I don’t want
To sit here
Waiting for your
Words as if I
Need them to
Carry on my day
Or sleep through the night
But yet here I go
Waiting with my last breath
To tell you
“I love you”
When it feels like
You could care less
Jul 19, 2020
Jul 19, 2020 at 6:07 PM UTC
every time i put my pencil
to this paper i am reminded
that talking about the monsters
under my bed only elicits a quick light switch flip, a quick glance under the now dimly lit bed frame only to hear,
“there’s surely nothing there”
don’t they realize these creatures do their ***** work with the lights off?
how am i to scream for help if they keep turning the lights on
Oct 8, 2019
Oct 8, 2019 at 5:58 PM UTC
two times you were told if you did not pass a drug test you could not see your daughter
and two times you failed to comply so you asked someone else to do it for you
and two times is too many but how many times will you get high with your daughter in the backseat of your truck knowing this could be the last memory for both of you?
three times they found you lying cold on the bathroom floor
and three times they pumped whatever you pumped in right back out
and three times is too many but how many more times will your grandparents need to administer naloxone to your half lifeless body before you realize the damage you are doing?
ten times you were caught stealing from work
and ten times we carried you to rehab after you finally gave in and told the truth
and ten times is too many but how many more times will you steal from family members just to get for for “one last time, just one last high?”
and one time is too many but how many times will you say to yourself “ive overdosed plenty!” for you to realize you aren’t as invincible as you seem
one time is all it takes
to be the last time
Oct 8, 2019
Oct 8, 2019 at 5:57 PM UTC
I’m tired of sleeping
with the light on so the dark
stops haunting my dreams
If only the daylight
kept it out just the same
Aug 11, 2019
Aug 11, 2019 at 7:25 PM UTC
tired of running in circles
around you to hide my
tears when in reality
i wish you’d just stop to look
behind the smile i constantly
borrow from my neighbor
because im not too sure
where i last put my own
but instead you constantly
make excuses as to why
you think i could possibly be sad
while you look at a smile that
is not yet mine to wear
why must you choose
to believe your lies over my
desperate calls for help?
im too tired to continue
calling out for you
so instead i dance around you
in hopes that you will not see
the ever growing sadness that lives
inside of me
Aug 11, 2019
Aug 11, 2019 at 6:33 PM UTC
Mirror addiction?
Strange but maybe
it explains all the nights
I spend in front of one
******* it in in hopes
it’ll stay that way until
the morning
Jul 24, 2019
Jul 24, 2019 at 5:21 PM UTC
You are the flowers planted outside my childhood home
You are the stars I sought comfort in
You are the green that grows so magnificently in the forests
You are so many things inside and out but first and foremost you are my other half
So perfect, loving and gentle
Jul 24, 2019
Jul 24, 2019 at 5:20 PM UTC
I do not feel like myself lately
and maybe it’s because I spend most
of the day wondering what life could be like if I was not living tied to the phrase “what if”
However, I’m stuck inside a shell of who I once knew and I just do not feel like myself lately
Jul 24, 2019
Jul 24, 2019 at 5:13 PM UTC
When the sun shines
why do I not align perfectly
with the other rosebuds?
Why do I not bend and twist
at the Earths every last resort to try
and keep me warm?
When the rain pours down
onto the soil why do I not soak up
the nourishment I need to keep myself fed?
When all the other rosebuds bloom into
flowers I could only dream of being
why am I stuck looking up at them?
When will I prosper?
Jul 24, 2019
Jul 24, 2019 at 5:06 PM UTC
lately
all i can feel is the cold wrapping itself
around my body like a snake begging for my warmth even though
i have nothing left to give but my lukewarm tears so instead of pulling myself out of this trance i lie silently waiting for every last drop to be wrung out of my lifeless soul
Jul 23, 2019
Jul 23, 2019 at 8:49 PM UTC