"fall, don't worry, i'll catch you" you whisper sweetly in my ear
now the blood is gushing from my cranium
i guess it's my own **** fault
Dec 5, 2014
Dec 5, 2014 at 11:26 PM UTC
i wish i could write something that conveyed how i'm feeling
i feel numb
i am numb
but how do i convey numbness?
Dec 2, 2014
Dec 2, 2014 at 10:21 PM UTC
The blue lines of the pieces of paper I wrote my deepest secrets on haunts me in my dreams. I stare at it blankly as it mocks me, spitting my words in my face as if it were poison I can't do anything about this pain but maybe if I were empty things would change and what about the deep dark secrets that laugh at me until I'm crying and how will I ever move past the guilt of your neck snapping as you hung yourself and where will I go when I have no one left and when will this emptiness subside how will I get out of the darkness and who will I turn to when I'm nearly drowning when will it stop will it ever stop who will stop it I want to meet them and thank them and ask them to make it stop sooner please make it stop this hurts it hurts and how could it not because I'm me and the guilt I feel that haunts my dreams is all I'll ever feel and this is the only me I'll ever know and maybe someone else will know another me but I will only know this one and maybe thats a good thing but maybe it's a tragedy.
Dec 1, 2014
Dec 1, 2014 at 9:14 PM UTC
How many pills does it take to ***** in a light bulb?
Depends on lightbulb.
Dec 1, 2014
Dec 1, 2014 at 8:48 PM UTC
If I beg you to break me will you shatter me to pieces?
If I plead and cry on my knees will you hurt me?
If I ask you kindly with my eyes to the ground
If I whisper in your ear in the middle of the night
If I scream it in the pillows
Will you make me bleed?
Will you make me feel?
Will you make the numbness go away?
Will you bruise me?
Make me remember why I'm here.
Dec 1, 2014
Dec 1, 2014 at 8:38 PM UTC
How could you have stopped my fall if you were the one who pushed me.
Dec 1, 2014
Dec 1, 2014 at 8:32 PM UTC
Her pill bottles are empty
As empty as her bed
She's a modern day damsel
Sobbing 'til she's dead.
Nov 30, 2014
Nov 30, 2014 at 2:51 PM UTC
Girl meets boy
Boy can't handle affection because his father hit him as a child
Boy meets girl
Girl stops eating because thats what her mother taught her
Nov 30, 2014
Nov 30, 2014 at 2:43 PM UTC
I crave emotion like I crave pizza
But I can't have it
I can't let myself devour every ounce of love that comes my way
I can't become dependent on the infamous L word that has broken me
I'm emotionally anorexic,
But sometimes I'm bulimic
Sometimes I'll hunt down my prey, and **** them dry of their love
I'll crave it until I'm stuffed full, and then I'll purge it out
I'll tell them I hate them,
I'll tell them to leave forever
I'll push them away until I'm broken and sad and alone
And anorexic again
Until I'm back where I belong, in the corner of my room
Crying, sobbing, craving affection, but not letting myself have it
Because I don't want to be fat with lust
I can't gain a single pound because if I do
I'll be weak.
Nov 30, 2014
Nov 30, 2014 at 2:40 PM UTC
We were like summer.
Warm, bright, and gorgeous.
We were like sunlight on water, radiating in every direction.
We were happy, in love.
Free.
The last few days of summer felt like losing
Losing an ongoing battle that we thought we could win.
Our love is fading, and what has taken it’s place is cold.
We’re winter now.
We don’t speak, we don’t smile.
The flowers are dying, and the roads are slippery.
Winter is like trying to forget, trying and failing.
Waking up and wishing it had never happened.
Wishing we could smile again.
Wishing spring was here,
But our winter will never end.
Nov 30, 2014
Nov 30, 2014 at 2:21 PM UTC