christian-victoria - Hello Poetry

From Marlboros, and thinkin horribles, Each time I think of you is another cigarette gone from my pack. I start my pack full, I test the weight, loving the feel of a full pack in my hand, But with every thought, they start to slip through my fingers like sand, and find their way home on my lips, where my tears just fall off and drip. I started with 20, doing so far so good. Wait whats that? you called?? there goes my mood. A thought of you, a image plus two and then Im done with a few. (17) I choke on my fears, while I clench my hair I called you my dear, and now im done with a pair. (15) Anxiety is something which I so not lack, Giving my breath to this dwindling pack. (13) You feed my addiction being the flame, my heart burns black, while it bears your name. (10) I sit and ponder on these thoughts I wish to behave, Two more ignites, to feed the darkness in which I crave. (8) My pack is now dwindling low, As I struggle to maintain a steady air flow. How else can you sleep, when you've been hit with such a harsh blow. (6) I have clipped my wings, after i have fallen oh so low, in search of my name in your voice, but it is another mans love in which you sing. This cigerette is now the only thing that glows. (3) (Braxton) I remember from where I came and god its a shame, I just wish the addiction never screamed your name Empty. Like my heart, the hollow pack crumples in my hands, wishing to be filled. But the self destructive cycle repeats again, and again. . And I begin my pack full, yet again testing the weight..

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Jun 2, 2015

Jun 2, 2015 at 10:27 PM UTC

Vices.

From Marlboros, and thinkin horribles, Each time I think of you is another cigarette gone from my pack. I start my pack full, I test the weight, loving the feel of a full pack in my hand, But with every thought, they start to slip through my fingers like sand, and find their way home on my lips, where my tears just fall off and drip. I started with 20, doing so far so good. Wait whats that? you called?? there goes my mood. A thought of you, a image plus two and then Im done with a few. (17) I choke on my fears, while I clench my hair I called you my dear, and now im done with a pair. (15) Anxiety is something which I so not lack, Giving my breath to this dwindling pack. (13) You feed my addiction being the flame, my heart burns black, while it bears your name. (10) I sit and ponder on these thoughts I wish to behave, Two more ignites, to feed the darkness in which I crave. (8) My pack is now dwindling low, As I struggle to maintain a steady air flow. How else can you sleep, when you've been hit with such a harsh blow. (6) I have clipped my wings, after i have fallen oh so low, in search of my name in your voice, but it is another mans love in which you sing. This cigerette is now the only thing that glows. (3) (Braxton) I remember from where I came and god its a shame, I just wish the addiction never screamed your name Empty. Like my heart, the hollow pack crumples in my hands, wishing to be filled. But the self destructive cycle repeats again, and again. . And I begin my pack full, yet again testing the weight..

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The pounding in my head won't go away, At first I blamed the alcohol, but I soon realized it was just you.

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Nov 30, 2014

Nov 30, 2014 at 10:24 PM UTC

You.

The pounding in my head won't go away, At first I blamed the alcohol, but I soon realized it was just you.

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when you read this, let this not be a bitter reminder, but a glimpse on who I will be. This will not be the last you hear from me, for I'll always be there for you. I changed and aged into someone better, not because I chose to, but because I had you in my corner. My life differs than that it was a year ago, and you're to thanks. Even though we have drifted apart, and the situation we are in will always destroy me in the inside. But I'll still be kicking and screaming, for I am alive. So when you read this, let this not be a bitter reminder of our times spent together, but a glimpse on who I am, Who I was, and who I will be. And hopefully down the road, this will not be a bitter reminder to me on who we where, what we had, but, hopefully, as I pray everyday, what we will be..

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Nov 15, 2014

Nov 15, 2014 at 2:14 PM UTC

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when you read this, let this not be a bitter reminder, but a glimpse on who I will be. This will not be the last you hear from me, for I'll always be there for you. I changed and aged into someone better, not because I chose to, but because I had you in my corner. My life differs than that it was a year ago, and you're to thanks. Even though we have drifted apart, and the situation we are in will always destroy me in the inside. But I'll still be kicking and screaming, for I am alive. So when you read this, let this not be a bitter reminder of our times spent together, but a glimpse on who I am, Who I was, and who I will be. And hopefully down the road, this will not be a bitter reminder to me on who we where, what we had, but, hopefully, as I pray everyday, what we will be..

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I add and subtract + These problems I am faced with × Wishing you where here. -

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Nov 14, 2014

Nov 14, 2014 at 10:32 AM UTC

An Equation.

I add and subtract + These problems I am faced with × Wishing you where here. -

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I lay here waiting. Waiting here for you to call. Your call never comes.

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Nov 12, 2014

Nov 12, 2014 at 10:55 PM UTC

Latenights.

I lay here waiting. Waiting here for you to call. Your call never comes.

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11/9/2014 Hey Thanks, Thank you for the long talks on the phone, Thank you for all those fights and arguments, Thank you for all those times we yelled and swore at each other, All those times you said we where done. Hey Thanks, Thank You for staying after we fought, Thank you for never giving up on me when everyone else has, Even though I'm a big weight to carry. Hey Thanks, Thank you for giving me hope, Thank you for giving me meaning again, Thank you for making me a better person. Even though we talk less now, Hey Thanks, Thank you for loving me.

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Nov 10, 2014

Nov 10, 2014 at 12:08 AM UTC

Hey Thanks.

11/9/2014 Hey Thanks, Thank you for the long talks on the phone, Thank you for all those fights and arguments, Thank you for all those times we yelled and swore at each other, All those times you said we where done. Hey Thanks, Thank You for staying after we fought, Thank you for never giving up on me when everyone else has, Even though I'm a big weight to carry. Hey Thanks, Thank you for giving me hope, Thank you for giving me meaning again, Thank you for making me a better person. Even though we talk less now, Hey Thanks, Thank you for loving me.

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Dead conversations fill my phone, Wondering where all the life went, Nothing but sadness creeping up my bones, My heart yearns for the times we have spent.

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Nov 8, 2014

Nov 8, 2014 at 8:28 PM UTC

dead conversations.

Dead conversations fill my phone, Wondering where all the life went, Nothing but sadness creeping up my bones, My heart yearns for the times we have spent.

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I miss you, there is no denying it. without your grace I feel unfit. You glow like a shining star, Giving hope to this broken heart.

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Nov 7, 2014

Nov 7, 2014 at 10:09 PM UTC

Miss you.

I miss you, there is no denying it. without your grace I feel unfit. You glow like a shining star, Giving hope to this broken heart.

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Press "Play" and hear me let these lyrics help heal you for you have pressed "pause"

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Nov 5, 2014

Nov 5, 2014 at 11:26 AM UTC

Play.

Press "Play" and hear me let these lyrics help heal you for you have pressed "pause"

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*He's broken, He's a mess, He's got habits that I yearn to detest. He's no good, He make poor choices, He failed to hear the voices, to keep him in line, and in check, to keep him from things that he'd regret.* *He's arrogant, he's rude, he's guilt tripping and shrewd. He smokes and says "He's trying to stop" knowing he could flop, knowing It would hurt me with every truth he spoke, I couldn't bear to hear him as he said "Yeah I smoked.."* *I gave him lots of chances, as he said he got better, but his mistakes burned into me, just like hot embers.* *He won't leave me alone, even when I ask, I ask my self, "why is he such a task" He says he cares, but he fails to see, the endless amounts of stress he puts on me.* *Guilt trips is what he does with unrest, What is he doing, is this some kind of test? I'm trying my hardest to see this through, He says girls like me, are only a few. He tells me, I made him brand new.* --- **She's golden, She's pure, she cares about me and all that I do, It was her, in which she helped change my view. But strong I was not, and I soon faltered, Bad habits picked up and her love for me altered. She's loving, and harsh, did I mention she was most caring? the way I hurt her was most overbearing,** **I tried my hardest , but I would soon be tearing, our ties in which we held so dear , she's all I care about, I love her indefinitely, without a doubt.** **She forgave me many times but weak I am, living with regrets, she was the only one who gave a **** **I slowly gotten better, but that to was slowed down, as all I ever did, was made her frown.** **I won't give up as I tell her each day, "I'm sorry It was a mistake, please I want you to stay" Her words cut like knives, as I was soon deprived, of the one thing I so longed to keep.** **She's one of a kind, a really rare lady, I went to her when I was in need of safety.** **She was not afraid to tell me straight up, that it was bad habits and friends, that I needed to give up.** **I continue to work towards gaining her back, for it was my heart in which she hijacked.** **After this poem I'm done for sure, Because losing you was the cure.** **The cure I needed, to finally give it up all those mistakes, For your absence was enough for me to awake.** **I long to hear you voice So I will prove to you on my choice, To finally be the person you deserve.** "Yeah..." "Yeah..."

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Nov 5, 2014

Nov 5, 2014 at 11:17 AM UTC

Sides.

*He's broken, He's a mess, He's got habits that I yearn to detest. He's no good, He make poor choices, He failed to hear the voices, to keep him in line, and in check, to keep him from things that he'd regret.* *He's arrogant, he's rude, he's guilt tripping and shrewd. He smokes and says "He's trying to stop" knowing he could flop, knowing It would hurt me with every truth he spoke, I couldn't bear to hear him as he said "Yeah I smoked.."* *I gave him lots of chances, as he said he got better, but his mistakes burned into me, just like hot embers.* *He won't leave me alone, even when I ask, I ask my self, "why is he such a task" He says he cares, but he fails to see, the endless amounts of stress he puts on me.* *Guilt trips is what he does with unrest, What is he doing, is this some kind of test? I'm trying my hardest to see this through, He says girls like me, are only a few. He tells me, I made him brand new.* --- **She's golden, She's pure, she cares about me and all that I do, It was her, in which she helped change my view. But strong I was not, and I soon faltered, Bad habits picked up and her love for me altered. She's loving, and harsh, did I mention she was most caring? the way I hurt her was most overbearing,** **I tried my hardest , but I would soon be tearing, our ties in which we held so dear , she's all I care about, I love her indefinitely, without a doubt.** **She forgave me many times but weak I am, living with regrets, she was the only one who gave a **** **I slowly gotten better, but that to was slowed down, as all I ever did, was made her frown.** **I won't give up as I tell her each day, "I'm sorry It was a mistake, please I want you to stay" Her words cut like knives, as I was soon deprived, of the one thing I so longed to keep.** **She's one of a kind, a really rare lady, I went to her when I was in need of safety.** **She was not afraid to tell me straight up, that it was bad habits and friends, that I needed to give up.** **I continue to work towards gaining her back, for it was my heart in which she hijacked.** **After this poem I'm done for sure, Because losing you was the cure.** **The cure I needed, to finally give it up all those mistakes, For your absence was enough for me to awake.** **I long to hear you voice So I will prove to you on my choice, To finally be the person you deserve.** "Yeah..." "Yeah..."

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