He looks back at you from two desks over
Your heartbeat skyrockets as he takes in your tear-filled eyes
You feel so vulnerable
You hold each other's gaze
There's no need to look at the front of the classroom
But I wish I could've warned you
You should've looked away.
You shouldn't have said anything that next day
You shouldn't have given him your number
And for God's sake, you shouldn't have fallen in love.
I ask, why did it happen so easily?
It's been eight months since then.
Why couldn't you have walked away?
He tricked you
He danced with you
He kissed you
He played the piano for you.
He was sweet
And you fell for it.
I wish I could've warned you
You should've realized
When he wouldn't hold your hand
What he was worth
When he found another girl so quickly
What you didn't mean to him
You were so in love...
And so heartbroken...
I wish I could've warned you
You should've let him go
You shouldn't have let yourself become his "second best"
His other girl
You should be shamed
You should regret it
But you didn't
And you still don't
The only thing you do anymore
Is wish he'd talk to you more often
Wish he'd kiss you again
Wish he'd pretend to like you
Like he pretended before
I'm warning you now
Though I know you won't listen
You know who he is and what he does
But you still won't listen to me
Because you love him anyways still
But if that's true,
Why do you feel so conflicted?
Why do you cry over him so often?
You always blame yourself
But you shouldn't because
He didn't come with a warning.
Oct 2, 2011
Oct 2, 2011 at 12:39 PM UTC
I am yours; save me
You have my friggin soul
Another poem
Another boy
Another broken heart
And what of your promise?
Of someday soon...
You'll love me more than her
But you don't believe in love, do you?
Liar.
I hate you; come back to me
It hurts to see you smile now
I know you don't care
This much has been proven
But do you know what you've done to me?
Are doing to me now?
You hurt mewith that smile
The one that gives me butterflies
And you probably know that you do
You are a sadist
Watching me squirm
And what of me?
The lost little girl that you "forgot"
Well, I find myself enjoying the pain
You turned me into the
*********
I love you; love me
Those stolen moments under the stars
So close, yet so far away
The freezing cold and the burning hot
The jokes, the stories
The laughs stifled from others' ears
I miss you more than seeing you on a day-to-day basis
I want to speak to you again
But not just a one sided conversation
I want you to smile at me and mean it
To love me like I loved you
But you won't
You could
Because your problem was just that:
You were afraid you would
Because you could
Afraid that you would love me
Because I make it easy for you
Molding myself to your empty shell
You are NOTHING to me
But I could text you
Even just one last word
To show you what you really are
Destroyer.
I miss you; forget me
Like you did before
But I won't for you
I'll look fondly back on those moments, stolen
Of love and lying
And I'll not regret them
I'll think of how it all started
With my death and your death
Both by your hand
I'll remember those cute remarks
Like "ewwie" and "nicce"
I'll smile everytime I think of them
I'll recall how you offered to save me
Deeming you my hero
You can forget me
Forget all this
But I can't
Because you'll always and forever
Be my
Superman.
Oct 2, 2011
Oct 2, 2011 at 12:23 PM UTC
Wrapped all around in black
The color of night
Nothing shows through the chilly velvet curtain
Save for the stars, dotting the sky
Black
Wrapped all around in red
The color of love
And suffering
Such a complex color
Making the heart throb
In pleasure and pain
In torture and relief
Red
Wrapped all around in black
The darkness that surrounds you
Penetrates you
Permeates your soul
It's almost suffocating
And comfortable at the same time
Black
Wrapped all around in red
The blood that envelopes you
Stains your skin
The soothing pain of a twisted being
So vibrant, so striking
So amazing on him
Red
Oct 2, 2011
Oct 2, 2011 at 12:05 PM UTC
If you picked him out from a million people
You'd never think of him twice
Why would you? He looks like the average
Delinquent, hiding in the back
Under your radar.
If you'd watched him
You'd find that he keeps everything secret
At least until
He wanted you to know too.
Sucky Superman sits quietly across the classroom
As un-super as can be
As secret as can be
But even now, he looks this way
He remembers, from the time of
His loving,
His lying,
His leaving.
If you'd see him as I did
The secret superhero, who offers,
"I will save you."
And so,
You'd take his hand.
Oct 2, 2011
Oct 2, 2011 at 11:57 AM UTC
So you might think that I am moving on
And maybe I am, so to say
Your cute smile and your blue eyes
Don't bother anymore
But my heart still hurts
And I miss you you killed mine
Broken
Love
Don't listen to that last stanza, ***
You killed me everytime you smiled
My love was secret from you
It drove my friends crazy
How much I liked you and you could not know
Unless you felt
What I
Hid
Oct 2, 2011
Oct 2, 2011 at 11:48 AM UTC
Be mine? Never
Never in a million years
Years from now you'll see me
Me, a changed person
Person you'll regret
Regret not taking
Taking forever away
Away and on your own forever
Forever and always
Always missing
Missing out
Oct 2, 2011
Oct 2, 2011 at 11:43 AM UTC