da-soul - Hello Poetry

My fear is the silent trigger Makes me physically stiff And emotionally aware Heightened senses, more like heightened paranoia! Heightened insecurities ! Heightened negative thoughts, continuously saying I’m not good enough I’m never enough So I build walls I place fences Cuz **** hurts when your damaged White picket fences is the role to portray because everyone always run from the haunted houses on display

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Feb 21, 2019

Feb 21, 2019 at 1:18 AM UTC

Unrepair

My fear is the silent trigger Makes me physically stiff And emotionally aware Heightened senses, more like heightened paranoia! Heightened insecurities ! Heightened negative thoughts, continuously saying I’m not good enough I’m never enough So I build walls I place fences Cuz **** hurts when your damaged White picket fences is the role to portray because everyone always run from the haunted houses on display

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Looking at the girl in the mirror I wonder who she see, Cuz when I look in the mirror i don’t even see a reflection of me. Personally, Just a vessel. Soul detached. Mind gone. (Pause) where’d my spirit go ? Can I smile? Can I laugh? Filled with emotions but looking emotionless, Walking stick. I wonder where phianie went, What a blimp! Time waits for no one But here it is. Chasing me. Telling me it’s time to chase my destiny Relentlessly The timer ticking down I feel like it’s rushing me No time to breathe (Deep breath) What’s happening to me? I can feel the heat I can really see Feel the joy overwhelming me But the evil speaks It’s calling me back to sleep Now I’m shivering Can’t really see Feeling like the war within is wearing down on me So it’s time I sleep I surrender please Looked in the mirror and there is no me.

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Feb 21, 2019

Feb 21, 2019 at 1:16 AM UTC

No Reflection

Looking at the girl in the mirror I wonder who she see, Cuz when I look in the mirror i don’t even see a reflection of me. Personally, Just a vessel. Soul detached. Mind gone. (Pause) where’d my spirit go ? Can I smile? Can I laugh? Filled with emotions but looking emotionless, Walking stick. I wonder where phianie went, What a blimp! Time waits for no one But here it is. Chasing me. Telling me it’s time to chase my destiny Relentlessly The timer ticking down I feel like it’s rushing me No time to breathe (Deep breath) What’s happening to me? I can feel the heat I can really see Feel the joy overwhelming me But the evil speaks It’s calling me back to sleep Now I’m shivering Can’t really see Feeling like the war within is wearing down on me So it’s time I sleep I surrender please Looked in the mirror and there is no me.

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Breathe I’ve been living in darkness so long I forgot about the light The light of truth The light of purity I’ve been living in a wasteland I feel out of the ordinary Extraordinary indifferent to the clouds that Hoover me I tried to find the light but all I got was my reflection It felt like a Spotlight Now I’m Feeling like a deer in headlights My eyes on me A constant freeze start to feel like I can’t breathe Breathe I finally speak only to be made a mockery Not taken seriously but who to blame only me Lies I told My damages unfold ***** laundery Skeletons now running after me They grabbing hold of me It feel like the devils tormenting me All the voices in my head just attacking me Crowding me No air to breathe Panic attack slowly rising inside me I I I can’t breathe Breathe I turn away cast away There’s no time to play There goes the clouds again My darkest friend This is the reality that I am in The dark within Maybe next time I’ll try again.

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Feb 21, 2019

Feb 21, 2019 at 1:14 AM UTC

Breathe

Breathe I’ve been living in darkness so long I forgot about the light The light of truth The light of purity I’ve been living in a wasteland I feel out of the ordinary Extraordinary indifferent to the clouds that Hoover me I tried to find the light but all I got was my reflection It felt like a Spotlight Now I’m Feeling like a deer in headlights My eyes on me A constant freeze start to feel like I can’t breathe Breathe I finally speak only to be made a mockery Not taken seriously but who to blame only me Lies I told My damages unfold ***** laundery Skeletons now running after me They grabbing hold of me It feel like the devils tormenting me All the voices in my head just attacking me Crowding me No air to breathe Panic attack slowly rising inside me I I I can’t breathe Breathe I turn away cast away There’s no time to play There goes the clouds again My darkest friend This is the reality that I am in The dark within Maybe next time I’ll try again.

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