It's funny how such little things can ruin my day.
I try not to let it happen, but it just does....
Sep 17, 2015
Sep 17, 2015 at 11:33 AM UTC
Around other people she starts thinking maybe she's okay
but when she's by herself she falls apart, all the good feelings slip away
her self hatred and sadness come back
So she takes a swig of the bottle
and lights a cig from the pack.
Packs a bowl and smokes it to her face,
why does she have to feel like such a god **** disgrace?
She's trying to escape reality,
can't deal with her ****** up mentality
Always struggling to hide the pain
fake a smile and go on with her day.
Jul 19, 2015
Jul 19, 2015 at 6:15 PM UTC
When I see you,
The memories come flooding back,
And they drown me.
Apr 24, 2015
Apr 24, 2015 at 3:53 PM UTC
To this day you've never given me a reason why you left.
You just did.
You abandoned me,
And acted like I wasn't worth an explanation.
You broke my heart.
And You ******* destroyed me.
Apr 24, 2015
Apr 24, 2015 at 3:45 PM UTC
I'm always in my own little world.
Always.
I interact with people but
I don't feel anything,
There's no real emotion.
I've forgotten how to feel,
I'm constantly numb to everything,
Lost in a secret place
That my brain pushes me to.
Apr 21, 2015
Apr 21, 2015 at 1:20 PM UTC
I feel like my life is falling apart right in front of my face and there's nothing I can do about it...
And that scares me more than anything.
Apr 19, 2015
Apr 19, 2015 at 5:15 PM UTC
Just for once in my pathetic life
I want someone to be afraid of losing me...
Apr 19, 2015
Apr 19, 2015 at 5:12 PM UTC
Cigs,
Alcohol,
Mary Jane,
It's what I need
To drown the pain.
You say they're bad,
But I say they're good.
You tell me to quit,
If I cared I would.
Mar 10, 2015
Mar 10, 2015 at 4:17 PM UTC
And when I think of you,
I feel better.
Like maybe my heart is fixable.
Mar 10, 2015
Mar 10, 2015 at 4:06 PM UTC
We live in a place
Where a warm heart and a good soul
are no good to have unless you have beauty,
And that, I think,
Is the saddest thing of all.
Mar 10, 2015
Mar 10, 2015 at 4:04 PM UTC