It all started somewhere in the winter
I begged for a love as my anxiety grows thicker
Endless quest to fufill your soul
The sense of home, it never felt so dull
But in that winter's eve, everything is going to change
Somehow im at peace, i don't feel rage
Maybe it's time for me to start writing a new page.
I gave it my all, but i always end up rotting in a cage.
Everlasting story of my worthless days.
Where you've constantly inviting me to stay.
And those poems written about youth love,
Growing up broken hearted, feeling so god **** small.
But as time goes by,
I realized all we said are just words with no meaning, and all of this is an illusion, fraud and a lie.
Oct 28, 2020
Oct 28, 2020 at 4:50 PM UTC
Look to the sky,
And tell me what do you see?
A vast shade of blue
Or is just me?
Or maybe deep colors of the void?
Disappearing into abyss
Waiting for a new chance
To find our own internal bliss
A story untold
Spreading like star dust
Thousands of light years far away
Escaping the gravity , hoping to readjust
Lost in the echo of this endless journey
Lead by the frequencies of collapsing time
As we enter the atmosphere
We begin our quest of climbing into our eternal divine.
Aug 12, 2020
Aug 12, 2020 at 9:20 AM UTC
The hardest question to ask
To hold on or to just let it past?
To slip through my fingers?
Or am I just the one who lingers?
All my emotions just thrown away
And all of this drugs wont get me through the day.
Cuz I'm just losing my mind.
With every bittersweet memorie that i cling on
I can't let it go, i won't admit that all is gone.
Maybe I'm just so stubborn and dumb
But I'm afraid that I'm on my own.
And now I'm just losing my grip
I'm falling lower and lower into this blackness so deep.
And all those feelings never said.
Blinded by the love I'll never have.
Jul 23, 2020
Jul 23, 2020 at 1:46 PM UTC
You and me
We ll never be
What i really wanted us to be
And i dont know
If i should hold on
Or just let u go
Cuz it's breaking my soul
And u act like u dont care
I gave u my all
But as it seems im just too hard to love.
Jul 23, 2020
Jul 23, 2020 at 6:12 AM UTC
If you take my hand, i wont let you go
That is something i really want you to know
And if tomorrow brings fear in your eyes
Ill be right there, sitting by your side
Hold your hand in mine,
Grasping for this very moment, as the time is passing by
Look into my eyes with faith and hope
Giving my all, just to make a chance for us both
And believe me when i say
Next to you is a place where i want to lay
And listen to your heart beat and your breath
If u take me, ill be yours till my death
It may sound little corny, yes i know
But the feeling behind never failed to show
That i miss u with every second that passes by
You are the reason for my growth, my happiness and my smile.
You are the sun that rises at the dawn
Glimpse of joy, but i just pray it's not all that wrong
You are the moon that i gaze upon
They say home is a place, but wherever you are is where i belong
Jul 16, 2020
Jul 16, 2020 at 2:46 PM UTC
Only thing im searching for,
Hidden somewhere in my true form.
A place i can call my own,
my sanctuary and my home.
A litte peace in my head
Where i can escape from this existential dred.
Jul 14, 2020
Jul 14, 2020 at 8:33 PM UTC
I have this terrible feeling,
That im just not enough.
And no matter what i do or say
We were just a love story that never begun.
Jul 14, 2020
Jul 14, 2020 at 9:07 AM UTC
I drown myself in alcohol,
So my brain cant think at all.
I wasted most nights all alone.
Searching for a feeling i call my home.
But nothing is mine to own.
They say,
Stop feeling broken and sour.
So i drown myself in pills and liquor,
Cuz for me that's only working cure.
Even the music cant help no more,
Small wooden box, my deathwish, my final decor.
Jun 20, 2020
Jun 20, 2020 at 7:04 AM UTC
In this moment, lost and forgotten
Reconsidering atonement, but the truth never to be spoken
And ill leave, im abounded and sore
And every night, it just hurts a little more
In the end im afraid
One last step, into abyss ive created
This virus is plaguing my soul
And before u know it, im swallowed by it whole
No rest for the wicked and insane
I gave it my all, but there's not much to gain
And im not okay, im afraid
Im loosing this battle inside of my brain
It's all been said before
Buried deep within this metaphor
But this life aint what i settled for
Abstract visions of what i used to be, are never more.
But there's a hope between ocean and shore
Between our feelings locked up inside of a box ill never tore
This reality is just a trap door
And if u know how to escape it, ull appreciate life as u never did before
If u have the courage, if u have the valour
Everything will fall into place, everything u adore
May 10, 2020
May 10, 2020 at 1:01 PM UTC
And ill snap, my own neck
Hang the noose
From the ceiling to my back
Slit my wrists
With a dull of a knife
Blood spilling from my vains
Finally i feel fine
May 10, 2020
May 10, 2020 at 10:26 AM UTC