you mesmerized me
you and your empty smile
that greets me before the clock ticks at 9
since then i wanted to be
the reason when they start to shine
Sep 27, 2025
Sep 27, 2025 at 8:34 PM UTC
i’m afraid
that at the end of the day
i would still wait for your silhouette
as i eat my comfort food more and more
until they no longer taste sweet
and maybe you’re right,
that’s why you called me crazy
because you knew
i can do things nobody could have ever guessed
that i could come to you as much as how many times you would push me away;
that i’m willing to dry my eyes out hundred more times than the times you made me smile;
that i can run after you until my legs stop working;
and you could pierce my heart
even when there’s nothing to bleed with
—yes, that’s how twisted
and crazy i could be for you
Sep 22, 2025
Sep 22, 2025 at 10:28 PM UTC
i haven’t even started writing
but i couldn’t think of anything i did wrong
was it when i liked you first?
or was it because you’re a great pretender?
but now that i’m thinking back again,
maybe it’s me and my low standards to blame
Sep 22, 2025
Sep 22, 2025 at 9:57 PM UTC
you shouldn’t have told me
that i’m important to you in the first place
maybe those words were nothing to you
but you had me hoping for the best,
worst is how you knew it very well
how fragile and soft-hearted i am
that you could break me anytime
and fix me when you decided to
Sep 22, 2025
Sep 22, 2025 at 9:39 PM UTC
it’s happening again,
sick and crying
is it too much
to always want to be wanted?
it has always been like this
i wish i could like someone
who liked me first
then i don’t have to force myself
into their lives.
Sep 22, 2025
Sep 22, 2025 at 9:20 PM UTC
i was never fond of hugs
even when i was crying my heart out,
even when i needed comfort,
i never asked for one,
for i never wanted somebody’s warmth
but i keep reminiscing that night
when you hugged me so tight
—it was my first time
feeling someone else’s heart
and everything felt so right
that now, i keep wanting to do that
again and again, and again,
i loved being held in your arms
for it was so gentle and warm
and if it’s you, i won’t mind
doing it millions of times
Sep 7, 2025
Sep 7, 2025 at 3:53 AM UTC
today, i wore my perfume
in case you’d come,
in case you’d hug me
and tuck your head on my neck,
kiss me on my forehead
so i won’t have regrets
—but you never came
i hoped, what a shame.
Aug 17, 2025
Aug 17, 2025 at 3:22 AM UTC
it was our very first meeting
but i already imagined,
how we’ll be cuddling
in years we won’t be counting
Jul 14, 2025
Jul 14, 2025 at 12:31 AM UTC
does he like me too?
or was it all courtesy?
for the sake of not hurting me
and not showing me harsh reality
Jul 1, 2025
Jul 1, 2025 at 1:29 AM UTC
i love that he is too kind,
and like a double-edged sword,
it kills me in any other way
when he shows it to everyone,
i suffer from jealousy
and when it’s me,
it feels like i’ve won a lottery
now that i think about it,
i’m falling deeper for his kindness,
i’m just afraid everyone would do too
Jun 27, 2025
Jun 27, 2025 at 1:19 AM UTC