a monster
i'm a monster.
i hurt.
no fair cause i hurt.
all hurt.
i'm definitely going through a season of loneliness.
all because i don't know how to
properly
give my attention
to what matters.
i feel a thing.
someone is a thing.
i get wrapped up.
forget i have a life.
a god.
it's dangerous.
that's how i love so hard.
all this energy i wanna give to someone.
someone except Jesus.
what's really the problem here
who am i?
and why am i so afraid of being alone?
when in all actuality
i'm not.
it's too much
all is too much
no luck
it's hard for me to trust
i need someone
someone with my same energy
or better
God, why are you doing this to me?
May 28, 2019
May 28, 2019 at 9:49 AM UTC
i liked him
at first
he was sweet
at first
made me laugh
at first
i didn’t feel uncomfortable around him
at first
because
he didn’t want anything from me
at first
he was a gentleman
at first
seemed to be able to control himself
at first
had a bright smile
that made me produce the same
at first
i thought that what i saw was what i got
and everything is what it seems
at first
Oct 27, 2018
Oct 27, 2018 at 3:45 PM UTC
life *****
but so do those with
sweet teeth
in the presence of
candy on a stick.
Oct 23, 2018
Oct 23, 2018 at 11:10 AM UTC
i made this in seconds
i felt these before
i type and write and type and write
iv'e felt this way before
when all i can do is creative away
the pain right away
raw
coming from the side walls of my heart
raw
something meaningful and powerful
to me
to we
to us
later on in life
Sep 28, 2018
Sep 28, 2018 at 8:53 PM UTC
she spoke
but nobody believed her
nobody will believe her
so she doesn't speak
Sep 28, 2018
Sep 28, 2018 at 12:42 PM UTC
you lose when you let them take your joy
from you
and when you don't ****** it back
it's all on you
the one who is in control
of your life
nobody can take anything that belongs to you
don't let them
****** it back
or else you'll lose
Sep 28, 2018
Sep 28, 2018 at 12:37 PM UTC
just because i'm speechless
doesn't mean i don't know how i feel
it's just that i can't put it in words
for you to understand
my broken english
i don't know, i just
i mean its
sometimes i wish
i never meant for it
to happen
y'know?
of course you don't
you never do
Sep 26, 2018
Sep 26, 2018 at 9:58 PM UTC
i don't get it
i don't understand
the chemistry
the frequency
is falling out of my hands
what is it about me?
what is my problem?
why aren't i like them?
them like me?
things like that
could never be
Sep 26, 2018
Sep 26, 2018 at 9:55 PM UTC
there comes a time when you go
too far
all you can do is wait
for whoever or
whatever
to catch up
so that everything can be
alright again
Sep 26, 2018
Sep 26, 2018 at 1:16 PM UTC
but what's the purpose of this thing
of these collections of free-styled
words
why are they together and
what do they mean as a whole?
i used to think that a poetry book had to make sense
used to think that
it was wrong to bounce from one feeling to another
but then i thought
that's all a human being ever does (do)
Sep 26, 2018
Sep 26, 2018 at 12:55 PM UTC