I'm very different from your typical starryeyed girl
I'm emotional
Very emotional
I often worry that I feel too deeply
And that this quality can devastatingly challenge my happiness
You see when you feel too much
You say too much
You think too much
And you are never given a break.
Jun 10, 2015
Jun 10, 2015 at 4:36 PM UTC
It's quite funny
How you can go through life
Not knowing what your purpose is
Day by day you wonder
...
What is my future
Is there a future
??
Life is confusing like that
One moment you're feeling on top of the world
The next you're down in hell
Satan calling you closer
Negative thoughts
Cants instead of cans
Doubting yourself
"I won't ever be good enough"
And because of the stupid insecurities you lock away
You never truly will,
Or can,
Be happy.
Jun 10, 2015
Jun 10, 2015 at 4:29 PM UTC
Young and naive is what they thought
as he was the boy who wouldn't talk
He silently listened to what they said and all he'd do was nod his head.
His gleaming eyes always wide awake;
the boy in the room with so much heartache
They often said he wouldn't succeed for he was different
weak with trembling knees;
But his inner strength, it truly showed the day he spoke out and let them know
He let then know that he was strong
He showed them all that they had been wrong
Never again would they not believe that a boy so different could not achieve
Jun 8, 2015
Jun 8, 2015 at 1:47 PM UTC
Today a girl left this earth
After being strong
Battling against the deadly evil
Cancer
And my problems seem big
I have life
The precious gift that so often gets taken for granted
But you see,
we only appreciate what we have when we no longer have it
Sad, I know
But it's how we are
So appreciate everyday that you have
When you wake up
Thank god for your life
And live each day likes its your last
Because you never know when father time will come for you
Jun 7, 2015
Jun 7, 2015 at 1:05 PM UTC
This morning, the sun peaked from behind the clouds
And as the day went on, it shone brighter
Heat radiating through me
Blushing
Red cheeks
Smiles
Laughter
A brighter day unlike that of yesterdays rain
I didn't see you today
Which made it easier not to think of you
Fool myself that I'm getting over you
Maybe I will
Maybe I won't
Who knows
It's only day two
Jun 5, 2015
Jun 5, 2015 at 1:23 PM UTC
So there was this boy
He somehow kinda managed to steal my heart
Without even trying
He intrigued me
I began observing and seeing more than he let on
And slowly but surely, the compassion grew
Along with the lust, desire and craving of all things him.
It's been a couple of months now
And I lay here in bed thinking about how dumb I am to have let it get this bad
How could you let someone control you
So sneakily
Without even needing the puppet strings
All it took was the touch of his skin against mine, the smiles, the glances
That's all it took for my chest to burn a fire so bright
Melting my heart
And I was a goner.
Now the chase is over
You know how I feel
And you're waiting for me to beg for more
Act needy?
I think not
I see how this will end.
Though the clouds are still grey
The rain spitting
And the storm rumbling
There is
ALWAYS
A rainbow
And a sunny day that awaits
So keep your chin up, little girl
And wear your pride on your chest
Bc this bullshitting *******
Is no different from the rest
Jun 5, 2015
Jun 5, 2015 at 1:21 PM UTC
So there was this boy
He somehow kinda managed to steal my heart
Without even trying
He intrigued me
I began observing and seeing more than he let on
And slowly but surely, the compassion grew
Along with the lust, desire and craving of all things him.
It's been a couple of months now
And I lay here in bed thinking about how dumb I am to have let it get this bad
How could you let someone control you
So sneakily
Without even needing the puppet strings
All it took was the touch of his skin against mine, the smiles, the glances
That's all it took for my chest to burn a fire so bright
Melting my heart
And I was a goner.
Now the chase is over
You know how I feel
And you're waiting for me to beg for more
Act needy?
I think not
I see how this will end.
Though the clouds are still grey
The rain spitting
And the storm rumbling
There is
ALWAYS
A rainbow
And a sunny day that awaits
So keep your chin up, little girl
And wear your pride on your chest
Bc this bullshitting *******
Is no different from the rest
Jun 5, 2015
Jun 5, 2015 at 1:17 PM UTC
I guess a part of me always knew that this wouldn't work out
But the little girl inside of me
She kept screaming
Yelling
Urging
Me to take a chance
Be different
Different is good
?
She told me to follow my heart
Even though my mind and heart were closely paired
There was this little bit of doubt
So minuscule I could over look him
In the hope that he wouldn't be right
That for once in my life
For once in real life
There could be a happy
All would be well
And there would be a fairy tail ending
Romantic.
Like in those movies
Because how could people go through life not feeling
Or even wondering
About all the possibilities that could happen
If you just got to know her
Her likes , her dislikes
Her perfect imperfections
The things that make her tick
And slowly you'd be able to reverse the ticking time bomb
Turn all her worries
Pain
Doubts
Into happiness
Take away every negative thought she ever had
Make her feel safe
Protected
Sheltered
Like a Princess
The Princess she's always wanted to be
Jun 5, 2015
Jun 5, 2015 at 1:14 PM UTC
So.
So?
I don't even know
I thought there could've been a chance
I let you consume my mind, let you takeover
I let you get the best of me
And now I lay here
Wondering
My mind drowning in an ocean of icebergs
And I'm freezing
Freezing in the water
And did I forget to say, drowning too
I don't know if I can be saved
Or if I can get over you
But I'll try
It's the only thing I can do
The only way I can heal my trembling heart
The heart that I so stupidly opened for you
Allowing you to enter
You don't even know you had a place in it
And that's what makes it even more sad
The fact that you don't know how I feel
And probably never will
This "thing" that crushes me
It shall go to the grave
Get buried in the deepest quarry
Never to be discovered again
Jun 5, 2015
Jun 5, 2015 at 1:13 PM UTC
Crush
Crushed your soul
Your old wise soul
Made you hopeful
Cheerful
Hopeful
Made you dream
And wonder
And fanticise all you could be
All you could share
Forget imperfections
Forget ******* past mistakes
All we'd have was a future to look forward to
A future that could've been so **** good
If only you'd tried
I gave you all I new how to give
Made myself vulnerable
Feel smaller than I already do
And you, you giant
Made my insecurities skyrocket
Intimidation beyond comprehension
All for the boy I never really thought I had a chance with
The boy who was too good for me
The (imperfect) perfect boy
Jun 5, 2015
Jun 5, 2015 at 1:10 PM UTC