derek-dale-frazier - Hello Poetry

I've lost my voice, misplaced or hidden by me. Quarantined and deemed unclean, I'd rather kick this chair and choke. This broken record playing, static pitch inside my head Most tragic note I've ever formed. You mourn that which I consider normal. I swore refusal of logic resolve. You called my bluff, and my throat choked up. Don't call This love. I know that which you see as sacred. We grow together with no need for words. Your mind grabs me, leaves me gasping. Don't call This love. My voice returns in vibrant resolve. Echoes freely, hopelessness swiftly absolved. Let's just enjoy this. Don't call This love. Let's just Enjoy this. Don't call This love.

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Jan 15, 2012

Jan 15, 2012 at 7:07 PM UTC

Don't Call This Love

I've lost my voice, misplaced or hidden by me. Quarantined and deemed unclean, I'd rather kick this chair and choke. This broken record playing, static pitch inside my head Most tragic note I've ever formed. You mourn that which I consider normal. I swore refusal of logic resolve. You called my bluff, and my throat choked up. Don't call This love. I know that which you see as sacred. We grow together with no need for words. Your mind grabs me, leaves me gasping. Don't call This love. My voice returns in vibrant resolve. Echoes freely, hopelessness swiftly absolved. Let's just enjoy this. Don't call This love. Let's just Enjoy this. Don't call This love.

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Where's my grave? Simply unfair You didn't save A place somewhere. Too weak to dig Myself a hole. Incinerate Someplace, alone. You say you're trapped Inside yourself. Hostile to my Indifference felt. Won't fully grasp This tragic fact. My body lives. That's all I have. Just wanna **** Until I die. So, let's just **** And say goodbye.

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Jan 6, 2012

Jan 6, 2012 at 5:34 PM UTC

Lust You to Death

Where's my grave? Simply unfair You didn't save A place somewhere. Too weak to dig Myself a hole. Incinerate Someplace, alone. You say you're trapped Inside yourself. Hostile to my Indifference felt. Won't fully grasp This tragic fact. My body lives. That's all I have. Just wanna **** Until I die. So, let's just **** And say goodbye.

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Hands around the neck In search of dying breath. ***** nails dig in. Hoarse cries begin to thin. I'm not dreaming. I'm not thinking. Lost all touch. please, don't wake up. No, don't wake up. Hemorrhagic ecstasy while bathing in your tears. Innocence exhumed for you after twenty short-lived years. Cheek to cheek In my arms Don't wake up. Please, don't wake up.

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Dec 11, 2011

Dec 11, 2011 at 2:46 AM UTC

Daily Dream Fragments

Hands around the neck In search of dying breath. ***** nails dig in. Hoarse cries begin to thin. I'm not dreaming. I'm not thinking. Lost all touch. please, don't wake up. No, don't wake up. Hemorrhagic ecstasy while bathing in your tears. Innocence exhumed for you after twenty short-lived years. Cheek to cheek In my arms Don't wake up. Please, don't wake up.

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Heartbreak may pull me down Haunted by all I've found Live and let live Don't forget, just forgive Drugs and depression may seek me Blatant confession has saved me Bite, spit, kick, and fight Rage against the dying of the light Kindred spirits may uplift me Pithy quotes may stick with me Still I know my role, sacrifice the one to satisfy the whole If ignorance is bliss, intelligence is meaningless

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Sep 26, 2011

Sep 26, 2011 at 2:23 AM UTC

Memoirs: Chapter 4, Acceptance

Heartbreak may pull me down Haunted by all I've found Live and let live Don't forget, just forgive Drugs and depression may seek me Blatant confession has saved me Bite, spit, kick, and fight Rage against the dying of the light Kindred spirits may uplift me Pithy quotes may stick with me Still I know my role, sacrifice the one to satisfy the whole If ignorance is bliss, intelligence is meaningless

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Menthol drops stop inflamed, bursting lines and sanitize glass eyes Leaving opaque walls behind Perceptions consist of persistent resistance, lists never ending, refusing to change, shallow blame twists into shame As the drops start failing I did it again, I let her back in I knew where to go, but I went where I've been I did it again, I let her back in I knew where to go, but I went where I've been Cursing birth at death Wrapping my hands 'round her neck And stealing her last breath

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Sep 26, 2011

Sep 26, 2011 at 1:12 AM UTC

Memoirs: Chapter 3, Regret

Menthol drops stop inflamed, bursting lines and sanitize glass eyes Leaving opaque walls behind Perceptions consist of persistent resistance, lists never ending, refusing to change, shallow blame twists into shame As the drops start failing I did it again, I let her back in I knew where to go, but I went where I've been I did it again, I let her back in I knew where to go, but I went where I've been Cursing birth at death Wrapping my hands 'round her neck And stealing her last breath

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Heard those deadened footsteps Stark-black, solemn eyes met Clawing, withered hands crept frantically groping in darkness Searching for the exit, sweating toxic, life detainment Lids from coffins open Wispy curses spoken Tranquil dreams are stolen Knotted rope broke again

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Sep 25, 2011

Sep 25, 2011 at 11:37 PM UTC

Memoirs: Chapter 1, Birth at Death

Heard those deadened footsteps Stark-black, solemn eyes met Clawing, withered hands crept frantically groping in darkness Searching for the exit, sweating toxic, life detainment Lids from coffins open Wispy curses spoken Tranquil dreams are stolen Knotted rope broke again

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A backwoods lobotomy filling a five-gallon bucket While her parents watched in earnest Her head was just too big I think she is pregnant Then take care of it, just use the rusty coat hanger method This bucket will need emptying first Feed the slop to the swine It looks like you two are going to be grandparents This grotesque, mutilated corpse of an unborn No, it looks like the pigs will be well-fed in the morning How long until slaughter? Hurry up and it will be done

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Feb 23, 2011

Feb 23, 2011 at 10:46 AM UTC

Backwoods Lobotomy

A backwoods lobotomy filling a five-gallon bucket While her parents watched in earnest Her head was just too big I think she is pregnant Then take care of it, just use the rusty coat hanger method This bucket will need emptying first Feed the slop to the swine It looks like you two are going to be grandparents This grotesque, mutilated corpse of an unborn No, it looks like the pigs will be well-fed in the morning How long until slaughter? Hurry up and it will be done

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It's been awhile since I've written anything at all It's been so long since my dying voice sang a single word I'm desperate to discover this path This quiet trail into eternity, look at me I don't cry anymore, but in my dreams tears pour And drown me indefinitely, finally killing off what I've seen I scream, I scream I grow tired of catchy hooks, my nose in books Your empty looks give away what I guessed for months I should have run, loaded up my gun And found peace in nonexistence But your insistence has brought me back here Alone and in fear, blinded at the gates my dear Rediscovered how to care Then remembered this burden to bear

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Feb 1, 2011

Feb 1, 2011 at 7:53 PM UTC

On Repeat

It's been awhile since I've written anything at all It's been so long since my dying voice sang a single word I'm desperate to discover this path This quiet trail into eternity, look at me I don't cry anymore, but in my dreams tears pour And drown me indefinitely, finally killing off what I've seen I scream, I scream I grow tired of catchy hooks, my nose in books Your empty looks give away what I guessed for months I should have run, loaded up my gun And found peace in nonexistence But your insistence has brought me back here Alone and in fear, blinded at the gates my dear Rediscovered how to care Then remembered this burden to bear

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A slight quiver from the bow in your back I come on strong like a fatal attack Hunting you down A hushed whimper in your throat condemns The subtle undertones of shameful whims Cutting you down A silent breakdown in the guise of guilt Laying waste to a temple built Crumbling down A lucid dream where you all four come Expecting nothing, but for me to run Gunning you down So, it has come down to this Sinking further between your lips Holding your hips I aim to fix This memory with another hit Self-soothe with a fading bruise All there is left of you Leaving you down Tip off the cops in this ****** plot Left unpursued with a final thought Burning you down So, it has come down to this Sinking further between your lips Holding your hips I aim to fix This memory with another hit Erase her graceful face Erase her staying taste Erase her hopeful trace Erase her Erase her (Ich möchte sehen, dass Sie sich für Ihre Unwissenheit brennen. Ich will sehen Sie spucken Blut, du verdammte Hure. Es gibt nichts, ich will in meinem Leben, außer dich leiden sehen aus erster Hand. Ich könnte glücklich sterben wissen Sie nahm das eigene Leben, also, wenn Sie wirklich wollen, mich glücklich zu machen, dann gehen ******* do it. Ich werde weinen gottverdammten Tränen der Freude, wenn du weg bist, dass eine Garantie ist. Gehen Sie weiter und hassen mich, weil ich krankhaft bin, aber dieses realisieren: Sie wissen nicht, Scheiße, und du wirst nie, du Fotze stur. Ich werde dich in der Hölle zu sehen.)

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Dec 16, 2010

Dec 16, 2010 at 3:21 AM UTC

Erase Her

A slight quiver from the bow in your back I come on strong like a fatal attack Hunting you down A hushed whimper in your throat condemns The subtle undertones of shameful whims Cutting you down A silent breakdown in the guise of guilt Laying waste to a temple built Crumbling down A lucid dream where you all four come Expecting nothing, but for me to run Gunning you down So, it has come down to this Sinking further between your lips Holding your hips I aim to fix This memory with another hit Self-soothe with a fading bruise All there is left of you Leaving you down Tip off the cops in this ****** plot Left unpursued with a final thought Burning you down So, it has come down to this Sinking further between your lips Holding your hips I aim to fix This memory with another hit Erase her graceful face Erase her staying taste Erase her hopeful trace Erase her Erase her (Ich möchte sehen, dass Sie sich für Ihre Unwissenheit brennen. Ich will sehen Sie spucken Blut, du verdammte Hure. Es gibt nichts, ich will in meinem Leben, außer dich leiden sehen aus erster Hand. Ich könnte glücklich sterben wissen Sie nahm das eigene Leben, also, wenn Sie wirklich wollen, mich glücklich zu machen, dann gehen ******* do it. Ich werde weinen gottverdammten Tränen der Freude, wenn du weg bist, dass eine Garantie ist. Gehen Sie weiter und hassen mich, weil ich krankhaft bin, aber dieses realisieren: Sie wissen nicht, Scheiße, und du wirst nie, du Fotze stur. Ich werde dich in der Hölle zu sehen.)

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Shallow breaths wish to cease From cracked lips and stained teeth Haggard cheeks, dry and white Wish to harden and end tonight If only sleep could last forever And wipe away all seen together If only we had never met That summer night, cool and wet Its so easy to just pretend I'm right back where I once began But now I'm waiting for the end Treacherous lips haunt my mind Kissing on some other kind Of man that I apparently can't be Suffering from my own disease Starving ribs, jutting out From pale skin laying down Alone in bed, wide awake While she's all smiles with love to make Its so easy to just pretend I'm right back where I once began But now I'm waiting for the end

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Nov 4, 2010

Nov 4, 2010 at 9:07 AM UTC

Memoirs: Chapter 2, Waiting for the End

Shallow breaths wish to cease From cracked lips and stained teeth Haggard cheeks, dry and white Wish to harden and end tonight If only sleep could last forever And wipe away all seen together If only we had never met That summer night, cool and wet Its so easy to just pretend I'm right back where I once began But now I'm waiting for the end Treacherous lips haunt my mind Kissing on some other kind Of man that I apparently can't be Suffering from my own disease Starving ribs, jutting out From pale skin laying down Alone in bed, wide awake While she's all smiles with love to make Its so easy to just pretend I'm right back where I once began But now I'm waiting for the end

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