chris-ellison - Hello Poetry

Don't follow Don't lead Proceed If you have never done something, do it. Who's holding you back from the way you act? Your Dad, Girlfriend, Boyfriend or Mother? Uncle, Aunt, Sister or Brother? Friends? No, you are holing back. All you do is talk about skills you lack. If you took all your skills and put them in a stack, It could get you to the moon, then back. Stop bein so whack Because you are human. All you mean to do is learn and adapt. So go back to your roots. There's nothing wrong with that. You'll realize your physical body is the trick in fact. And that's scary at first, but for better or for worse You shed the veil, the forgotten curse. This is an event one cannot rehearse.

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Jan 25, 2013

Jan 25, 2013 at 1:34 AM UTC

Removing yourself

Don't follow Don't lead Proceed If you have never done something, do it. Who's holding you back from the way you act? Your Dad, Girlfriend, Boyfriend or Mother? Uncle, Aunt, Sister or Brother? Friends? No, you are holing back. All you do is talk about skills you lack. If you took all your skills and put them in a stack, It could get you to the moon, then back. Stop bein so whack Because you are human. All you mean to do is learn and adapt. So go back to your roots. There's nothing wrong with that. You'll realize your physical body is the trick in fact. And that's scary at first, but for better or for worse You shed the veil, the forgotten curse. This is an event one cannot rehearse.

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When it is open, you can see. Everything here is meant to be. The sad, mad, happy, glad. Experiences to be had. Loving, losing, begging, choosing. When you know that, it goes easy. No queasy, unsettled stomach mixed with a broken heart. No wishing to restart, because it's all a part. With one start. So, don't diminish before the finish. Don't get cocky after a scrimmage. Don't get mad because you have to do the dishes. Don't be sad your friends sleeping with the fishes. The life you have, has it's own salve. It may take one thousand lives for you, but you can help you through. As long as you keep it open. I'm not jokin'. If you can't open it, be with it. Learn it, understand it. The mind is insane, like an open flame to propane. My desire is to spread knowledge, like wild fire. Mine is open. Peaceful? Serene? Beautiful? No. Just content, unbent. And ready for anything.

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Mar 2, 2012

Mar 2, 2012 at 5:25 PM UTC

Open it

When it is open, you can see. Everything here is meant to be. The sad, mad, happy, glad. Experiences to be had. Loving, losing, begging, choosing. When you know that, it goes easy. No queasy, unsettled stomach mixed with a broken heart. No wishing to restart, because it's all a part. With one start. So, don't diminish before the finish. Don't get cocky after a scrimmage. Don't get mad because you have to do the dishes. Don't be sad your friends sleeping with the fishes. The life you have, has it's own salve. It may take one thousand lives for you, but you can help you through. As long as you keep it open. I'm not jokin'. If you can't open it, be with it. Learn it, understand it. The mind is insane, like an open flame to propane. My desire is to spread knowledge, like wild fire. Mine is open. Peaceful? Serene? Beautiful? No. Just content, unbent. And ready for anything.

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Hungry. but all I have is cigarettes, so I smoke. Exhausted from all this walking. I sit down, hand out. Do you have any spare change? "No, sorry." Everyone answers the same. Strive (but for what?) (you're no body) Just a homeless man A pillow would be nice. But I would have no where to keep it? My life is like a secret. Another cigarette. (only 2 left) (need to make them last) Stomach is knotted (better find food) I know the town, there is a store close by. "Hello sir, how are you?" Fine, thanks. I walk around the store. The smell of food, cancels the hunger. But just in case, I stole a candy bar. I sit down to eat, and smoke another cigarette. Put my hand out. (the people here are generous) I got twenty dollars here once. Bought three packs of cigarettes, and a lighter. A five dollar bill, falls into frame. I look around, no one near. It must be a sign. Somebody is telling me to wake up, inside. There's that candy bar. Oh so good. Finish it off with a cigarette. Then I will buy another pack.

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Feb 29, 2012

Feb 29, 2012 at 10:18 PM UTC

Homeless Hunger

Hungry. but all I have is cigarettes, so I smoke. Exhausted from all this walking. I sit down, hand out. Do you have any spare change? "No, sorry." Everyone answers the same. Strive (but for what?) (you're no body) Just a homeless man A pillow would be nice. But I would have no where to keep it? My life is like a secret. Another cigarette. (only 2 left) (need to make them last) Stomach is knotted (better find food) I know the town, there is a store close by. "Hello sir, how are you?" Fine, thanks. I walk around the store. The smell of food, cancels the hunger. But just in case, I stole a candy bar. I sit down to eat, and smoke another cigarette. Put my hand out. (the people here are generous) I got twenty dollars here once. Bought three packs of cigarettes, and a lighter. A five dollar bill, falls into frame. I look around, no one near. It must be a sign. Somebody is telling me to wake up, inside. There's that candy bar. Oh so good. Finish it off with a cigarette. Then I will buy another pack.

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Wind, rushing Up and down the body Hair, like wildfire Hands, held together Struggling for warmth I feel the wind In between my toes like rushing water through a canyon Feeling smaller with every gust Eroding My body Shivering Muscles spasm uncontrollably I need clothes I need shelter The bone chilling air comes over me once more I have no more hope No more drive I stop And let the snow fall

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Apr 6, 2011

Apr 6, 2011 at 6:32 PM UTC

It's been a while.

Wind, rushing Up and down the body Hair, like wildfire Hands, held together Struggling for warmth I feel the wind In between my toes like rushing water through a canyon Feeling smaller with every gust Eroding My body Shivering Muscles spasm uncontrollably I need clothes I need shelter The bone chilling air comes over me once more I have no more hope No more drive I stop And let the snow fall

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Here I am Once again Better than I was before I'm tired of being walked all over I'm tired of being treated like a floor It is time to get up Time to open a new door Everyday is different for you Never making up your mind My mind had been set My love, you can no longer find I will always miss you dearly And keep you close inside my heart But, I think it's for the better If we head back to the start I do not wish for pain for the time we are apart Seperation makes the heart grow fonder

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Jan 19, 2011

Jan 19, 2011 at 2:03 PM UTC

A tribute

Here I am Once again Better than I was before I'm tired of being walked all over I'm tired of being treated like a floor It is time to get up Time to open a new door Everyday is different for you Never making up your mind My mind had been set My love, you can no longer find I will always miss you dearly And keep you close inside my heart But, I think it's for the better If we head back to the start I do not wish for pain for the time we are apart Seperation makes the heart grow fonder

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I so desperately crawl Somewhere safe Where I can rest This pain I felt in my chest So ordinary It almost tells me Life is hard So I crawled down a forever winding road A road so long, the only end is a hole So I ventured into that hole It became my home I loved it down there laughing everyday loving everyday not a care in the world But, then I had realized That this was no longer A nice place Something happened, that I cannot even explain I wanted to leave my home Forever It was no longer a safe place Not for my body Not for my mind But, everytime I went to get out of that hole I called home Something pushed me back in Then light as bright as a new mornings sun, handed me a rope This rope screamed my name, So loud I was frightened to grab a hold I was elevated from this hole Into the world I was missing This sun was so nice to me Always wanting me to do good things Helping me move through in a positive way The sun transformed into a woman I loved this woman She always listened and cared I became in love with this woman so quickly I scared myself I was so afraid of this emotion I felt I didn't speak I just did whatever the woman wanted I was found by a lover that was not only my way out of the darkness, but it was a lover who needed and still needs help out of their own darkness.

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Jan 15, 2011

Jan 15, 2011 at 11:57 AM UTC

Found

I so desperately crawl Somewhere safe Where I can rest This pain I felt in my chest So ordinary It almost tells me Life is hard So I crawled down a forever winding road A road so long, the only end is a hole So I ventured into that hole It became my home I loved it down there laughing everyday loving everyday not a care in the world But, then I had realized That this was no longer A nice place Something happened, that I cannot even explain I wanted to leave my home Forever It was no longer a safe place Not for my body Not for my mind But, everytime I went to get out of that hole I called home Something pushed me back in Then light as bright as a new mornings sun, handed me a rope This rope screamed my name, So loud I was frightened to grab a hold I was elevated from this hole Into the world I was missing This sun was so nice to me Always wanting me to do good things Helping me move through in a positive way The sun transformed into a woman I loved this woman She always listened and cared I became in love with this woman so quickly I scared myself I was so afraid of this emotion I felt I didn't speak I just did whatever the woman wanted I was found by a lover that was not only my way out of the darkness, but it was a lover who needed and still needs help out of their own darkness.

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Laughter Adventure Fun and Games We all knew each other And also each of our names We played so well together Didn't get bored when we were together Everything always ended in a laugh - Now we don't know each other We barely speak to each other That laughter Those games That fun And adventure is now circling down the drain Now when we are near one another We are not sane Everything ends up in tears

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Jan 5, 2011

Jan 5, 2011 at 8:43 PM UTC

Friends have become Foe

Laughter Adventure Fun and Games We all knew each other And also each of our names We played so well together Didn't get bored when we were together Everything always ended in a laugh - Now we don't know each other We barely speak to each other That laughter Those games That fun And adventure is now circling down the drain Now when we are near one another We are not sane Everything ends up in tears

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Sometimes, I'm not where I want to be. Sometimes, I see things I don't want to see Sometimes, I hear things I don't want hear Sometimes, I say things that shouldn't be said Sometimes, I think thoughts that don't need to be thought Sometimes, I wish for things I can't have Sometimes, I follow instead of lead Sometimes

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Jan 2, 2011

Jan 2, 2011 at 6:53 PM UTC

Sometimes

Sometimes, I'm not where I want to be. Sometimes, I see things I don't want to see Sometimes, I hear things I don't want hear Sometimes, I say things that shouldn't be said Sometimes, I think thoughts that don't need to be thought Sometimes, I wish for things I can't have Sometimes, I follow instead of lead Sometimes

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We are not free We are slaves to the system When we as for help You just pretend to listen But when we speak out We as individuals are shut put So go ahead and tell me where you went to college Looking down the barrel of a loaded gun, which is your knowledge You tell me that I don't have potential I don't give a **** about your god **** credentials But still You shove it down my throat expecting me not to choke you expect me to listen to you when you won't even listen to me Now here I am What if you heard that the next day I chose the rope instead of the books Do you feel how wrong this looks What would you do then? Would you still be sipping drinks in your den Or would you realized that you should have handed me a piece of paper and a pen STILL You continue to feed the flame So I say **** the system They won't listen

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Jan 2, 2011

Jan 2, 2011 at 5:24 PM UTC

**** the System

We are not free We are slaves to the system When we as for help You just pretend to listen But when we speak out We as individuals are shut put So go ahead and tell me where you went to college Looking down the barrel of a loaded gun, which is your knowledge You tell me that I don't have potential I don't give a **** about your god **** credentials But still You shove it down my throat expecting me not to choke you expect me to listen to you when you won't even listen to me Now here I am What if you heard that the next day I chose the rope instead of the books Do you feel how wrong this looks What would you do then? Would you still be sipping drinks in your den Or would you realized that you should have handed me a piece of paper and a pen STILL You continue to feed the flame So I say **** the system They won't listen

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Yet again I have more thoughts I looked into your eyes You are in love So in love You can't look away I hear your voice You are in love So in love Your voice stutters I feel your touch You are in love So in love Your hands shake I hear your breath You are in love So in love Your breathing becomes faint I feel your body You are in love So in love Your body comes closer everytime we touch I listen to your words You are in love So in love You say you love me I feel your heart beat You are in love So in love We are the same We are in love So in love It drives us insane

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Jan 2, 2011

Jan 2, 2011 at 2:53 PM UTC

My Mind 2

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