how long can I disappoint
myself and all my friends
May 4
May 4, 2026 at 1:33 PM UTC
when did it count
as a heartbreak?
was it when i wrote that poem
and you saw it
because you still got onto hp
every night
even though you don't write
was it when my mom found me
on the shower floor
after hours of sobbing
and wondering why
i wasn't enough
was it when i got into the backseat
with you
against my better judgment
and you put your hand on my thigh
even though you told chris
that you didn't want me
was it when you kissed me
that very same day
twice
was it when you kissed me
the next day too
three times
this time
or was it when you proved me right
because you haven't talked to me
since last thursday
but i thought it was different this time
May 4
May 4, 2026 at 1:31 PM UTC
i want to know
what it's like to be you
to string me along
with nothing to lose
to walk around town
like there's no one like you
and believe that i'll follow
whatever you do
Apr 22
Apr 22, 2026 at 8:41 PM UTC
today i had a picture perfect moment
for the first time since i stopped talking to you
i told my mom i stayed after for "tutoring"
and sitting there outside in the amphitheater
surrounded by my friends
while we passed around a vape
and told stories about school
and boys
and secrets
and drama
it was like time stopped
everything was fine
everything was perfect
and i didnt think about you
because i didnt need to
and i loved every second of it
Apr 20
Apr 20, 2026 at 7:18 PM UTC
i want you to love me
the way you did that night
under the moonlight
when you held me as i cried
when i broke down and asked you
why you didnt run away
and you told me
you'd have never wanted to see another day
and i said you were crazy
and you said that was okay
and i let myself be yours
for one single day
Apr 16
Apr 16, 2026 at 7:15 PM UTC
oh, I'm okay
I'm trying to get over you
day by day
there's a new guy now
and he treats me great
but i think about you
when i look at his face
and youre happy for me
and i guess thats okay
but i want you to fight
and tell me to stay
i want you to want me
to never go away
but youre getting over it now
so i guess i'll do the same
Apr 16
Apr 16, 2026 at 7:11 PM UTC
it feels like i lost
and i dont think thats fair
i put up with everything
they told me they cared
in the end you win
we all knew you would
but i wanted to believe
it would turn out good
Apr 16
Apr 16, 2026 at 6:46 PM UTC
look at the colors
look at the lights
the shape of the patience
the shape of your eyes
the tint of the sunrise
the tint of your mind
the way the stars dance
between your heart and mine
Apr 14
Apr 14, 2026 at 6:31 PM UTC
am i wasting my time
tell me im not
tell me you love me
keep me out in the dark
dont tell me the truth
*** i dont wanna know
that really to you
this is only a joke
Apr 9
Apr 9, 2026 at 6:36 PM UTC
Narcissist or a momma's boy
Washed up dreams like you had no choice
Frat house friends who don't make no noise
Drinking iced coffee while you keep avoidin'
Avoiding, avoiding your mood in the morning
Oh yeah, I'm annoyed, 'cause you said I'm important
You said I was filling your void out of boredom
I said that I would, oh, I gave you a warning that
I can't be your iced-coffee dream girl, dream girl
I can't be your call-me-to-feel girl, feel girl
Apr 9
Apr 9, 2026 at 6:32 PM UTC