You never were the one to wait your turn
Blaming me for every bridge you burn
****** me of all for which I yearn
A pupil pilloried will never learn
I tried to rectify my own
Now I’m left petrified and cold
And I believe I’m in a bind
Can’t seem to find my nevermind
The weight of late is getting hard to hold
Vacant eyes that search but never find
Often open but forever blind
Lose perspective as my thoughts unwind
This borderline suggests I’m not your kind
Apr 26, 2021
Apr 26, 2021 at 3:05 PM UTC
woke today, with an ache in my head
seems to me, i’d be better off dead
it’s safe to say, the candle’s burning at both ends
ive ceased to pay, these consequential dividends
i know ive made the same mistake a million times
but if i have a hangover it’ll be all mine
Apr 5, 2021
Apr 5, 2021 at 2:21 AM UTC
cabin fevers gonna put me out my mind
every lines a border wall too ******* high to climb
every day is all the same, the same old ******* walls
“everybody feels the same”, well that’s no help at all
let me out!!! let me out!!
so bored so bored so ******* bored
i’ll never get away
wasting, wasting all my time
i’m wasted every day
runnin round in circles like a rat stuck in a cage
this ******* book is blank i wanna tear out every page
Apr 5, 2021
Apr 5, 2021 at 2:20 AM UTC
i dont understand why i let you confess
all the things i’d inevitably contest
i cannot explain why i can feel so stressed
my emotions are so still, ungrown, repressed
you only let me hurt myself
these wounds secure your place in hell
you can only show the things you loathe, detest
shrink me down to what you understand, success
my explosive temper is a second guess
under my control, suggestion, hate, contest
Sep 12, 2020
Sep 12, 2020 at 4:11 AM UTC
Tired of my mind killin me from the inside
I don't wanna live don't wanna die so I guess I've
Gotta make a compromise to get me through
Lobotomized and sodomized, a cauterized wound
I'm infatuated with the things that ****
I just can't decide upon the red or blue pill
My afflictions give me everything I need
Deny the accusations that I'm driven by my greed
I don't wanna **** but I appreciate homicide as an art
I don't even know what I stand for
I can't even find a place to start
I don't wanna live, but I can't think of any way I'd like to die
So I guess I've gotta compromise
Create another wound to cauterize
Nov 29, 2018
Nov 29, 2018 at 6:33 AM UTC
Understanding I can feel
You made me feel like I was real
That insecure rotation stops
I'm feelin down while I'm on top
Nov 17, 2018
Nov 17, 2018 at 11:15 PM UTC
I've got a rubberface
Rubber arms, rubber taste
The sloshing pit I make
Does more harm than I take
Peel my eyes one layer deep
And fry the slivers up to keep
I weep, a creature feeds the creep
What you perceive is just skin deep
Crusty crisps of cornea
Sell big in California
But I must warn ya,
What you see is more than bargained for ya
Limping gait on limp old limbs
Swollen canister to rim
Go with him, a restless whim
Bare witness to a songless hymn
Jul 12, 2017
Jul 12, 2017 at 2:33 PM UTC
Pen to page, my pointless proverbs
Kettles on, forgot the water
Wasted time is wasted space
Letdown, seems its all it takes
Clean the *** and purify
Only me, myself and lies
Canopy of granule paste
Gagging on the rancid taste
Chorus warbles into gain
Amplified the great white plain
Stale thoughts of how and why
Leave my memories mystified
Boiled river's steaming stew
Bubbles deep inside of you
Cankers soar across my lips
Leading these into abyss
Candy coated carmine stain
Sway the crowd to your disdain
Pen to page, my pointless proverbs
Dont know why I even bother
Jul 12, 2017
Jul 12, 2017 at 7:40 AM UTC
i want to bleed until i'm beautiful
the more my life flows from the rips in my flesh
the closer i'll be to the only way i can be pretty
i want you to love me like a cassette tape
passionately and wholly, burning in your soul
until the tape unwinds
and you have no more use for me
use me up, and spit me out, baby
i want to cry myself to death
i want to scream and bellow and wail until there's no sound left
no more tears to cry
no more whimpers to squeak out
and the anguish is so much i can feel it in my bones
and i lay there dry heaving, my stomach sore and my eyes puffy and red
and i look at myself
you pathetic ******* coward
real men dont ******* cry
cover your arms, boy.
nobody wants to see that ****
i want to die, you ******* idiot. there's nothing beautiful about that.
May 14, 2017
May 14, 2017 at 2:13 PM UTC
Roll over, rub the sleep out
Light comes on and everything is grey
My mind's eye's warning, "Keep Out"
Already, I'm fed up with today
Don't wanna open up to me
Cause I ******* woke up like this!
Can't keep my mind from roaming free
I woke up like this!
Can't say a word to you so I
Can't even ******* look at you cause I
Can't believe I'm back here again, cause
I! Woke! Up! Like! This!
May 14, 2017
May 14, 2017 at 1:30 PM UTC