I am sad today
but what day am I not?
I am sad today tears are falling
but what day are they not?
I am sad today my armored heart bleeds
but what day does it not?
I am sad today crying does nothing
but what day does it?
I am sad today with no where turn.
I remember days there was somewhere.
I am sad today I am alone
but what days am I not?
Oct 9, 2013
Oct 9, 2013 at 10:27 AM UTC
demons encircle me in darkness
my heart try's to shine bright
these dark shadows follow me
my heart thunders as i struggle to breathe
you all live so innocently not seeing these demons that attack
these dark shadows harassing me at every turn
your all so innocent
so immature
do you not see these evil things working their way into my soul? me heart?
i envy you, your lives
not a care in the world a mommy and a daddy who care
not needing to grow up unlike me
these demons threaten me everyday
they drink the happiness from my body
feeding from me
exercise these demons someone please
i beg of you rid them from my soul
but i know you cant
they live along beside me
attached to my soul forever
to rid them i must rid myself of this world.
these demons will always be in control.......
Oct 25, 2012
Oct 25, 2012 at 1:15 PM UTC
here
where my soul dies
here
where my eyes cry
here
where i take the blame
here
where you break cries from my throat
here
where i wish i could fly or float
here
where my personal hell resides
here
where my suffering has bagan
here
where i hope the suffereing will end
here
where the hate surrounds me
here
where i call my home.
Oct 20, 2012
Oct 20, 2012 at 5:52 PM UTC
im at the bottom looking up
theres no promise of clear skys but god has my back
im gonna try
try harder than i ever have before
i have strong relationships and even stronger friends
im done waiting for my family to get stronger
its me its i who need to be strong to live the life i was meant to live
to breathe to let everything shine and not give a care
i need to heal.
Oct 19, 2012
Oct 19, 2012 at 10:44 AM UTC
wind wrap your fingers in my hair
air let me breathe you in
sun warm my body
birds sing my song
leaves incircle me with your color
chill remind me im human
clouds take me away to better places.
Sep 28, 2012
Sep 28, 2012 at 8:24 AM UTC
Please chair swallow me
eat me whole
Drown out those around me
Soon it will all sink in
Tears will fight to fall
They all stare
Is something wrong
Please chair swallow me
Eat me whole
Hide me from these monsters
It has sunk in
The tears have fallen they have won
There knowing glances burn
Yet they know nothing
I have done no wrong
So swallow me chair
Eat me whole
Steal me from this judgemental world
Sep 26, 2012
Sep 26, 2012 at 11:20 AM UTC
they sleep in the streets we sleep in our beds
they starve we waste
some fought for our country
some took the wrong path
we laugh we make fun they cry they plead
they freeze while we cuddle by the fire
we think we are better but if we were good we would help them
we would save them
some have kids that die from lack of what we throw away
all the while we primp and cherish pets we dont even like
we eat from silver and china
they eat from the ground from what we throw away
we are cowards while they brave the world the night with no where to hide
we are the monsters of the world
they are less fortunate and we roll with laughter because the mistakes we could of made they taught us not to by making them first.
Sep 26, 2012
Sep 26, 2012 at 8:46 AM UTC
*chills race threw the air
color spurts from the trees
the world around seems gray
sniffles creep
children giggle as they disapear in discarted leaves
arms wrapped circled one another
snuggling is a routene
days shrink
the sun plays hide and seek
pull sweaters tight
autumn is in the air*
Sep 26, 2012
Sep 26, 2012 at 8:26 AM UTC
nervouse breaths
shaky hands
gentle caresses
thumping hearts
hidden feelings
revealed wants
small nibbles
rough kisses
whispered moans
no regrets
Sep 25, 2012
Sep 25, 2012 at 10:13 AM UTC
**mistakes
the portal to future
the trail to the past
lies
the dirt hidden beneath your skin
the crys in the back of your head
broken
the cracks in your skin you cover with a smile
the downfall of what they call your life
screaming
the emotionaly pain riding threw your body
the electricity that stops your heart but all the while brings you to life
bleeding
the final stage till the end
the end of both future and past
this is the end to it all to the mistakes, the lies, the breaking, the screaming, the bleeding it all is over**
Sep 25, 2012
Sep 25, 2012 at 10:06 AM UTC