i feel this overwhelming sense of calm amongst all of the chaos,
my brain is foggy and i am not sure how to think.
breathe.
you will be okay,
just keep pushing forward.
todays problems will hide behind soon to be tomorrows' haze,
things come and go.
just remember to breathe.
Aug 15, 2018
Aug 15, 2018 at 10:41 PM UTC
you do not understand the power you have
your eyes make me weak at the knees
your hands hold me together
and your love keeps me sane
when you look at me i can see the sky
blue and dazzling
beautiful and bright
you are so soft and strong
standing tall to keep me safe
you don’t understand the power you have
i love you
my heart is yours
and i know this is true
your eyes meet with mine
i have heard that the sky is the limit
with love
there is no limit
so why do you hold the sky in your eyes?
-j.p.
Jun 13, 2018
Jun 13, 2018 at 1:15 AM UTC
bring out the ink, cover the page,
pools or creativity leak onto the desk.
you are incredible,
skill, abilities; boundless.
the sky's the limit and you’ve painted it with ten shades of blue.
brushes vary from size and shape,
pencils range in darkness and texture.
you create tones and shades,
different worlds, different beings present themselves;
bringing new things to existence,
making old things seem new.
you are an artist.
you create.
you, yourself, your art form,
a weapon.
skillful and sharp, utility.
along with your tools,
your training.
you too can become a weapon,
of mass creation.
-j.p.
Mar 28, 2018
Mar 28, 2018 at 1:56 PM UTC
i don't think i've ever been in a place
in myself
where i've felt wanted
i feel kind of dark
my eyes are burning
i'm not sure what to think
sorry i exist
i'll go
-j.p.
Mar 8, 2018
Mar 8, 2018 at 11:08 PM UTC
there's this feeling
of me being
constantly
on the verge
of
something.
i'm not sure what.
or why.
i feel as though,
simultaneously
i'm clinging onto something
while feeling completely disconnected,
from that thing.
i'm lost.
there's this ledge
and i'm trying to tighten my grip.
sweat builds.
i'm slipping.
Feb 17, 2018
Feb 17, 2018 at 8:59 PM UTC
i feel anxious
not sometimes,
not constantly.
well i'm not too sure.
maybe..
i feel like i'm constantly being dragged in every direction,
the stars are plucking at my hair like strings.
and my mind- it seems to wander,
goes anywhere else but where i need it to be.
i will never understand why my feet forget how to walk sometimes,
no they're not judging the way you walk-
well, now, maybe.
i'm not breathing that loudly- stop it you know how to breathe,
now you can't catch your breath.
i will never understand why my eyes flicker to find people who i assume are looking or thinking about me.
no one cares.
so why do i?
-j.p.
Feb 13, 2018
Feb 13, 2018 at 9:02 PM UTC
i promised him i'd write him something
not for him
more for me
i dont wish to have all my thoughts be about another
i want more positivity
i want to write about him
i need to
i want to try and put into words all the emotions that are being pushed towards me
soft
gentle
calm
collected
you make me feel a way no other has made me feel before
i feel enlightened that you love me as much as i do you
beautiful
sweet
serious
control
i trust you with everything
no moment is dull and no second is anxious
breathe
gasp
sweat
love
your hands running along my body feel like silk gliding past me
you don't leave one inch un touched
lovely
honest
loyal
i love him, he has my heart and he's put it on a pedestal
he sees my flaws and kisses the scars
caring
confident
he fills my head with thoughts of bliss
i feel at home inside his arms
safe
i cannot tell if we will last but lord knows i hope we will
hes changed my life
im writing this about him
he is mine and i feel a sense of accomplishment because of this
he is mine and i cannot see it being any other way
yes we write songs, say sweet nothings and make gestures
yes we make mistakes,
but we are human
i believe we will make it.
i love him.
-j.p.
Feb 11, 2018
Feb 11, 2018 at 10:32 PM UTC
i feel like time is
s
l
i
p
p
i
n
g.
i feel like there is more i could have done yesterday.
i regret not kissing you enough yesterday,
because now i realize i can't tomorrow.
today i missed you,
it came in waves like water clashing against rocks.
yesterday i said "tomorrow you'll be okay."
and again i will tell myself, tomorrow.
yesterday wasn't as bad as today is or will be,
yesterday and tomorrow.
does it make a difference if i feel the same?
-j.p.
Feb 11, 2018
Feb 11, 2018 at 8:32 PM UTC
the sound between the music is comforting to me,
it's almost like a void -
but a happy one.
it gives you a slight moment of euphoria,
time to think about, time.
time advancing.
time.
it lasts long enough for you to think.
the static is the anticipation of,
"whats next?"
a soft presence.
it appears for only a moment,
time sails on.
-j.p.
Feb 11, 2018
Feb 11, 2018 at 8:20 PM UTC
his words stuck in my brain like a feather in tar.
tasseled and ruined and destined to stay that way.
our time ran thin and quick like the air in my lungs that night. gasping for air like i’d never known how to breathe again.
his touch lingers on my skin, running around every inch of my body. i’m still waiting for those 7 years to pass so i can have a body completely untouched by yours.
i can’t get the image of him out of my head like a bad scar you regret getting.
it only seems to be getting darker.
when it ended i swore i’d never feel again.
and i just want to say, if you’re heart broken; hold onto to that, because if you let that feeling go.
you just might be a cold stone trown into the void of a sea of emotions.
— thinking about you again.
-j.p.
Feb 11, 2018
Feb 11, 2018 at 3:23 PM UTC