Temporarily content
for once the tears have subsided
Though eventually my mind goes back
to being hopelessly misguided
Involuntarily thrown
into a dark pit of despair
A broken smile and a broken spirit
that I seem unable to repair
A strong keen intellect hidden
behind a melancholy haze
Vibrant, sparkling, engaging eyes
become a blank vacant gaze
Running from the suffocation
it finally caught up to me
Darkness swarming in my mind
now every bad thought ***** with me
The rareness of my tears set in
and everything goes black
I'm in my own gloomy bubble
where depression slowly attacks
Now all that seems to be left of myself is a
foggy obscure apparition
An empty shell of nothingness
who is losing all ambition
Depression, Anxiety, insomnia and more...
it seems I've made a custom combination
I'm a fuzzy headed ****** up mess
I've concluded through my observation
Jun 24, 2014
Jun 24, 2014 at 5:14 PM UTC
I'm always trying to put my
thoughts into words
& constantly trying to
make those words
fathomable to the
correct common brain
Jun 24, 2014
Jun 24, 2014 at 4:47 PM UTC
you were one of the few
people in my life that I
trusted
I put my faith in you
I let you inside my world
I let you explore places in my
mind
that no other person has explored before
you got inside my head
and you made yourself at home
and I didn't mind
not at all
because you accepted me
for who I really was
no judgment
no negativity
just support
you didn't just accept my flaws
you saw my flaws as just another reason to love me
you didn't even see flaws
you saw beauty
you put in effort
more effort than anyone has ever put into me before
you found the darkest places in my soul
you found darkness I didn't even know existed
and filled them with love
you emptied out the capsule that held
my darkest secrets
my shame
my hatred
and every little negative thing I was keeping inside of me
you took all of my burdens away
you made me feel free
for the first time in my life
you made me feel comfortable
you made me feel at home
you took the ribbons that I had lathered around my body
and unraveled them
slowly
patiently
with a smile on your face
you showed me who I really was
I'll never be able to repay you
but I promise to love you forever
and just know that without you
I never would have found my true happiness
because of you
I can go anywhere in the world
and know who I am
and know that I am at
home
Jun 23, 2014
Jun 23, 2014 at 2:46 PM UTC
Not you
But mends the heart
Not you
But keeps me warm
Not you
But Helps me through
Not you
But makes me laugh
Not you
But helps me smile
Not you
No one will ever be you
But second best will have to do
Jun 23, 2014
Jun 23, 2014 at 2:23 PM UTC
Hopelessly drawn into your deep blue eyes
I never really noticed anyone's eyes before I met you
I never realized what they were actually capable of
Now I know that just a simple smile can brighten them up to the point of making me fall in love all over again
In one part of my mind I can picture you loving me as much as I love you but in another part I'm not too sure.
I'll never know how someone as incredible as you could possibly love someone as ordinary as me
and it's amazing really..
because I'm not all that ordinary
but being in your presence I couldn't feel more uninteresting in a good way
Love isn't very complicated
It's actually pretty simple
I'm in love with you and I would take a bullet for you without hesitation
The only part that is complicated is simply the circumstances
I hope one day it'll become easier
With us I feel it's different
We have so much in common
but I feel that even if we didn't have mutual interests
It wouldn't matter
My love for the person you are would still be there
You are my world
It sounds cliché
but I'm not just saying it to make you feel good and I'm not just saying it to put emphasis on my love for you
I'm saying it because it couldn't be more true
You are my world
You are the beauty in everyday that I live and you are who I look forward to seeing everyday when I wake up.. even if it's just for a second
You are every good feeling I could possibly have
Jun 23, 2014
Jun 23, 2014 at 1:50 PM UTC