Hi alex, it’s me. I’m writing to you on a plane back to toronto. So much has changed since that day it almost feels like a lifetime ago. There’s some things to update you but i’ll have to do it one by one. First of all I graduated! I’m currently in the midst of a job search right now but it feels insane that I’m done with school for now. I’m a bit unclear on my future right now but i’m giving myself the grace to figure it out. Something else that might shock you is that I’m dating someone. He’s younger than me and studying math and physics. His name is tichard
Oct 16, 2025
Oct 16, 2025 at 9:16 AM UTC
The way you called my name so lightly
With that smile in your eyes
My thoughts polluted by your touches
And not of our goodbyes
As we hide our feelings behind glass
And let our gazes intertwine
We know it’s not the wrong person
But it is simply the wrong time
So a e can hold on to our friendship
As you hold on to my hands
And play our thinly veiled confessions
Off as jokes between friends
For this fleeting love, could not last
As long as our friendship would be
So I’ll be wishing you love and joy;
Even if it’s not with me
Aug 16, 2021
Aug 16, 2021 at 7:25 AM UTC
red was the blood, like blossoms in July
orange tinted lips, the ones that told me good bye
yellow was the stairwell, the last place you went
green was your text, the last text you sent
blue were your tears, shimmering like gold
purple was your face as your body lay cold
white were the lilies, for which you were named
white were the lilies, the ones I lay on your grave.
Apr 8, 2021
Apr 8, 2021 at 1:26 AM UTC
with blood racing to my head
my heart pounding through my chest
galvanized by the elusive feeling of first love
lingering with the shadows
of impending doom
I mumbled the words
that resonates with every ounce of my being
so deeply that all the other words
I've ever said
seemed like a lie
as though these words were my salvation
and all I wish to be
"I love you"
Dec 30, 2020
Dec 30, 2020 at 11:40 AM UTC
i knew i was in the wrong
to love a man who has eyes
for someone else
but i lied to myself
when he whispered
sweet nothings in my ear
and made myself believe
that i wasn't
the other girl
i told myself
he loved me more
that she probably didn't
love him anyways,
not as much as i did
but i knew i was the reason
for her tears
when she loved him
too much to leave
even though
there was another girl
i only wanted him to be happy
and i thought
i could love him enough for the
both of us
but i knew that
his happiness was not with me
because i was only
the other girl
Dec 30, 2020
Dec 30, 2020 at 11:38 AM UTC
dying for someone
cannot be a testament of love
if leaving someone
can be called love
then we are but sadists suffering
from delusions of grandeur
if you loved me enough to leave me
then perhaps you never loved at all
Dec 2, 2020
Dec 2, 2020 at 4:12 PM UTC
I woke up this morning,
and found tears rolling down my cheek.
Like the rain on a sunny day
I wondered why they fell.
Were they of joy at seeing you once more
or sorrow that you will be gone again tomorrow.
Is it your absence or your presence
that causes me such heartache
Dec 1, 2020
Dec 1, 2020 at 7:39 AM UTC
you called me selfish
for leaving the one who had
already abandoned me
but I will not apologize
for leaving someone who was never there
you just hate me for hurting you
the same way you hurt me
Nov 3, 2020
Nov 3, 2020 at 6:09 PM UTC
you say it was never love
now that it is gone
must you call it something else
simply because it is no longer there?
Oct 13, 2020
Oct 13, 2020 at 12:03 AM UTC
in the pinnacle of my dreams
it seemed I could love you enough
for the both of us
Oct 1, 2020
Oct 1, 2020 at 11:41 PM UTC