Stringing along a line of pretty souls
Trying to keep me company throughout the days & nights
Going nowhere, but towards destined dead ends
Enjoying the short-lived rides while they last
You can either blame, tame, or betray me
I deserve all you think I should receive
For I'm in shackles already with nowhere to go
Heading south faster & faster without resistance
Maybe I enjoy being lost
Without swimming too deep
Staying afloat, yet still drowning
Maybe I prefer keeping myself in the dark
For I have found home amongst the shadows
My darkly sweetened safe haven
Cody Shull, 2019
Sep 20, 2019
Sep 20, 2019 at 10:02 AM UTC
Sometimes I think you're there
However, you're anywhere but here
I hope you're somewhere
Hoping you're existing in one way or another
For it is all ultimately unknown
Lacking answers to impossible questions
Searching for the hidden truth
Left to wonder why
Dealt a treacherous hand
Endless grief and sorrow reigns
A pain that I haven't gotten used to
Nor will I until I reach my final day
Homesick for a home that includes you
Stricken to the heart with sadness
I have shed many a tear over you
Wishing I could turn my head to see you there
As you were before you faded away
Such a shame the way it had to go
I would've cured you to stay, if I had that chance
But, it went downhill fast
You weren't able to last
Since after you had passed...
All I wonder if it's an ending
Or just a continuation
Cody Shull, 2019
Jul 18, 2019
Jul 18, 2019 at 12:48 AM UTC
Finally ignored after all this time
Loved the attention
But not just from me, in the end
Guess I'm out of her league
She's twice my age
But, it doesn't stop me
Deep infatuation from head to toe
The memory of her beauty burned into my mind
Cannot stop her pretty face popping up inside
Cursed to know her name
Cursed to admire her allure
A pleasant curse
A curse sublime
If we never meet again...
It would be a shame
Wished it were different
Hoping for a mere chance
Always fooling myself
Lost within fantasy
For fantasy is my safe haven
Away from uncertainties
A lonely catharsis
Relying by the splendor of her photographic galore
Never will I be short of elegance
She freely flaunts her immaculate aura
I am but one of many who cherishes her gorgeousness
Forbidden fruit tastes sweeter...
Cody Shull, 2019
Jul 12, 2019
Jul 12, 2019 at 12:59 AM UTC
He's sitting alone, waiting
Over there in the corner
Inside the parlor of dreams
Lifetimes of waiting
He has all the patience he needs
Time no longer exists for him
Just the anticipation of arrival
Hoping certain faces appear
Certain names granted to pass through
Between two worlds
Cursed to exist, set apart between two realms
Between two dimensions
Trying to keep the faith that we'll meet again
Time is a burden
A treacherous cross to bear
Uncertainty accompanies each and every second
Always never knowing...
Life is ultimately unfair
Sometimes it's easy to think...
It's pure cruelty to even be born
Would've been nice for some things to be pretend
But, life is just a mere test in the very end....
Cody Shull, 2019
Jun 28, 2019
Jun 28, 2019 at 9:45 AM UTC
You’re locked away
Put aside for someone’s pleasure
You’re in chains
Chains of matrimony
There will be love
There will be quarrel
It’s all that you can expect
It makes me feel terrible
It could’ve been us
Between us two
But, there is nothing left
Stuck in constant fantasy
Do you ever think of me?
I fantasize that you do
And I hope that it’s true
There’s nothing more we can do
I swear
But, you’re still the only thing for which I care
It’s just a shame...
It’s just a saddening pity that’s all
Cody Shull, 2019
May 6, 2019
May 6, 2019 at 5:00 PM UTC
Just one touch from your hand...
I would be sold at an instant
Never let me go and linger
Stay with me for a while
For I am nothing without you
Just a passerby, a stranger
A mere fleeting memory
Gone eternally within seconds
Etch me deep within your remembrance
Let me be forever known
For I am nothing as I am now
Put me to use, initiate me to be
Cody Shull, 2019
Apr 23, 2019
Apr 23, 2019 at 7:03 PM UTC
Flirtatious in the way till you cannot speak
This time the forbidden fruit is too sweet
Look but don’t touch
Never thought I’d like her this much
Wanting to get to know her in more ways than one
Her elegance and beauty leaves me stunned
The way she moves...
Taunting me with every step she takes
Lost in a trance, mesmerized by her lips with every word that she makes
Within fantasy, I delve deeper
She’s certainly a keeper
Endless infatuation
Caught in a state of mesmerization
Left alone with only my thoughts to bear
Tortured by conformity
I wasn’t meant for this time
Too taboo to come to fruition
Lost within a future unknown
Depressed and broken
Cursed to exist
Cody Shull, 2019
Apr 21, 2019
Apr 21, 2019 at 11:55 AM UTC
Transmitting long distance whispers
Telling you something I couldn't before
Things I felt and still do feel
Hiding from discovery to protect myself
Afraid of being singled out
Fear of being denied
Acting on impulse, but meaning well
Unloading these once hidden truths unto you
To take them or leave them
Believe them true, I would never lie to you
My identity, the only masquerade
Pupils widen, noticing you favor my admiration
You accept my infatuation
Your fondness of my words reveals myself to you
Happy to let you know, glad I let it show
If only we can get face to face
What bliss staring into your eyes would be....
Cody Shull, 2019
Jan 15, 2019
Jan 15, 2019 at 1:02 AM UTC
You shatter my self-esteem like glass
You drift away from me like wind blown amongst ash
Wallowing in fear and shame
Drowning with a lack of confidence
Never trusting, always doubting
Never smiling, always sulking
Wishing for a good day
Hoping for a better day
Losing my way, pushed astray
Not knowing who I am
Never knowing what I will end up becoming
Looking ahead in the far distance...
Only a bleak future waits for me
Grey sullen days and the blackest nights
All alone, all on my own
Destined loneliness is my calling
Ever since birth I’ve been falling
Fallen and falling still a crooked path
Tumbling down endlessly
No helping or guiding hand can catch me
Nor point me towards salvation
I am merely cursed to exist
From the beginning and until the end...
Cody Shull, 2018
Dec 20, 2018
Dec 20, 2018 at 11:56 AM UTC
Pleasantly lost
Within those windows to your soul
Never wanting to break this trance
Steadily gazing deep
Blissful mesmerization
Eye to eye hypnotic
An eternal stare of serenity
Forgetting past hardship
Losing myself in this moment
Enraptured by beauty
Cody Shull, 2018
Nov 8, 2018
Nov 8, 2018 at 6:12 PM UTC