from binkies to blunts
i watched my world change
around me
like little watercolor swirls
dancing in the sky of my memories
from binkies to blunts
swingsets and playpens
seemed ever so distant
in the rearview of childhood
we traded barbie dolls
into ***** bottles
wondering why
smile lines
seemed so hard to come by
we had always missed the times
when things came easy;
naturally (almost).
from carousels to learning
how *** sells
we began to draw parallels
of who we are and what we should be
the definition of me
never seemed to have
the stability
i had long to see
ever so constantly
from closet doors to liquor stores
feelings became trapped
in the constellations of thoughts
instead of the web of words
i wish to go back
(sometimes)
to the days
with the little teacups
filled with the tinkles
of warmth and laughs
of bliss past.
Jul 8, 2019
Jul 8, 2019 at 1:14 AM UTC
i feel my walls
closing
like elevator doors
clattering about
the deafening silence
the pressure
an ever pumping
vessel
the heart
wanting more
it was always about wanting more
never a little less
pressure
crashing against my mind
like waves
i felt
like a tiny lil mouse
enclosed in
the shoebox of my mind
wondering
with time
whether i could
really see the light
i was trapped in the maze
of my own consciousness
the puzzle pieces
never really felt complete
i doused
myself in the water
of my own thoughts
hoping to feel sane
i was like
a little guinea pig
on a wheel
churning monotoniously
such dreary remedies
the elevator door
is closing behind me
the pain subsides
keeping my mind
gently at bay
Jan 25, 2019
Jan 25, 2019 at 3:50 AM UTC
shot after shot
i let myself
slip from reality
as i traded shotglasses
into trips down
to the local liquor store
liquid happiness
turned into liquid sadness
as i wondered if
i could feel such tranquilities
ever again
i used my
liquid sins
to build houses
of velvet in my head
i thought i could
make the little
fires of pain
just go away
i strolled down
the streets of memory
hoping i could find
solace before the daybreak
the adrenaline rush
seemed to be all i needed
just a little something
to feel nothing....
(shai)
Nov 19, 2018
Nov 19, 2018 at 7:40 PM UTC
i feel like i am
hanging merely on eggshells
cracking at my feet
yellow yokes like the sun
dance crazily at the scene
a mixture asunder
the painful outsides
like shards of glass in my fingers
tear me apart
i feel like i am
walking on eggshells till i fall
into arms unknown
(shai)
Oct 23, 2018
Oct 23, 2018 at 8:55 PM UTC
the sleek
cool marble
chills run
down
the stone
delineations
and curvatures
of fine hands
and legs
white and pure
her eyes
blue
a fountain of youth
i wish i could bathe in it
forever
her blank gaze
from vacant
rolling ball
sockets
falls dreamlessly
into the oblivion
tinkles of music
hum and drone
noiselessly
like spoons
clattering to
the unforgiving ground
her cold heart
exposed
as she reclines,
back arched
ever so slightly
she is without
her soul and mind
the marble
her master
keeps her confined-
her own timeless paradigm
Jun 1, 2018
Jun 1, 2018 at 9:30 PM UTC
flashing red
crazy eyes
her eyes
mirror her feets
like soft charcoals
hitting the refreshing ground
pebbles tap the
soil quietly
a running oasis
her garments
sweep the floor
like steam
the face
pale as the invisible air
honeykissed by the dew
of the silent nighttime
i wish to touch her
be one with her warmth
but yet
she leaves my reach
drifting like
fireworks in the dark
her mind
enlightens me
as the candle dim
i would kiss her every thought
her voice
tinkling chimes
recourse through
my being
with her i am forever home
(shåi)
May 10, 2018
May 10, 2018 at 9:00 AM UTC
the woman walks
upon the
water
across to me,
hands in my reach
her hair shines radiant
as the beaming sun;
memorable, her wispy lines
her eyes
glimmer
against
the reflective light
her world falls
on and on
her endless demise
(shåi)
Mar 31, 2018
Mar 31, 2018 at 10:02 AM UTC
red
yellow
green
the lights flash
dully
on the quiet serenity of
the streets
the sea
of darkness on the
midnight scene
sad eyes
hide amongst the trees
waiting
those eyes
do not draw attention
they seek no gratification
they wish
to be forgotten under
those forsaken willows
these pale
sad spheres
brighten one time
a day
age will come
their time will
fade
they sing souless
songs
like lost silver lilies
in the koi ponds
red
yellow
green
another day dawns again
no hope no more feelings
a troubled world
remains until the very end
(shåi)
Mar 8, 2018
Mar 8, 2018 at 12:43 PM UTC
mind tied
like two lines
shoelaces
twisted and knots
straight like the cigarette
and ******* lines
snorted up the nose
into the brain
of such detached minds
the pain they hide
comes up to the surface
bubbling like liquid acetate
they have accepted
their inevitable fate
it is all but too late
to save the hearts
of those who
remain
loveless
Jan 17, 2018
Jan 17, 2018 at 9:26 AM UTC
click click
i was bound to your
love
like chains on
a dead corpse
you held the gun
to my forehead
as i adoringly
fell in love with you
so hypnotised
drawn by your
kisses
my invitation
(shåi)
Jan 10, 2018
Jan 10, 2018 at 12:43 PM UTC