To live with
To live without
My whole life is filled with doubt
Aug 22, 2014
Aug 22, 2014 at 9:57 PM UTC
Morning
Waking
Walking
Faking
Talking
Singing
Giving
Bringing
Dieing
Lying
People Crying
Comforting
Sleeping
then once again the sun comes up
and its morning
Aug 22, 2014
Aug 22, 2014 at 9:56 PM UTC
Lonely staring at these black walls
Empty spaces
Ghostly faces
Hopless wishes
Empty kisses
Wondering if anyone misses
me
Aug 22, 2014
Aug 22, 2014 at 9:50 PM UTC
I always had one thing to keep me steady
my mom
i know shes a drunk
but at least shes not an angry drunk like my dad
watching him hit her was the hardest thing growing up
it taught me i cant do anything
that i cant stop anything
Then again
my mom isn't helping me that much either
dad had a problem even i know that
but she didn't even try to help him
all she did was send him away
now my dad is in jail
she doesn't care about me
I wish my dad was here
at least he cared
Then i met josh
he was then sweetest boy you could met
but like my father
he was an angry drunk
he use to hit me
but he would always apoligize
and instead of not trying like my mom
I tried to help him
and I fell in love
Josh broke up with me one day
he texted me and said
I'm sorry baby but this is not gonna work
I couldnt believe it
my whole life i spent working with him
he was my life
he was my everything
and without him i didnt want to live
On that night
I was talking to Nina Worsley
and Chloe Jackson
they helped me survive that night
I was getting by fine without Josh
I even met a new boy Korri
but recently
hes been texting me
asking for me back
last night he told me my brother wanted to be part of his gang
he wanted me to meet him to talk about it
so i went
but when i saw him i fell in love all over again
and i want him back
and he will take me
Someone please tell me
What do i do next?
Jun 24, 2014
Jun 24, 2014 at 12:47 AM UTC
When i saw your skin
all i could do was remember its warmth
when i saw your hair
all i could do was remember how it felt under my fingers
when i looked in your eyes
all i could see was how many times i got lost in them
When i saw you
I fell in love all over again
I saw you
and now i know
I will never let you go
Jun 24, 2014
Jun 24, 2014 at 12:29 AM UTC
It's fathers day
and yet my father is the only one who ever hurt me
but he is also the only one who ever loved me
its very confusing
because I love him and he loves me
but his way of showing things
is seen by others crazy
I would rather have a card saying I love you
then a punch in the eye
since they mean the same thing to you
but now your in jail
far away
and now im crying on my living room couch
with a tube of ice cream
praying that you where here
to show me you love me
even if that meant hitting me
I miss you daddy
and I love you even though you hurt me
Happy fathers day
I love you daddy
Jun 15, 2014
Jun 15, 2014 at 7:07 PM UTC
I have a friend
whose world is falling apart
she feels as if someone is tearing at her heart
and thats not the worst part
the worst part is no one noticed
no one saw she was hiding behind glass walls
and we didnt care
stare
wonder
or even try
long enough to notice
I have a nother friend
who i knew was hurting when I saw her
I tried to get into her heart
see the real her
when i did i felt amazing
I wish i could say the same about my other friend
but shes not listening
she is so caught up in trying not to cry
trying to stay strong
but crying is what she had to do all along
she is hurting yet no one cares enough to listen
she is dead
and no one checks her for a pulse
she is no longer living
and now no one cares
she is dead on the inside
shes scared
but she doesnt have a mother to comfort her
and her fathers never home
she doesnt have a friend to lean on
because no one looks at her close enough to know
she has no where to go
but inside
and she never lets it show
in the words of frozen
its time to let it go
Jun 15, 2014
Jun 15, 2014 at 6:59 PM UTC
Our relationship is like my internet connection
sometimes its strong
while others I wonder why I even pay the internet bills
Jun 11, 2014
Jun 11, 2014 at 3:47 PM UTC
You sent me flowers today
I have to say I love the bouquet
but why does the card say *You still ****
instead of saying
I love you baby
Jun 11, 2014
Jun 11, 2014 at 3:41 PM UTC
You leave me wondering
if you have changed your feelings about me
so i try to move on
but when i do
people tell me it was to fast the way i got over you
that i never really cared about you
and yet I'm still in love with you
and this new guy
he probably cares about me as little as you do
and yet when I'm with him all i can think of
Is me and you
and that was my one day
of trying to get over you
Jun 11, 2014
Jun 11, 2014 at 3:33 PM UTC