i’m starting to see what they’ve been meaning
when they say
life is fleeting
i’ve been watching it pass by
yes
i’ve been watching it pass by as if my own heart is not beating
i’ve been so demeaning
keeping myself from dreaming
but lately i’ve been thinking
dreaming in this fleeting life
dreaming is nothing if not freeing
Jul 12, 2023
Jul 12, 2023 at 12:16 AM UTC
Our so called love was rushed
It was throw together so quickly neither of us had time to adjust
We became so close and quite dependent
But of course reality came faster to taint it
I will always remember the sweet caress of your kiss on my lips
Though as I look back with a clear head the facade slips
You needed someone to be strong for you while I needed someone to be strong with
You benefitted from my strength and support while “us” withered to ****
You took what you needed then promptly left
So while you slip back into your bad habits and commit your love theft
I’ll still be here growing and thriving off the support we gave each other
And if you try to reach out to me again, well...don’t even bother
Nov 14, 2020
Nov 14, 2020 at 11:16 PM UTC
I’m a burden
I’ve been told time and time again
I’m too much
I have too many problems
I need to keep my emotions to myself
No one will ever love you
I need to chill out
If I can’t stop I should just leave
My own mother once told me to go
No one lets me stay because as I said
I’ve been told time and time again
I’m a burden
Apr 12, 2019
Apr 12, 2019 at 10:07 AM UTC
I will survive
Not for you, not my family, not for anyone but myself
I will survive
Because I am worth living for
I will survive
Even though the going is rough with no sign of stopping
I will survive
For those moments of pure bliss and happiness
I will survive
I will prove myself wrong and show my self that I’m worth it and so
I will survive
Apr 12, 2019
Apr 12, 2019 at 10:02 AM UTC
Since you left all I’ve felt is an emptiness
An emptiness in my hand,
where yours used to reside
An emptiness on my lips,
where you placed yours so tenderly
An emptiness in my bed,
where you laid by my side
An emptiness on my phone,
where you used to send sweet word to me
An emptiness in my ears,
where your voice clearly lied
And an emptiness on my chest,
where you ripped out my heart so savagely
Since you left all I’ve felt is an emptiness
Aug 2, 2018
Aug 2, 2018 at 6:12 AM UTC
They say there’s always a light at the end of the tunnel
But what happens when the tunnel collapses on you
You can run as fast as you can towards the so called light
You can stumble along in the darkness with blind faith
Hoping that one day you’ll see the comforting light in the distance
And all of that is for nothing when it all comes tumbling down on you
Taking your freedom away for the houndreth time
Aug 2, 2018
Aug 2, 2018 at 5:57 AM UTC
You seem so distant
Much different than you were when we first met
You stopped telling me to text when I got home safe
You stopped holding my hand infront of your friends
You stopping texting me and seeing how my day was
You stopped hugging me
You always seemed to be busy when I wanted to see you
You didn’t smile when I told you you were cute
You just stopped caring about me
My friend told me they heard you talking about another girl
So I asked you if you were seeing someone else
You changed the subject every time
Then I finally got you to say it
You had another girl on your mind
You weren’t cheating on me
You weren’t With another girl
You just thought about her all the time
I don’t know which of them is worse
Being cheated on or being a second thought
Feb 20, 2018
Feb 20, 2018 at 3:36 PM UTC
She said she'd always be there
She said she'd always be there for me
As I weep on the floor of the bathroom after I had just emptied the contents of my stomach
She said said she'd always be there for me
As I scream and hit my head against the cabinet because the pain in my chest is excruciating
She'd said she'd always be there for me
But where was she when her and my dad yell at each other and I'm in my room silently crying as to not become the target of their wrath
Where was she when she yells at me telling me she doesnt want to see my face anymore
Where was she when I had nightmares and went to her for help and she just brushed me aside angrily and went back to bed
Where was she when I had my first major mental break down at six years old and my dad threw me into a cold shower telling me to calm down, making me cry more and the wrath become more severe
Where was she when I was nine and she yells at me because I dropped her Pyrex dish, calling me useless and then disappears into her bathroom to go smoke a joint
Where was she when I was ten years old crying and holding my knees because anywhere was better than there
Where is she where I sit in my bathroom with a blade and bad intentions
She'd said she'd always be there for me, but she's the reason I need someone in the first place
Feb 18, 2018
Feb 18, 2018 at 1:25 AM UTC
The way you smile when I kiss your cheek
The way you laugh when I make a bad joke
The way you sing off key to your favorite songs
The way you snuggle up next to me when we sleep
The way you hold my hand and squeeze it to let me know you’re there
The way you take a lifetime to eat a meal
The way you make me feel
Feb 17, 2018
Feb 17, 2018 at 3:03 AM UTC
Bipolar is a tricky thing
One second is the time of you life
The next your wishing for death
You confuse people with your emotions
Little do they know
They confuse you too
You wish you were normal
You wish you could change
But this is your life
Forever confused
Feb 17, 2018
Feb 17, 2018 at 2:54 AM UTC