We all take a step
We all take a breath
Learning to hide our inner emotions
Fearing the worst
Knowing only the fear
containing us from what really out there
holding you back and not letting you surrender
I'm not going to be quiet any longer
The games you've been playing
The things you keep saying
Hate is all you can give me but for what
What did I do that made you hate me
Did I say something to offend you
Say your name in a snotty tone
No I liked you for a mere
TWO WEEKS
and its been years since I've actually spoken to you
all I get is messages saying how much you
"Hate me"
but for what reason because
every second you hate me
is another second you spend WASTING your time
hating someone
Who did nothing
and doesn't deserve to be hated
in the least
we are to old for this get over it
I've been over it since sophomore year
its time you stop acting like we are in middle school
because face it
we are not 13 anymore
This year is about
Forward moving
and I cant move forward if there is something
someone
who can't seem to shake something from
four years ago
I'm done
Aug 27, 2015
Aug 27, 2015 at 1:57 PM UTC
No more tears
I promised myself
Anger and Fear
I need out
I am "safe"
won't hurt a fly
only maybe
MAYBE
I may try
I see my blood
My long lost blood
and forever I thought it was finally gone
Now as I sit on this plane
Thinking about the times you were not here
When I wanted to die
The days that I spent crying
I sit on a plane only writing a line
So I said
Who knows how many you have read
Well its time for sleep
hush hush
Sweet dreams
May 14, 2015
May 14, 2015 at 9:09 AM UTC
The wind is whispering
Hush hush
All of our secrets
Coldly
Sharply
Like a sea of needles
May 12, 2015
May 12, 2015 at 12:39 PM UTC
I'm under stress
It's getting worse
soon itll be
better
Jan 12, 2015
Jan 12, 2015 at 3:17 PM UTC
When you left
I never thought I'd ever be happy again
I wasn't right
I have been happy
But there's still something missing
This is hard
to say
to anyone
especially someone who knows your deepest secrets
who can scream them to the entire world
but someone who should know
that even though
your heart has been torn by the person mentioned before
something still pulls you towards them
though you promised yourself
you were over him
promised your parents
you were friends again
but the pain of seeing him hurts so much
because you know you're still in total utter love with him
but you don't want to ruin your just mended friendship
or have him hate you again
yet when people tell you he still likes you its hard not to think you have a chance
and you've apologized over and over for what you've done
but never once has he said you've been forgiven
It's hard when you love someone
And you would do anything for them
This is hard
telling you that I'm still crazy about you
This is stupid
God
This is hard
Jan 12, 2015
Jan 12, 2015 at 3:11 PM UTC
You have forgotten me
Not the first time
I'm fine
Jan 12, 2015
Jan 12, 2015 at 3:02 PM UTC
Mom left.
Depression
Anxiety
Mom found
Jan 12, 2015
Jan 12, 2015 at 2:59 PM UTC
Two painted delicate wings
six thin legs exit the womb
the warmth of the encasement
of the broken cocoon
she flies
out
and up
only to find a net
The struggle
let her be free
she tries to get out
but
she can't
a foot lies on top of her
only three minutes old
she's already dead
Jan 5, 2015
Jan 5, 2015 at 9:10 AM UTC
It's never going to work out
they used to tell me
but I shoved them away
almost three months later
you weren't part of my life
but I needed you
I still do
You were my best friend first
why couldn't you see that
I try to catch a glimpse of you every now and again
but seeing your face breaks my heart
and I know my heart ache will never end
so suddenly I feel I need to move on no matter
how hard it is for me not to love you
I can't because this is all my fault
And I hate myself more and more every day
because I hurt you
and that to me is the worst mistake I ever ******* made
You were everything to me
remember the hugs?
how bout the kisses?
remember homecoming?
The way we ditched it?
Walked around the building while it was raining?
Now all it does is rain
I'm tired of rain it reminds me of that night
when we were so happy
now all I think about is your laughter
It's okay that you hate me
for I am to blame
But lying to you
was the worst ******* mistake I've ever made
Dec 18, 2014
Dec 18, 2014 at 8:11 AM UTC