I’m missing how it used to be
How you’d seek me out like a little puppy
The sparks flying between us like fireworks
Anticipation building as we engaged in conversation
Then it finally happened on a steamy summer night
The curiosity we had about our bedroom manners
Discovered in an instant moment of gratification
Our bodies tangled as mouths and tongues tasted one another
But as expected things fall apart
We’ve slowly morphed into distant acquaintances
You pay me a visit only when you need to vent
As I listen in silence about the woman you love and hate
Laying wide awake in my bed
Thoughts of you take me over
Pleasing myself at the thought of your mouth
Gifting wet kisses to that sweet spot
You can’t deliver your message to my face
That this short lived connection was just that
Ceasing your exploration of me and my body
Our association has reached its final stop
Oct 5, 2021
Oct 5, 2021 at 12:42 PM UTC
I waited in vain for your validation
In hopes that maybe you’d see me
The way I saw you, beloved
Sadly, you viewed me like thin air
While I was mesmerized by your cappuccino skin
And the way your hair danced in the wind
You couldn’t give a **** about me
I was just one of many who looked your way
Even as I would ignore you in plain sight
I would beg for your attention in my head
But you only threw crumbs at me
Like I was some lost street pigeon
Keep your linty crumbs for someone else
The hell you think you are?
I am deserving of so much riches
Yet I feel like some vagabond
Aug 9, 2021
Aug 9, 2021 at 3:56 PM UTC
My precious; that is what you are
A dark crystal with gleams of color
You’re a gem; a talisman to my heart
This treasure I cannot grasp or touch
It’s as if I can feel your energy
Eager lips caressing my cheek
Your voice audible only in my soul’s ears
Sensing your body’s warmth beside me
My mind is lost and unclaimed
Are you really here or is it just fantasy
Do I just want and need you that badly
That fables start to form in my head
You are a stinging grand sorrow
Pumping through my icy veins
The reason for my mental demise
My guide to a vast lonely world
Feb 3, 2021
Feb 3, 2021 at 3:16 PM UTC
So what of those who aren't sought
Or the ones afflicted with eternal solitude
Where do our hearts go or rather hide
We are the refugees of this so called euphoria
An enigma so potent known as love
We are those not wanted by it
The unchosen and not desired
It chases us away like we're rats
Forcing us to scurry for cover
When all we want is to be fed
We've been shut out of it's presence
Like we are unworthy vagabonds
Sleeping on an empty cold floor
Crying ourselves into slumber
Only to be orphaned again tomorrow
Jan 7, 2021
Jan 7, 2021 at 12:56 PM UTC
Watching the sun rise out my window
Emotions begin to run high
This longing attacks me hard
Feeling trembles go up my thigh
Waves of tremors going up my chest
Finding respite in my throat
A knot forms ceasing any sound
Blocking my voice from a crying note
These weekend tears got me going mad
Needing your body beside me bad
My craving for you on level ten
Tired of wondering how and when
Nov 2, 2020
Nov 2, 2020 at 12:38 PM UTC
Your waters are slowly drowning me
The waves of your unrequitedness dragging me below
This ocean so indifferent and cold
My gasps for air fall deaf on your salty waters
Your currents tossing me around like a rag doll
Gurgling cries emanating from my lungs
A Godly barge frantically tossing a life saver
My attempts are no match for your choppy seas
Fight I will with all my might
To survive, to live and to thrive
Victorious, I will reign above the drenching flow
Of your dark emotionless undertow
Oct 22, 2020
Oct 22, 2020 at 4:01 PM UTC
I want to look into your eyes
Get lost in the hues of topaz
Taste your rich brown skin
With my eager hungry lips
Feel the thickness of your curls
Intertwined around my fingers
Nuzzle in your neck for security
Hypnotize me with its scent
My mind shouts I should forget you
But you are unforgettable
In physical human form
An event etched into mental corridors
A muse I never imagined
A being that’s left an impression
On this helpless shivering heart
Shrouded in a blanket of hopelessness
Feb 21, 2020
Feb 21, 2020 at 3:31 PM UTC
It just isn't in me
Doesn't feel like it's right
Although you hurt my heart
In plain vast open sight
All the years I spent hoping
Some of them big, some small
They fed my attachment to you
You swiftly obliterated them all
My friends viewed me as insane
Thought I was losing my marbles
Over some non existential connection
Words about you on paper I'd warble
I should hate and detest you
Spit on the images of your face
Set on fire the part in my heart
Where you occupied a big space
I won't allow your dismissal
To shatter me into pieces
My soul will fend off the wounds
Till the memory of you ceases
Jan 6, 2020
Jan 6, 2020 at 11:46 AM UTC
What happened to your eyes?
Blankness was residing in them
A force field built around your perimeter
Their protection of you my condemn
I kept hoping for approval
Some sign of validation
Yet you had nothing for me
Only a serving of rejection
Gluing your eyes to an animated screen
Shutting out the action around you
I being caught in the mix
My insecurities coming to a brew
So now I'm the invisible woman
Transported to a state of sullen
My feel goods suddenly taken
Hopes for your love disheartened
Oct 7, 2019
Oct 7, 2019 at 11:27 AM UTC
Dark wave pulling me under
Dark wave filling my lungs
Dark wave ceasing my breath
Dark wave holding me hostage
Battling them wicked demons
They puncture the fabric of my soul
Using their horns to injure and harm
Leaving my sanity in pieces and shreds
Opaqueness and void paints my everyday
Grey fog envelops my clarity
Storm clouds gather to drench me
And whisk me away in it's murky waters
I don't know who I am
I don't understand why I exist
If there is no purpose there is no point
Living is just a waste of time
Sep 17, 2019
Sep 17, 2019 at 12:07 PM UTC