A world of pain and deceit,
was all I found in your eyes
Yet I tried to give you my world,
in a faint effort to make you mine
You were nothing but a shadow,
one I tried too hard to hold
Too young and naive,
for thinking together we'd grow old
A fire in your pupils,
fueled by an icy heart
Not for a second did I think,
you would be the reason we'd part
Drawn to your affection,
how foolish it was of me
Now to be left here standing,
to leave this as just a memory
Your hands were daggers,
that I tried to caress
And your lips were poison,
that made me less
It was a love that devoured,
an insatiable craving
It was also a love that soured,
as time kept moving
Someone tried to give me their world,
but I could not give them mine
Because a world of pain and deceit,
was all they found in my eyes.
Apr 19, 2016
Apr 19, 2016 at 1:03 PM UTC
It is with an emptiness in my throat,
a riptide in my stomach,
and needles in my heart
that I write this today.
I fear you might find out,
I fear you might realise,
I fear you might explode,
and I am terrified that you will leave.
If you happen to chance across this,
while actualising your thoughts into words.
Feelings and emotions I wished you share with me,
that you so easily convey to a machine.
If you could see through my eyes,
you would never feel insufficient again.
And so I beseech God to rid my mind of you;
a mind that is welcomingly plagued by your presence.
A mind that personifies hypocrisy;
as I read your writings about a boy,
wishing they were about me
but they are not.
And yet I still keep going back.
Hoping to find my name in your words one day.
Jan 26, 2015
Jan 26, 2015 at 8:09 AM UTC
It's a rather sombre sight
To see the masses of doubt
Of would-bes and could-haves
It's quite a depressing thought
That we were made for each other
But not meant to be together
We live in a lonely world
Construed by imaginary rules
And caged by invisible rails
It's a feeling like no other
Because, while time just flew
I would have loved to love you
Jan 22, 2015
Jan 22, 2015 at 1:19 AM UTC
As we swirled under a sky of spectrum
And I felt your body melt unto mine
There was never again a time where
I felt so free, so tranquil and safe
Hidden in the shields of your arms
And for a moment, I believed again
That I could fly past the heaviest clouds
That I could soar infinitely, with you
But that was all it was
All it ever could be
- a glitch in time
Where everything was okay
If I could stop the earth from moving
If I could stop you from leaving
Maybe we could dance in a haze of colours
And fade out from the rest of the world
Jan 14, 2015
Jan 14, 2015 at 6:47 PM UTC
Tattered heart, a spark once infernal
Now lights no more than a lie
The veil of dawn begs to be nocturnal
As the night tears from the sky
Withered decades, oh sweet blasphemy
I tend to heal with knives
Suicide, uncage yourself from sanity
Karma does not have nine lives
The mud is darker on one side
The rain heavier on the other
Morals do weigh less than pride
In the hearts that we smother
Hope flies among the clouds
A desire to rid myself of pain
Standing still, eyes open, head unbowed
My sun sets to rise again
Jan 10, 2015
Jan 10, 2015 at 9:03 AM UTC
a glance
i caught you
i looked away but
a smile
but
i turned away
you were so
perfect
tell her!
no you idiot, don't.
i wanted to.
i really did.
life happened
as it does
how very mundane
like the workings of a clock
but time stopped.
i saw you again
with another man
your hands in his
the hands stopped ticking
my heart stopped beating
i wanted to tell you
but i didn't.
Jan 10, 2015
Jan 10, 2015 at 8:39 AM UTC