My great aunt,
Tia Nelly,
Her gentle presence hasn't changed
Her soft hands that reached for mine to hold and kiss.
Her sweet glow she has when she smiles
Comfort.
She took me to her bedroom window,
Her favourite place.
"I can see all." she says
Indeed she could see who comes
and who goes
Her favourite summer flowers were in bloom
They grew just by the front gate
A perfect view
A quiet moment.
"Growing older is a lonely, sad thing."
She still hasn't let go of my hands
She's so small
"I can't do many things anymore."
I had never heard her speak like this.
I squeeze her hands
I look at her not being able to respond.
Comfort.
"You may not see me again."
She had always said this when we parted
We joked about these things
However
It seemed that
It could be true this once
She doesn't stop looking at me
Her eyes are scanning my face
Comfort
"You are so pretty you know."
She let go of my hand
Jan 14, 2019
Jan 14, 2019 at 11:01 PM UTC
Do not tell me what words
should
or should not
hurt me
Sep 1, 2018
Sep 1, 2018 at 3:24 PM UTC
to make art that entertains the people that don't know
to make art that bores the people that do
to create for the ignorant to enjoy
to create for the wise to ignore
to produce something that the shallow lavish
to produce something that the indepth expect
to shape an idea that fools them
to shape an idea that makes you the fool
to be mediocre at my passion
to be mediocre at my life
Apr 1, 2018
Apr 1, 2018 at 6:12 PM UTC
A message to you, the people
Yes, you.
Smile,
You are being watched
You have an audience
Little ears listen carefully
Little eyes notice much
You don't know this yet but one day
Those ears
Those eyes
will grow
as will their minds, hearts and thoughts
Their voices
Their presence
One in which you overlooked, neglected, discredited
will knock you back
because now you can't ignore them
You are not allowed to ignore them
They will be heard
They will be seen
And you will listen
Mar 27, 2018
Mar 27, 2018 at 7:00 PM UTC
Only when you taste it do you realise
What you have been missing
All this time.
I want this taste to last a life time
to stay in this moment
a little longer
Mar 23, 2018
Mar 23, 2018 at 12:58 PM UTC
So much comfort in the sound of a human heartbeat
Mar 23, 2018
Mar 23, 2018 at 12:52 PM UTC
You are there to help me dig but leave when I want to fill it
You are there for the gigglin fits in the dirt but leave when it’s time to clean up
You are there when my blood stream runs of energy but leave when it’s reached it’s trough
You leave me with this emptiness that I didn’t have before which I hope I don’t resent the time we dug
What do you expect me to do in this dirt?
Feb 28, 2018
Feb 28, 2018 at 6:29 PM UTC
You don’t realise how lonely you are until there is no one there to be alone with
Feb 28, 2018
Feb 28, 2018 at 6:19 PM UTC
Do people really hear silence?
Actual silence where there is nothing to be heard?
Not the sky?
Not the cars?
Not an echo?
Not a breath?
Just..space..?
I didn't think that possible.
Wow.
There are people that know true silence.
What I would do to have that for a moment.
Feb 19, 2018
Feb 19, 2018 at 9:21 PM UTC
It's smaller than I remember
Not that I possessed many things,
though,
it always seemed like everything could fit in here
even the things I scarcely use;
The woolen jumper that scratches my neck,
The mittens, now too small to fit,
The bandanna with a stain or two
Its strange how things get put away to not be seen again
That is what I am now
in this moment.
I must remind myself to air out my cupboard once I get out.
I'm breathing in the stale air my possessions do
It smells of worn wood and detergent
The smell of a home I've always known.
There is a faint rattling
I try and hold my legs together to keep them from shaking
I hate that all I can hear is my short breath
I don't want to move to rub my eyes again.
Silence
A thud.
Nothing
More thuds of weighted boots
Silence again
My legs are cramping now
That recent growth spurt didn't do me good.
My **** knees keeping knocking together
Mama always said I couldn't keep still
Why do I get the feeling
that once I leave my small cupboard
That I won't be the same again?
Feb 19, 2018
Feb 19, 2018 at 9:06 PM UTC