today at 10:55 a.m. a man died.
today at 11:00 a.m. I ate lunch
today at 10:10 a man was hungry for air.
today at 11:10 I was hungry for lunch
at 10: 30 a.m. a man was given morphine
at 11:30 a.m. i was given a prayer
at 10:50 a.m. a wife was cursing god
at 11:50 a.m. I was feeding someone who was dying in front of me slowly
at 11:00 am. a wife was dying inside alone
at 11:04 p.m. I was drunk
at 11:05 p.m. I was alone
at 11:05 p.m. I was
Aug 1, 2014
Aug 1, 2014 at 11:08 PM UTC
here in this room with lucid thoughts in this dreaming universe I am exactly where I want to be. I'm in the future. if i want to fly I just have to realize that i already am flying. outside I'm running through fields. with infinite endurance. i come to a man i know is my father. I ask, "father, are you god?" he looks to the sky. a planet is falling from the heavens. it is going to land and send a massive wave of energy towards me. as it does a voice says, "A change in the wind is coming." and im awake here in this room with lucid thoughts in this dreaming universe
Jul 21, 2014
Jul 21, 2014 at 11:21 PM UTC
at 43,000 feet it's easy to see the big picture
Time moves different at 43,000 feet
I feel older than I am
I've left my friends behind I can't even see them up here
At least I'm not alone
it feels like I left nature behind I am so high there is nothing near me
I am on my way to paradise
I have to fight the urge to free fall
plummeting down
going back in time
to where I was before I left
falling is easier than flying
but I've got to keep looking up. I'll never get to paradise if I look down
43,000 feet is a long way to fall. How would I pick myself up from a fall like that anyway?
43,000 feet I will be there soon
Feb 4, 2014
Feb 4, 2014 at 12:15 PM UTC
When I finally get to call you mine
It will be like the first breath after a coma
It will mean life for me
Until that moment
When I get to call you mine
I will be holding my breath in a deep sleep
Where I can only dream of you
That first breath after a coma,
Will give me life
And when I finally call you mine
I will be sorry that I wasted so much time
But forgive me
Because I’m lost
I’m lost in the dark
I’m lost in my mind
I am out of my mind because of you
Now I’m lost
But I’m coming to you
I can feel it. I have too
You will light up the darkness
I will see you with my own eyes
For the first time I will see into you and feel with my own heart
I will move my steady hand towards you
And I will touch you and hold you
And I will say I love you
With my first breath
Nov 9, 2011
Nov 9, 2011 at 8:21 PM UTC
Within the hour I’m twisted.
A different person.
New insights, new light,
A new world.
Wandering around familiar places
With a new sense of feeling.
The weeds that have taken over my yard
Are now connected to me.
My yard is the outcast in neighborhood.
Unclean, unkempt, unwanted.
But now I can see,
That my yard is me, personified.
These weeds are mine.
They sprouted and spread because of me.
As I walk through them
They no longer disgust,
But cling to me.
I take root near them.
I feel I have always been here.
The willow tree gives me shade from the stars and the moon.
Its hanging branches cover me with open arms.
Its leaves, just upside down weeds;
Reaching out to me,
Melting me in…
The air is humid.
The wind blows heat.
And now the ground turns soft.
My yard has become a marsh.
My own swamp.
I am unafraid,
But left wanting.
What have I turned into?
A new being
In a different world,
But all alone.
Has it always been this way?
Will it ever change?
This scene is forever marked on me.
A memory that can never be left
Or forgotten.
A portal on my skin.
Now I can always return to my marsh,
My swamp,
My kingdom.
Maybe I can take you there and never be alone?
Jun 19, 2011
Jun 19, 2011 at 7:08 PM UTC
We share this theater together
And watch the act patiently.
We applaud those who perform well,
And even louder and harder for those who only had the courage to try.
We watch the dancers on the stage,
Our youth on stage,
Ourselves on stage.
It is beautiful.
It is raw.
It is real.
It is not perfect and some will fall,
But we all feel together.
We lift each other up.
It is love.
We are all together
On the stage as actors,
As graceful dancers,
And brilliant musicians
Performing as one.
We are all connected
In the audience as proud parents,
As loving relatives,
And respectful friends,
Cheering as one.
It is not perfect.
It is life,
Raw and real.
Some will fall,
But we all feel together
And we’ll lift each other up
As one.
For ourselves,
And for each other.
Jun 19, 2011
Jun 19, 2011 at 12:08 PM UTC
Where did my love go?
Where is the friend that I always knew?
This dream is void of meaning.
This song is without lyrics.
This heaven is lonely.
I wish you were here
I’ve already forgotten the way your skin felt.
The curves your body made…
The slight raise of your smile…
I’ve forgotten the way your hair smelled.
The way your eyes locked onto mine.
The softness of your lips…
I’ve already forgotten those sweet words you said.
How they made me feel.
Such a beautiful image of us framed for one night
Only to be forgotten the next day.
I wish you were here,
Here where I am…
Trying desperately to remember the night
When we were together.
My friend who is always away;
My brother, tell me who is my mother?
Where was father when I was born?
Do we really have sisters?
Or are we all just alone together?
Absence has played a large presence in my life…
Where did everyone go?
Our youth was torn from us,
But at least we kept our lives...
Some of us weren’t so lucky.
I wish you were here,
Here where I am…
Trying desperately to remember the past
When we were all together.
Where did my love go?
Where is the friend that I always knew?
This world is void of meaning.
This symphony is without lyrics.
This paradise is lonely.
I wish you were here
Jun 9, 2011
Jun 9, 2011 at 8:54 PM UTC
Come back to me.
Tell me your life is hard.
Lie with me,
But tell me no.
Ask me to love you,
And see my quiet indecision.
You’re torn,
Your body from your mind.
Tell me yes,
Then tell me no.
Tell me to go,
And see my quiet indecision.
This has gone too far,
But yet you still lie.
You need to leave,
But yet you still lie.
Lie with me; lie to me,
And see my quiet indecision.
Mar 7, 2011
Mar 7, 2011 at 8:52 PM UTC
Don’t you know you’re falling?
Can’t you see it gets worse?
This grave I’ve dug
will be the end of us.
Don’t you know you’re falling down?
You signed your death
sending me away.
You’re falling,
there’s nothing left for you to hold on to.
I don’t understand
why my heart falls with you.
There’s nothing left for me to hold on to,
except for the past.
Don’t you know you’re falling down?
Before I bury you
with new souls,
I want you to know
That it’s me, not you, who will be missed.
You’re dead to me.
Jan 20, 2011
Jan 20, 2011 at 11:52 PM UTC
Give
Come back…
It’s not fair to them.
They need what I can’t give.
Why’d you have to leave?
Gone
Life is empty.
We are lost now.
The children…
And you are gone.
Ghost
Are you here now?
Can you see?
See what you’ve left behind.
It’s hard to imagine
You’re gone.
Nov 4, 2010
Nov 4, 2010 at 8:58 PM UTC