I danced with a man today.
He had your eyes.
Oh, how those eyes made me weep.
Pure sorrow.
What a strange day it was.
To see your eyes.
Looking into mine.
Again.
Feb 22, 2012
Feb 22, 2012 at 9:57 PM UTC
My mind burns
With thoughts of you
You are etched into my brain
And I cannot shake you from my heart
My heart yearns
For you to be near me
Your touch still lingers on my skin
Even after all the days I have been away from you
You are so dangerous
Still, I cannot escape my desire
I have lost myself in others before
And I fear I will do the same with you, my love
I am afraid of being consumed
By such a powerful force
I fear becoming lost
Within your pain
I've been down those dark roads
Many times before, my love
The mystery of the path
Ensures my return
Misery is our only company it seems
As we trod the lonely road
Pain is not far behind us
The future is unknown
Feb 15, 2012
Feb 15, 2012 at 9:18 PM UTC
Weighed down
By dark desires
Burdened
By the love I have
Unable to keep you
Yet unable to let you leave
I've been here before
My heart is breaking
As I sit here staring at the floor
The tears are back
Burning as they always have
Bitter tears
For wants and wishes and dreams
That can never be
I've been here before
Crushed by promises that were broken
Before they were ever made
Torn apart
By the pain I feel inside
You are my darkest dream
You are my midnight fantasy
I want to go down with you
Into that world beneath the light
I want to slip away into oblivion
To be consumed
By the darkness that follows you
Wherever you go
There is romance
In your tragedy
There is a brilliance
In your despair
I love you and I hate you
I want you and I need you
You are everything
And I am nothing
I have been here before
Lost and confused
Unsure of what to do
Asking a God I don't believe in
For guidance
Screaming in my mind
Grasping for meaning
In something I cannot possibly understand
I have been here before
And it broke my heart
I have been here before
And I lost my mind
I have been here before
And it took the very breathe from me
I cannot go there again
I cannot.
Feb 15, 2012
Feb 15, 2012 at 9:18 PM UTC
I can't get you out of my head.
I can't get you out of my heart.
I lie and cry in bed,
As your problems tear me apart.
You're everything I ever wanted
And more than I could possibly need.
Your presence leaves me haunted
And fills me with a hunger I must heed.
You're killing me inside
Yet, I can't leave.
You're the place I go to hide;
And you're what I believe.
You are mine and I am yours;
No matter how this ends.
Even when you leave me behind,
My love will never bend.
Feb 12, 2012
Feb 12, 2012 at 7:27 PM UTC
The darkness draws you in
A hidden soul, so pained
A secret sin
The rush of anger leaves you feeling drained
Thoughts swirl around you
Broken dreams and wishes emerge
There's nothing you can do
You can't resist the urge
The need for relief is suddenly so real
Searching for your safety
Fingers brush against cold hard steel
You take a deep breath and hold your arm steady
A gleam of metal
Reflected in your crying eyes
Cutting as deep as you can go
Biting back your anguished cries
Blood drips down your arm
And you receive a sick thrill in your demented soul
From such twisted harm
Tearing yourself apart really does make you whole
Sep 26, 2011
Sep 26, 2011 at 1:04 AM UTC
I've never tasted such sweet tragedy
In a kiss.
How long can I keep running back to you
Like this?
Your the one I wanted
For all time.
But you're losing the rhythm
I'm losing the rhyme.
We keep running
But we're losing the race.
I know you can't deal
With coming in second place.
The bad times
They're coming.
They're gaining up on us
We're losing the race, my darling.
Sep 10, 2011
Sep 10, 2011 at 4:18 PM UTC
Blessings come and go,
Like the waves upon the sea;
And as my heart swells up with love,
I know it's going to leave.
I've seen this all before;
I've seen the seasons change.
It is the winter of our love;
Oh, how we long for sweet spring.
You are the one that I adore,
And I know you feel the same.
The world will dance around the sun,
Perhaps, we'll meet again.
Sep 10, 2011
Sep 10, 2011 at 4:12 PM UTC
I feel your breath
Rolling down my skin,
Like ripples in the pond.
I feel as if I'm floating
And the entire world is gone.
I feel the shivers
Racing up my spine.
Your touch is electric;
I feel divine.
Sep 6, 2011
Sep 6, 2011 at 4:10 AM UTC
Ah, sweet misery.
My true friend,
My one companion.
Always alone
Yet, never without
You.
When happiness falls away
I have you to turn to.
When loneliness is all that's left
I can feel you
Crawling under my skin.
Burning.
I have to let you out;
You cannot be contained.
Silver blades break the surface,
And I watch as you snake your way
Across my skin . . .
Staining it so red.
Oh, sweet misery
Don't leave me now;
You're all I have left.
I can feel your warmth
As you pool beneath me
On the ground.
Sep 2, 2011
Sep 2, 2011 at 2:58 AM UTC
Sitting alone in this empty room,
Wondering what's to come.
I don't have much to offer;
Yet, what I have is up for grabs
If they think they want it.
A desolate soul,
Consumed with grief
Over what I had in you.
An empty void,
Looking to be whole again,
Just like I was with you.
And as I watched you walk away
That day --
Broken, on the ground.
I couldn't help but feel this way . . .
I knew the end was coming;
I saw it in your eyes,
Long before that day
When you said goodbye.
Sep 1, 2011
Sep 1, 2011 at 2:35 AM UTC