dakota-schmidt
German
I am just a simple teenage girl with a passion for writing. Sure, some of my poems might be sloppy or not good, but its the meaning behind them and the pure heart that wrote them that counts. I love to write about my past and my emotions. I write about my memories and the people around me. My entire life history is pretty much what gives me my inspration. "Poetry is just the evidence of life. If your life is burning, well, poetry is the ash."-Leonard Cohen
It will seem as though life
Is not liveable without me
As the years pass,
But remember I am there with you.
I am the wind grazing
Every blade of grass.
I will take your hand
And guide you through
The moments of doubt and pain.
I will be the warm breeze
Caressing your cheek,
Encouraging you to smile through the rain.
When you miss me most,
And I will not be there to
Watch the changing seasons,
Bring back all of
The treasured memories,
For your tears are falling
For all the wring reasons.
God took my hand
And set me free,
Do not shed one more tear,
The angels have wrapped
Their wings around me.
When you feel as though
Your laughs have formed
Into teardrops,
And your smiles have
Faded away,
I am always with you.
In your heart I will forever stay.
Feb 21, 2011
Feb 21, 2011 at 8:56 AM UTC
There is so much to see
Beyond these walls you've built.
There is so much you do not know.
While you sit behind closed doors,
There is innocent blood being spilt.
Yet here you sit,
At your window sill
Watching the changing seasons.
Your heart aches to see
The outside world.
Your tears fall for all
The wrong reasons.
The world you seal yourself
From is filled with
Nothing but war.
All our hope seizes to exist.
All our will drops to the floor.
That one second of peace,
Where it feels like the
Whole world is standing still.
The silence of the crime
And the corruption. Peace.
It is in that spilt second,
The earth is bowing to
God's every will.
No matter how many
Times you long to escape
Your hidden containment,
Don't.
For all of your hopes
And dreams will fade
Away with time.
And the happiness
Only lasts for the moment.
Jan 30, 2011
Jan 30, 2011 at 8:28 PM UTC
Tell me one thing; why?
Why did you take him from me?
Why didn't you let
Me say goodbye?
I've sat up crying all day,
Trying to put the pieces
Back together.
I still can't think straight,
I still can't remember
My purpose.
Why did you take him
From me forever?
I know he's not
Suffering anymore,
And he has no more pain,
But I wasn't ready to let him go.
I wasn't ready to drown
In my own tears.
I just want one last hello.
I want to see his smile
One last time,
Before I get carried away.
I want to hear his laugh,
Feel his hugs,
Tell him everything I
Have to say.
I want my Grandpa back.
Why did you take him from me?
My mind is only slowly
Working on half track.
I am at a loss for words,
And it feels like he's
Still here with me.
I can't believe he's gone.
I love you Grandpa,
You will be missed.
Your suffering soul is free.
Robert Leonard Smith
December 29, 1934-January 21, 2011
Gone, but never forgotten.
I love and miss you Grandpa.<33
Jan 22, 2011
Jan 22, 2011 at 6:22 AM UTC
Countless lies fill my manipulated mind.
It keeps spinning, and spinning, and spinning.
Like a carosel never wanting to stop.
So many of your lies are left undefined.
Your eyes pierce my heart with every glance I get.
Nothing but regret shines in those eyes as I gaze at my reflection.
I can see the remorse you pray for.
I can see your ignorance you are aware of, but refuse to admit.
I can see that you miss what we had.
I can see that you wish I was yours.
I can see that you want me back.
I can see that my being happy with someone else drives you mad.
Oh charming dreamtaker, don't avert your eyes.
I'm so in love with someone that is not you.
Look at me now heartbreaker.
I can live without your lies.
Dec 20, 2010
Dec 20, 2010 at 3:10 PM UTC
As the disease spreads through him, slowly,
He knows he won't go down without a fight.
He looks forward to the future,
Dreaming of seeing things he's never had the chance to see.
Hoping, waiting, wondering if he will be alright.
He is left wondering if this christmas will be his last.
He is left wondering if he will live to be one year older.
He is left to get lost in his memories of the past.
He fights the disease spreading
Through him with everything he has to give.
He makes the best of what he has.
He thinks of all the events he wishes to relive.
He knows this is going to **** him,
He just prays he lives long enough
To watch his granddaughter grow.
He wishes to see her persue her wildest dreams.
God knows, that until that happens,
He's not letting go.
It's been six months and
He still fights through the only thing
Strong enough to take him away.
He holds his head high, and keeps holding on.
He knows who will be waiting for
Him on Judgement Day.
I wish he wasn't going through so much pain.
I wish God would give him the strength to push through and heal.
I wish he didn't have this disease.
I wish his pain and suffering wasn't real.
Dec 19, 2010
Dec 19, 2010 at 1:23 PM UTC
As I sit here
With these tears
Of regret pouring
Down my hot cheeks,
You tell me everything
Will be okay,
Because you still love me.
But you don't
Understand that
Nothing is okay with me now,
Nothing.
I can't eat, I can't sleep,
I can't think.
My life is completely
Torn to shreds without you.
I have nothing left to live for,
I have nothing left to lose.
I just lost my everything,
So what's the point in trying?
There will already
Be a bullet through
My head when you answer
That question.
Nov 13, 2010
Nov 13, 2010 at 4:34 PM UTC
No one took the
Time to listen
No one took the
Time to care
No one tried to help
Me through my dark
Time of despair.
All those lies that
Made up my million
Tortured screams,
All those nights
I sat and prayed, to be saved,
That those words
You said were
Just bad dreams.
The tears and the
Blood began to mix and blend.
I was so convinced that
This agony would never end.
Nov 7, 2010
Nov 7, 2010 at 1:50 PM UTC
Loving You
I want to spend forever
Looking into your
Beautiful blue eyes.
Baby I want to spend
Forever wrapped in
Your lovely disguise.
Without a care in the
World I will sit here
And call you mine.
I will get those shivers
You send running up
And down my spine.
I want to keep you and
Only you for as
Long as I possibly can.
It's been you and
Only you since this
Love song began.
Without you,
I don't think my life
Would be quite so complete.
Without you, I don't
Know where I would be,
You are my heartbeat.
I hope you believe
Me when I tell you I love you,
Because this madness is
Hard to fight through.
When I'm by your side
All of my worries no longer exist,
When you pull me close for
One more passionate kiss.
Nov 1, 2010
Nov 1, 2010 at 2:25 PM UTC
Trying to push away
This feeling crawling beneath my skin,
Putting my head in my hands,
Always giving up, always giving in.
I guess this is what
It feels like to be hurt so badly
You just want to disappear.
I guess this is what
It feels like to be
Stabbed in the chest.
I guess this is what
It feels like to always have you near.
Everywhere I turn I see
Something that reminds me if you.
Everytime I round a corner
I see your face.
Everyday I suffer from wounds
That barely explain
What I'm going through.
You don't know what it's like
To suffer like me.
You don't know how much
Pain passes through my heart
In every degree.
We pass each other everyday
With my face cold as stone.
You grin like there was nothing
Between us.
I guess this is what it feels like to be alone.
Sep 28, 2010
Sep 28, 2010 at 3:39 PM UTC
I never listen to what
Other people say,
I dont have the
Patience to wait.
I just drag myself through
Every passing minute,
Every passing day.
My mind won't stop
Spinning and I'm full
Of repressed doubt.
How can someone do
Something so heart shattering?
I'm breaking apart
From the inside out.
Broken glass lies beneath
Me as I fall to my knees.
A shard in my ****** hand,
Tears blurring my vision,
Thinking of what he
Wanted me to be.
Screaming my pain to everyone,
Squeezing the glass in my palm,
Waiting for my sanity to come.
Thrusting the broken
Glass to my chest,
Puncturing my heart,
Saving myself
From all the rest.
Spilling blood surrounding me,
A slowing heartbeat,
This is the end of my bottomless agony.
Sep 21, 2010
Sep 21, 2010 at 1:15 PM UTC