telling the truth of ones false reality A lot of stars in the sky but figured you and I were the brightest in the galaxy This letter to you is for you to see what you can do to someone when you make decisions based off emotions Stop pulling the next person with you just because you can't swim in your own painful ocean Let go of that anger You're too pretty to frown Let go of her legacy too - you won't make the same mistakes when you finally fall in love and pick out a gown. Disappointment - for sure but you live and you learn Need to stop holding on to the firey moments Maybe that's why it's so hard to let these memories burn. Lessons were taught and two people found growth within each other Let's not pretend like we are rooting for us to simply find another. Our bond was special But the timing was off We'll never know what could've been And sadly that's our loss I only want the best for you And that's on my heart I'd be lying if I said I saw the day wed truly fall apart But At times I wonder - when it all unfolded that day, did I say all that I needed? why didn't I beg you to stay? Cause you loved the old me and I'm a different person these days. Still hard to look at the woman you loved And tell yourself it's time to walk away. You wipe ya face quickly - put up a smile...and just go....(eachos out) But doug wait... Hol up let me quickly say my final word If this piece ever reaches you i need this part to be heard I love you to death and would re up with you in a second If you were mad after reading this you didn't decipher the love from pain in this message I pray for you all the time, hope you get all the good you deserve and tell god to keep you safe from any harm or danger But I gotta leave ya on this final note "If only we could go back again...and become strangers." Thank you (echoes out)

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Sep 14, 2017

Sep 14, 2017 at 1:45 PM UTC

Just a few final words

"You don't just walk away when it gets tough babe! You work it out together when it comes to relationships and lov...tha...peerrrsonnn..." (her voice) Yeah, But I guess I was just dreaming You see I wrote this first part weeks before the news Because it was you - I still believed in Regardless of the paid respects You can't buy someone's love for any less Can't clean up the previous mess I was the problem when I had you at ya best! (Dayum) I hate the way you would avoid a text The truth was between the lines But the lies were all that were left Thought I was drowning in your eyes but really it was just time for me to reflect Ended things calmly but feel like I was just in a vortex Can't be afraid of goodbyes when hellos seem to be the hardest Truth is I wish I deserved it Asking all the time to see her only to get curved in Silent treatment to someone who only tried to treat ya Knowing her life was getting tough and I was trying to keep ya. Tell me who was trying to push away who? Maybe March 17th was the last time I really met you. And I don't believe that the last time we spoke that was really you Sometimes **** just gets hard and you gotta get thru. (And I know you'll make it) Can't give into love's strain and conviction I hate that I love you...without the realization of my false contradictions. Given up on me - yet, add another to the list My mind boggles these days but not in the thought of you - but when things with us took a sudden switch Crazy to think you give someone everything you got to just be forgotten The way you handled those last few weeks were foul girl - spoiled rotten. Why comeback only to leave? To showcase who you "truly" are but only for yourself to see? To reach out to someone who just can't be reached This seems to be a pattern of one's personality I don't need clarity. The pen is loaded - the target is set Why can't I pull the trigger!? You quit on us and deserve the shots! Why am I trying to be bigger!? ... Cause I've learned a lot Took some deep breaths saw what was hurting me temporarily instead of making me feel blessed This isn't shade This is honesty and telling the truth of ones false reality A lot of stars in the sky but figured you and I were the brightest in the galaxy This letter to you is for you to see what you can do to someone when you make decisions based off emotions Stop pulling the next person with you just because you can't swim in your own painful ocean Let go of that anger You're too pretty to frown Let go of her legacy too - you won't make the same mistakes when you finally fall in love and pick out a gown. Disappointment - for sure but you live and you learn Need to stop holding on to the firey moments Maybe that's why it's so hard to let these memories burn. Lessons were taught and two people found growth within each other Let's not pretend like we are rooting for us to simply find another. Our bond was special But the timing was off We'll never know what could've been And sadly that's our loss I only want the best for you And that's on my heart I'd be lying if I said I saw the day wed truly fall apart But At times I wonder - when it all unfolded that day, did I say all that I needed? why didn't I beg you to stay? Cause you loved the old me and I'm a different person these days. Still hard to look at the woman you loved And tell yourself it's time to walk away. You wipe ya face quickly - put up a smile...and just go....(eachos out) But doug wait... Hol up let me quickly say my final word If this piece ever reaches you i need this part to be heard I love you to death and would re up with you in a second If you were mad after reading this you didn't decipher the love from pain in this message I pray for you all the time, hope you get all the good you deserve and tell god to keep you safe from any harm or danger But I gotta leave ya on this final note "If only we could go back again...and become strangers." Thank you (echoes out)

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Have you ever felt like you put on mask to hide what it is that truly eats you? And gave everything you got to fight back the moments that truly defeat you? To wish upon a star that only occasionally shines To pray to a angel who just no longer has the time To wake up from nightmares while sleeping walking a dream Hoping that this pretty world isn't as ugly as it seems Am I a victim? Course I'm a victim I hear what you're saying doc It's just easier not to listen I'm looking back at the mirror I see him clearer He's the hatred I've had inside of me and I can feel him Can you fix that? Stop telling me to love my dad It's easy to diagnose someone when you haven't walked a day in their past I respect ya comments and cherish ya feedback But you've never hated being half of what you are while fading back! You've never took a pill to numb your open wound You've never drank and wrote suicidal notes alone in your room You've felt doom? Tell me what it was like? Did you forgive the outcome? Or just enjoy telling me what's right? Can't force a triangle into a square Can't lead a army of broken hearts until you've felt despair Don't you dare! Sit there, look through me and stare Come with me first And I'll take you down the devils stairs I'll show you lost Show you pain and show you terror Show you a little boy Whose day's just never seemed to get better I've given my all - I've tried my best and still came up short I've married happiness - but never saw this sudden divorce Forever I do! I'd go back if she wanted me back But the insecurities and memories get in the way of all that Don't feel my pain! Just look at me and smile back I can't give in too this! NO! I will never do that I've cried enough and ripped out plenty of hair I've had a pity party! Sat alone, and pretended life wasn't fair I've enjoyed the ride Thought itd be better to die I've broken promises - took a loss and even attempted to swallow my pride I've yelled loud and did plenty that I'm not proud I've had hope and more so even had doubt I've had this - I've had that No sense to repeating all that I'm just done with the same story and continuing to look back I'm sorry for my actions and questioning my reactions Please just accept me! It's simple and that's all that I'm asking I've finally arrived I'm here and so alive I'm ready to get what I deserve I'm ready for my time The old me is dead, and that’s okay because... I revived.

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Aug 8, 2017

Aug 8, 2017 at 10:46 PM UTC

Revival

Have you ever felt like you put on mask to hide what it is that truly eats you? And gave everything you got to fight back the moments that truly defeat you? To wish upon a star that only occasionally shines To pray to a angel who just no longer has the time To wake up from nightmares while sleeping walking a dream Hoping that this pretty world isn't as ugly as it seems Am I a victim? Course I'm a victim I hear what you're saying doc It's just easier not to listen I'm looking back at the mirror I see him clearer He's the hatred I've had inside of me and I can feel him Can you fix that? Stop telling me to love my dad It's easy to diagnose someone when you haven't walked a day in their past I respect ya comments and cherish ya feedback But you've never hated being half of what you are while fading back! You've never took a pill to numb your open wound You've never drank and wrote suicidal notes alone in your room You've felt doom? Tell me what it was like? Did you forgive the outcome? Or just enjoy telling me what's right? Can't force a triangle into a square Can't lead a army of broken hearts until you've felt despair Don't you dare! Sit there, look through me and stare Come with me first And I'll take you down the devils stairs I'll show you lost Show you pain and show you terror Show you a little boy Whose day's just never seemed to get better I've given my all - I've tried my best and still came up short I've married happiness - but never saw this sudden divorce Forever I do! I'd go back if she wanted me back But the insecurities and memories get in the way of all that Don't feel my pain! Just look at me and smile back I can't give in too this! NO! I will never do that I've cried enough and ripped out plenty of hair I've had a pity party! Sat alone, and pretended life wasn't fair I've enjoyed the ride Thought itd be better to die I've broken promises - took a loss and even attempted to swallow my pride I've yelled loud and did plenty that I'm not proud I've had hope and more so even had doubt I've had this - I've had that No sense to repeating all that I'm just done with the same story and continuing to look back I'm sorry for my actions and questioning my reactions Please just accept me! It's simple and that's all that I'm asking I've finally arrived I'm here and so alive I'm ready to get what I deserve I'm ready for my time The old me is dead, and that’s okay because... I revived.

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Can you leave tomorrow? Please stay the night. I promise I will Make things right. We can wake up one more time Our hearts intertwined Before you leave to tomorrow Just let me try... Before you leave tomorrow Before you say goodbye I know you leave tomorrow Before you leave Stay here and lay here right in my arms Its only a few moments...until you're gone And I....will keep you warm Just act like you love me So I can go on Please act like you love me I want to go on.. Give us one more night Just lying in bed We can wake up to the sunlight Kisses to your forehead Doesn't matter if it's wrong or right I just gotta make sense of it Then you'll be gone in the morning And you'll be over this... Please just one more night So I can forget.. Stay here and lay here right in my arms Its only a few moments...until you're gone And I....will keep you warm Just act like you love me So I can go on Please act like you love me I want to go on.. When you go... Please sneak out as I sleep Cause I can't take the sight Of watching you leave If you go... I'll know why now And it was because of me And when you do go... Please don't forget... All of our memories. Please, stay here and lay here right in my arms Its only a few moments...until you're gone And I....will keep you warm Just act like you love me So I can go on Please act like you love me I want to go on.. Just act like you love me.... I need to go on.

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Jul 13, 2017

Jul 13, 2017 at 10:06 AM UTC

Act like you love me

Can you leave tomorrow? Please stay the night. I promise I will Make things right. We can wake up one more time Our hearts intertwined Before you leave to tomorrow Just let me try... Before you leave tomorrow Before you say goodbye I know you leave tomorrow Before you leave Stay here and lay here right in my arms Its only a few moments...until you're gone And I....will keep you warm Just act like you love me So I can go on Please act like you love me I want to go on.. Give us one more night Just lying in bed We can wake up to the sunlight Kisses to your forehead Doesn't matter if it's wrong or right I just gotta make sense of it Then you'll be gone in the morning And you'll be over this... Please just one more night So I can forget.. Stay here and lay here right in my arms Its only a few moments...until you're gone And I....will keep you warm Just act like you love me So I can go on Please act like you love me I want to go on.. When you go... Please sneak out as I sleep Cause I can't take the sight Of watching you leave If you go... I'll know why now And it was because of me And when you do go... Please don't forget... All of our memories. Please, stay here and lay here right in my arms Its only a few moments...until you're gone And I....will keep you warm Just act like you love me So I can go on Please act like you love me I want to go on.. Just act like you love me.... I need to go on.

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She...she sets the mood with her thigh high dress She...she sets the tone with her mind on *** But she thinks "resist"... for confusion, confusion sets in when lust becomes stronger than love.. oh, has lust become stronger than us? For I... I...have fallen for you You have become my addiction..oh.. Have my heart in your conviction, Lock me up... Throw away the key, A prisoner in your inconsistency... For has lust become stronger than love... Has lust become stronger than us? I don't know...don't ask me if I care Addicted to your eyes, please don't stop with your stares Blood drippin down the stairs, from something shattered. Buzzed off the mixture - of emotions and disaster. Alone, alone in my room - oh Where you set the tone...hm, set the tone With your *** with your mind Only question is this time... Did lust become stronger than love? How did we forget...did we forget about us?

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Feb 27, 2017

Feb 27, 2017 at 9:58 PM UTC

Stronger than love...

She...she sets the mood with her thigh high dress She...she sets the tone with her mind on *** But she thinks "resist"... for confusion, confusion sets in when lust becomes stronger than love.. oh, has lust become stronger than us? For I... I...have fallen for you You have become my addiction..oh.. Have my heart in your conviction, Lock me up... Throw away the key, A prisoner in your inconsistency... For has lust become stronger than love... Has lust become stronger than us? I don't know...don't ask me if I care Addicted to your eyes, please don't stop with your stares Blood drippin down the stairs, from something shattered. Buzzed off the mixture - of emotions and disaster. Alone, alone in my room - oh Where you set the tone...hm, set the tone With your *** with your mind Only question is this time... Did lust become stronger than love? How did we forget...did we forget about us?

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